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guilt, shame, and the writerly life
"Part of Dorn’s lack of precision in critique comes from a misunderstanding of the diversity of fan fiction as a genre. Are these supposed lost Djuna Barneses writing yaoi or yuri or hetslop or an OC or /reader or gen? Arguably, much of the published “slop” Dorn laments comes from the world of OC driven heterosexual romance, but her analysis excludes this entirely. It is interesting as well, the way the blame is always to lay with the women who write this stuff and not with the marketing executives who now scour AO3 for the next big thing. ... This brings me to my second point: the language of shame and taboo latent in these tweets precludes our ability to engage in the world as fully realised artists. Dorn elaborates that her objections come from being “moderately involved” in fandom culture, which “so bad for [her] on multiple levels.” She cites the fact that she is “a gay woman could quite visibly read & recommend books by & about women and LGBT people allll the time” and therefore is not perpetuating homophobia or misogyny, but this argument feels so flimsy I feel almost rude quoting it out in full form. If anything, Dorn is recreating the very lazy relationship liberal identity politics produces when it comes to critical evaluation of art which she rightfully critiques in her tweets on the topic. Belonging to a certain demographic does not an ironclad argument make. ... There is a distinct lack of curiosity to Dorn’s argument which I find fascinating. The objection I hold is not one of oppression. It’s an objection instead on the grounds of aesthetics, related to a particular disposition toward the world. Indeed, the question of what makes something “objectively lame” is so much more interesting to me than Dorn explaining why she isn’t—what makes aesthetic judgements objective? What does lameness mean, how does it relate to cringe or disgust? How can we manipulate elements of lameness to make interesting or cohesive works? All of these questions go unanswered because Dorn is more preoccupied with separating herself as one of the “not lame” young female authors than she is with actually digging into the question at hand. ... The most powerful part of engaging in artistic practices is precisely when we can suspend the baggage of life–the guilt, the shame, the arbitrary taboos–and engage in those raw elements of the human condition which are impossible to put words to. Where these feelings come from is not the point, rather that we are alive and have the capacity to feel at all. Yes it’s difficult not to feel bitter when the chips are down, not to get upset when art of genuine merit is passed over for slop. But has this not always been the case? Is this not the reward of the whole process of seeking, of being able to pluck a gem for yourself from the never ending torrent of shit that is the internet? See, even this sentence will be classed as “tumblr” but there is something more freeing and more interesting about overindulgence than the same carefully curated personas you can see running through some people’s heads. Heaven forbid a bitch be weird sometimes."
Substack post I stumbled upon related to the recent discussions about "shipping culture" & literary merit. Reflected a lot of my own thoughts--except much better articulated, ha!
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obsessed with this anonymous poem that i found at the end of an academic paper
[image text: It seems appropriate to conclude these speculations with the work of an anonymous poet writing in 1747, entitled "The Poetess' Bouts-Rimés":
Dear Phoebus, hear my only vow; If e'er you loved me, hear me now. That charming youth -- but idle fame Is ever so inclined to blame -- These men will turn it to a jest; I'll tell the rhymes and drop the rest: [blank] [blank] [blank] desire, [blank] [blank] [blank] fire, [blank] [blank] [blank] lie, [blank] [blank] [blank] thigh, [blank] [blank] [blank] wide, [blank] [blank] [blank] ride, [blank] [blank] [blank] night, [blank] [blank] [blank] delight.]

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1. Does Ebert make a moral judgment on the fannish obsessions he describes here?
Yes. Obviously. He characterizes these fans as self-absorbed, socially deficient, intellectually incurious, emotionally dependent on formula, and “excruciatingly boring.” That is not neutral description. It is a negative judgment about their character and the way they live.
2. Does Ebert imply that a depth of knowledge about a fannish subject is inherently bad on its own?
Not quite. His stated objection is to people using expertise as a display of devotion, a source of status, or a substitute for broader interests and spontaneous social interaction.
I would argue that the rest of the review makes his position a little more clear, though.
3. Does Ebert state that this pattern of behavior is a quality of all fans?
No. He says “a lot of fans,” “extreme fandom,” and “such people.” He is identifying a type of fan, not making a literal universal claim.
4. Did the reader see a mildly critical opinion containing the word ‘fandom’ and immediately succumb to an emotional reaction rather than fully read and engage with the passage?
Calling people socially inept, intellectually empty, self-absorbed, and excruciatingly boring is not “mildly critical.” It is openly contemptuous.
A person can understand the passage perfectly well and still object to it. Disagreement is not evidence of failed reading comprehension, no matter how many condescending bullet points one wraps around the accusation.
5. Did the reader see the words ‘socially inept’ and immediately assume this refers solely to autistic people? Why or why not?
“Socially inept” does not mean “autistic,” and Ebert does not explicitly mention autism.
