System + Aesthetic Blog

Not knowing who's fronting, not knowing how many alters you have, not knowing when you switch, not knowing alters' names or why they formed, alters not having names, having no internal world or a very vague one, having no internal communication, struggling with external communication, experiencing alters as different overlapping states of self instead of separate people, hell even just experiencing amnesia.

These are all extremely common symptoms of DID/OSDD, especially when you're untreated or early in treatment. And yet they're all common reasons for why people feel like they don't belong in this community, because the reality of this disorder somehow doesn't conform to the online expectation.

Accessibility aids are something that makes things more accessible for disabled people. Not just anything that is helpful for disabled people. System tracking apps are helpful, however they do not make anything more accessible.

The main tools that we use to manage and track our system are:

Obsidian

A paper notebook and a pen

the camera app on our phone and a cloud storage directory into which we save video files for each other to watch

Microsoft office, mostly word and excel

Being blurry, not recognising, and being unable to remember alters is a main part of experiencing multiplicity, especially in disordered systems.

While it's true that somebody shouldn't have to rely on one singular app to function, it's absolutely not true that struggling to or being unable to recognise parts means you don't have parts.

We, a diagnosed traumagenic DID system, often struggle to recognise our alters, because we frequently deal with blurriness, as it's a common part of dissociation. It is literally a symptom. If we were unable to journal, write about, or log our alters, then recognising and remembering each other (and ourself) would be pretty much impossible. Because we dissociate, and have amnesia.

Not to mention chronic dissociation, constant dissociation from the body.

Healthily working through a complex dissociative disorder requires consistent conscious effort in a multitude of areas, including recognising alters. It's part of therapy.

Your post is, in all honesty, mildly ridiculous.