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written this on twitter but of course. writing again on this blog is like a ritual. let’s go. 

one of the things i love and will definitely miss from this drama is how it highlights the love between people. not just the romance kind of love. i get so used to romance that these kind of love feel somehow warmer. something i’ll hold dearly for a long time.

the silent love language of fathers. the way they would turn the earth upside down but still wont say it right to their daughters. “of course i wont let her get the braces! it involevs taking four of her healthy teeth. four!!!” throwing posters and merchandises away yet his tired back was ready to take his daughter see someone who made her smile so much. “he doesn’t even know the weather in our place but he knows how cloudy it’s gonna be in rural areas. in your place.” “we went through stores because he needed to find the best plant for your clinic.”

the awkward love from daughters to their fathers. how daughters could feel the same (or even bigger) love, pride, and gratitute to their fathers, spoken through a different language. “if he decides to date, of course i would support him! you know it’s sad. seeing him live his entire life missing someone who’s no longer here.” how we feel the love out of every scolding and action, yet this mouth is more often than not, too heavy to mutter i love yous and thank yous.

the love from one mother to another. “of course we know she’s annoying. of course we get sick of her talking all the time. but she’s herself after we don’t see her for an entire year. even if her words bite our ears off, we’re glad. she’s herself. she’s happy. she’s here.” acknowledging how the pain of losing a chilld is so tremendously agonizing that you’d rather hear your divorce causes be talked about during gathering rather than see someone gets stuck and live their life around that event, that memory and that pain only.

the slight adoration and pride to boost someone’s ego and confidence. “no that’s not fair. you cannot join in the competition. you’re The Singer of our village!!” each one of us climb different stairs to our dreams. the least we could do is help some of us to realize that it’s okay. it takes a lot of strength to give up on a dream. yes they’re not at the top. but we can still acknowledge their efforts and how far they’ve come. 

the flowing (oftentimes painful) love from mother to their children and their grandchildren. “my son works in the big city! he’s very succesful. even my granddaughter studies overseas.” how mothers don’t have the heart to say they miss their children because they’re scared their feeling (which is very innocent) could disturb whatever it is their children is doing. how mothers would scold their children and boast them in the same sentence. you could break their heart a thousand times and the love for you will never stop.

but everytime she brings up their future or just, to her, a simple question as to what happened in Seoul he avoids it. and as someone who overthinks alot and it quite self conscious about how her significant other views her due to her ex....it's expected she'll be upset over him not answering.

they agreed and promised no secrets, and he is keeping secrets and that's hurtful to heejin...he's seen her past, why can't she see his?

also let's not forget dusik never allowed her to see the side where he was hurting when they were friends, she's always seen him happy besides that time he got drunk and cried. however, his behaviour changed significantly after meeting that dude in Seoul but she's not realised that yet...with her own overthinking she believed it to be the necklace...like to a normal person with no insight you wouldn't think seeing an old senior from uni affect a person that much

we as an audience know how much dusik is suffering from whatever happened because we've been allowed to see it to an extent and understand his inability to speak about it....heejin doesn't know about his reoccurring nightmares and how he has to go to a therapist etc....she's in the dark.

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seeing your almost girlfriend cry

Hye-jin’s Realization in the Rain 

Well, well, well - I’m back with another analysis post, but this time for everyone’s ‘therapy’ show (mine included), Hometown Cha Cha Cha. 

I’ve been wanting to write an analysis for this show for quite a while now but I’ve just been enjoying it too much to really post much of anything - also, everyone else was doing their own analyzing and doing it better probably than I ever could. Anything I wanted to say seemed redundant. 

But no more. I really, really want to talk about this scene because it solidifies why Hometown Cha Cha Cha is setting a whole new bar for romantic kdramas. This episode was sheer perfection - which is saying something because every episode before was also utterly perfect - and I don’t blame anyone for not being able to choose which scene was their favorite. But, for me, it’s this one; Hye-jin coming to the realization of her feelings for Hong Du-sik. 

For me, it’s the best scene in any romantic kdrama I’ve seen since Do-hyeok’s confession in Nevertheless. And it’s not even a confession. 

I think everyone’s watched this episode by now (I’ve watched and re-watched it myself maybe a dozen times since it came out) but I’m going to go ahead and warn of SPOILERS incoming. Read at your own risk, if you haven’t watched it yet. 

ON SOULMATES AND A WISH GRANTED

"when dusik ends up alone, please send him someone so that he won't be lonely. "