i Hate Bpd

i have a really suspicious feeling im only being kept around so people avoid having to deal with me when im upset

when your symptoms chill for like 15 minutes and ur like "wow im cured(:"

little BPD things: having someone totally disregard your inability to control yourself because they don't bother to understand you to the best of their abilities and completely invalidate a mental illness you already struggle with because you're always thinking you're a huge faker anyways

[[READ MORE]] idk if the read more code works still but w/e I'll still tag my stuff [pushes needles through my skin, rips my hair out in chunks and sliced my skin open] (: wow !!! fantastic !!!! i love death !!!

i don't even remember how long i broke down for because i can't keep track of time i barely have any concept of it tbh but i sat there and cried and wondered why it had to be me that suffered why it has to be me that ended up sexually abused in my childhood and why it had to be me that family members rejected and partially neglected why did it have to be me why did i have to end up with a disorder i can barely cope with i don't like surviving