What will be my next hyperfixation?

Richard Gadd as Ruben Pallister

Sometimes I still can't believe that Jonathan really did this, being so bold and went to kiss Teddy on his cheek before he discarded his Matthew's persona, he even looked saddened that he was saying goodbye to their "little game" it was fun while it last but now he has to return to his real self, no more Matthew Ellis for Teddy to play with.

With that kiss he was leaving behind a bit of Matthew’s bold and whorish persona for Teddy to remember, Teddy was waiting for him to whisper some important secret, or maybe a snarky remark that would jab his heart, that’s why he was baffled to get a kiss instead?

He wasn’t expecting the kiss, that's why the realization was delayed that he registered that indeed Jonathan just kissed him a bit late, like that was really a gentle kiss from Jonathan without any malicious intent, a praying for your soul that he said wasn't to mock but apparently a sincere wish from Jonathan.

I also saw this kiss as the last attempt Jonathan did to resurrect “Eduardo”, he wanted Teddy to remember that side of him and to take that control back to be his real self instead of letting himself be controlled by Roper's greed.

THAT BASHFUL ALMOST BOYISH WONDER IN TEDDY’s eyes processing What just happened like a BOY JUST GOT HIS FIrst kiss from his crush. Fucking hell their romance is so full of angst, I feel so sick looking at the way teddy walk after that kiss like he was floating, he was happy for a moment that his weird fascination for Matthew might not be one sided because Matthew kissed him, like it was an acknowledgment from Matthew ..he knew what he felt about him and he felt the same.

Jonathan himself was a bit..shy after kissing Teddy, I feel like that kiss was a confession too about things he couldn’t said, and yet revealed to Teddy about everything that he knew about him, about his pain, probably a bit of apology too, for playing with Teddy’s heart, apparently after he brought him to the church and let him see that part of him, that breakfast together, so much thing he learned about Teddy and his prejudices toward him crumble even more, he thought he was just a mere criminal but the more he learned about him the more fascinating he became, ..he just wished they both didn’t have to lie.

Teddy completely got disarmed by that kiss, he could only shake that kiss away after he closed his eyes and then put that cold mask on to call his subordinate.he didn’t even process that it truly happened I guess probably only later when he laid on his bed that night he could recall about this moment again and trying to understand what the hell did it mean 😭

Oh how I wish this spy story can ignore the spy plotline for a bit and just indulge in the relationship and romance of these two characters just a little more, I don’t care about the weapon dealing tell me how Teddy feels after Matthew kiss him goodbye at the airport. Show me how he struggle to sleep that night because he can’t stop thinking about that kiss

And we also see Jonathan while doing briefing with angela keep thinking about “why the hell did I kiss him before we part way?? What is the reason pine?” Both were trying to process their own feelings in their own ways.

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