she has a massive victim complex and it’s becoming a self fulfilling prophecy. this stems from her being victimized in her youth, but the way she feeds into it and refuses to heal means she is always going to view herself as a perpetual victim and always as the harmed party. this is a detriment not only to her own mental health but also to the people around her. she lashes out at people but doesn’t think she’s hurting them because in her mind she CAN’T hurt anyone. SHE’S always the victim. she can make fun of whitaker for his patient dying but he can’t make fun of her dropping a scalpel. she can call victoria a shitty nickname and just because she doesn’t intend for it to be malicious, that should mean that victoria shouldn’t tell her to stop, regardless of it’s impact. when she messes up and gets reprimanded, she goes into a total freeze because she doesn’t know how to cope with a situation without making herself the victim. power and agency was taken from trinity when she was young and vulnerable and she’s never been able to grow from that. that’s why she projects onto to every little girl that comes through the er. she has to look out for patients she sees herself in because she needed help and didn’t get any. and i think you can really see how stuck in her own misery she is through the way she views langdon. she thinks she’s a pariah because of langdon and not her own actions. she brought him up to garcia multiple times over the ten months he was away even when she thought that he had been fired and she wouldn’t ever see him again. she’s addicted to picking at her own wounds. this probably ties into her self harming habit too, she is always hurting herself again and again because hurt is the only way she knows how to be. she can’t accept that langdon has grown because she doesn’t know what it’s like to grow and move on from something.