But the behaviors he associates with social deficiency overlap heavily with stereotypes about autistic people: intense specialist interests, encyclopedic knowledge, reliance on predictable conversational scripts, and difficulty improvising socially.
The word “solely” is doing dishonest work here. The relevant question is not whether the description refers exclusively to autistic people. It is whether Ebert treats traits commonly associated with autistic people as evidence that someone is socially or intellectually defective.
6. Is the job of a cultural critic to ‘let people enjoy things?’
No. Critics are allowed to criticize fandom, fan culture, consumer identity, nostalgia, and the social uses people make of art.
Readers are equally allowed to criticize the critic’s assumptions, generalizations, and contempt. “A critic’s job is not to let people enjoy things” does not mean every hostile remark made by a critic is therefore insightful.
There is also a rather important contextual omission here. Ebert did not write this as a general essay about fandom in the age of twitter, harassment campaigns, shipping discourse, or whatever present-day fandom behavior the quotation is now being aimed at.
He wrote it in his February 4, 2009 review of Fanboys, a road comedy set in 1998. So this is a late-2000s review discussing a particular stereotype of 1990s fandom. The film follows a group of friends who plan to break into Skywalker Ranch so that their terminally ill friend can see The Phantom Menace before he dies. Ebert’s argument is that the movie identifies too closely with its heroes and should have mocked them more. The rest of the review makes his position much less ambiguous. He calls their fandom “an idiotic lifestyle,” describes them as “tragically hurtling into a cultural dead end,” dismisses their knowledge as having “no purpose other than being mastered,” and ends with a joke about their mothers cleaning up after them.
post coffee & breakfast, more thoughts adjacent to this post:
one: I'm slightly more sympathetic than I used to be to arguments against the commodification of fandom, esp related to huge media companies using corporate IP to cultivate fan energy to earn more $$$. is fanfiction & fandom mainstreaming (crossing over of fandom writers to mainstream publishing & how fandom is explicitly being used to advertise, 3 D/amione-fics-turned-original-Romantasy-stories advertised as such this year) a part of this dynamic? well, it's not not a part of it. but blaming fanfiction and shipping culture for, uhh, the decline in quality of 'women's literary culture' is a swing and a miss while accidentally hitting the catcher and then arguing it was her fault for squatting too close to your bat. are publisher monopolies / the improbability for most people of making a living from writing/freelancing/publishing their own books / reduced oversight from publishing houses, ala asking authors to get their own agents/marketers/editors versus working in-house with authors, the problem? no, it's the young women too interested in romantic relationships who are wrong.
two: social shaming--and its little siblings, scolding & criticism--are very useful for getting people to stop doing something. but all of these emotions/actions are very bad at motivating people to do something. as such, you are never ever going to shame young women into being better writers**. trying to shame women away from writing fanfiction doesn't mean they'll suddenly start writing modernist masterpieces instead; it means some women will just stop writing.
**not even getting into the question of what even is 'good' writing!
not ppl agreeing with the Think of all the Djuna Barneses we could have had if not for slash fic tweet……
everyone saying “she’s got a point” is similarly participating in a sort of undeserved literary snobbery that belies any actual understanding of the function and popular reception of the novel as a form since its inception.
I am saying this as someone who has never once picked up a “popular on booktok” canva art romance novel, and rarely reads any 21st century literature at all—who finds a lot of contemporary anglophone lit to be banal, obnoxious, and utterly tedious. I couldn’t care less about the artistic merits of fanfiction as “legitimate literature” either way, and I find the “character-first” approach to storytelling most people in fandom circles employ to be reductive and a bit exhausting…
if you seriously think that the kinds of people writing gay fanfiction on ao3 about the main characters from a mainstream hollywood production are the same kinds of people who would otherwise be experimenting with the form of the novel in artistically groundbreaking ways, then I really don’t know what to tell you. and if you think the phenomenon of novels being written for the emotional (and sexual) gratification of women being derided as a perversion of an otherwise elite artform is a new phenomenon that sprung up within the past decade, then you obviously don’t know enough about the history of literature to be making these kinds of claims with such dismissive arrogance.
the form of the novel, especially novels by women, especially novels by women for women involving romance, have long been trivialized in the popular consciousness for lacking the kind of artistic merit that disqualifies it from being considered “real literature.” whether such novels are artistically lacking or not is entirely subjective and beside the point. claiming that popular entertainment primarily produced and enjoyed by women and girls has rotted their brains and debased their potential intellectual engagement with “higher” artforms is a notion repeated by every generation, and it’s equally ridiculous every time! least of all because there are still plenty of women in the world who care about the craft of literature and artistic experimentation within the form of the novel. and some of them even like fanfiction, also.

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really makes you think about the values of our grimdark-obsessed modern age of cynicism when people are praising nihilistic media where nothing gets better like "the wire" when we could have hopeful and thus radically progressive media where everything turns out okay in the end, like "law & order"