Like a queen in days of old

VAVOOM!

Get them wet and staring into each other's eyes, all right. I will personally see to it. >:)

He has an angel's instinct to flee all sin. He's learned, over time, that sin is more complex than he used to think, but he is still instinctively afraid of being angry. So he leaps to "I forgive you," which he thinks is the cure to anger, but actually it's just spiritual bypassing.

Why is he angry?

In his mind, he just offered Crowley everything. He thinks this is all Crowley should want. After all, he remembers the angel Crowley was, how he loved making nebulas. He wants to give that back to him.

And Crowley says no. That's bad enough. Aziraphale has always been certain until this moment that Crowley would follow him anywhere. Before, Crowley was the one with a plan to go somewhere together and Aziraphale was the one who refused! So he just assumed Crowley wanted to come with him.

But then—the kiss. The only deadly sins Aziraphale is really into are avarice (but only of books) and gluttony (which Crowley was the one to tempt him into). Now I don't think either of these is sinful, not the way Aziraphale indulges in them. But I think on some level Aziraphale does feel a bit guilty about those.

Now Crowley has introduced him to a whole new sin—lust. I don't know if he even ever thought of it before. But that kiss was enough to make him feel it. Aziraphale's instant reaction is rage—he has been tempted, he has been corrupted, he's going to want this for the rest of his eternity now! It's not going to change his mind, because he has strong reasons for why he's doing what he is, but now it's going to hurt so much more to do it.

So he forgives Crowley. Only not really. He means to reject the temptation to anger, but he's still mad and you can hear it in the prim, condescending tone of his voice. (Oh, Aziraphale. I know you too well.)

When Crowley says "don't bother," he means a couple things. Most obviously "I don't want your forgiveness, I don't want you if you're going to be like this."

But I think perhaps on a deeper level, it's "I'm not sorry I kissed you. I refuse to acknowledge that forgiveness is even applicable or desirable."

Sounds cheesy? Ok but hear me out because this involves Crowley becoming the tempting one and saving Aziraphale from the very beginning.

We found out in S2 that they have met a long time before we thought they did. Baby Aziraphale fell so quickly and hard that he was jealous Crowley was calling nebulas beautiful, not him, before they even exchanged names.

We know Crowley thinks he fell because he was asking questions, I generally have a feeling that he was pushing boundaries all the time because why not! He’s so curious! He wants to know things! He loves creations! He was so pure he’d never think he’d fall just for asking - and he shouldn’t have fell, we know that.

I can see Aziraphale being so taken by him, by his little rebellious nature, probably finding ways to spend time with him (just like he did after Crowley fell) and Crowley taken by him in return and both spending more and more time together.

They probably didn’t even know what was happening between them. They just wanted to be together.

They didn’t know they were being watched.

And then one day, Aziraphale leans in for a kiss. And they do kiss. And they giggle like teenagers in love.

Now Heaven needs to separate them. Who to get rid of? Crowley, the rebel, the one who asks uncomfortable questions? Or Aziraphale, the angelic angel? The poor baby who never did a wrong thing?

Of course it must have been Crowley who tempted him. Definitely all his fault. Such a devil thing to do, tempting.

And so Crowley fell.

Maybe he didn’t even know why what he did was wrong.

Maybe when they accused him, he said it was him who tempted Aziraphale, to save Aziraphale from the fall. Crowley always saved him. Hence why he got slapped with becoming the snake who tempted.

Maybe they erased his memory. Maybe he doesn’t even know what happened all those years ago. It just felt right to be by Aziraphale when he saw him again and he didn’t know who he was. Maybe he realised there is something missing and he started forcing himself to remember.

“I don’t even like you!”

“You dooooo!”

Maybe Aziraphale was told he fell for something awful. Or had his memory of their time together erased too. But he couldn’t stop himself from reaching out to him when he saw him again, after so many years.

It just everything felt better when he was by that one particular person.

Or maybe he does remember but thinks Crowley doesn’t. Maybe that’s why he spent all of S2 trying to make him remember.

Maybe that’s why Crowley kissed him when Aziraphale decided to go back to Heaven? To make him remember.

"eternity and moment, a precious family"

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