Lex Malla, Lex Nulla

On the outside, I appear…

Aries rising: active, enthusiastic, straightforward

Taurus rising: steady, grounded, sensual

Gemini rising: adaptable, inquisitive, talkative

Cancer rising: cautious, caring, sensitive

Leo rising: confident, energetic, charismatic

Virgo rising: competent, poised, reserved

Libra rising: charming, pleasant, artistic

Scorpio rising: private, observant, magnetic

Sagittarius rising: adventurous, optimistic, restless

Capricorn rising: determined, responsible, serious

Aquarius rising: curious, independent, approachable

Pisces rising: gentle, easygoing, changeable

Deep within, I am…

Aries moon: spontaneous, passionate, strong

Taurus moon: guarded, sentimental, loyal

Gemini moon: intellectual, restless, open-minded

Cancer moon: empathetic, devoted, moody

Leo moon: affectionate, expressive, stubborn

Virgo moon: detail-oriented, practical, shy

Libra moon: fickle, peaceful, objective

Scorpio moon: intense, intuitive, secretive

Sagittarius moon: free-spirited, upbeat, impatient

Capricorn moon: stable, dutiful, self-critical

Aquarius moon: detached, idealistic, eccentric

Pisces moon: compassionate, emotional, impractical

However, I aspire to be or would like to be viewed as…

Aries Midheaven: confident, pioneering, enthusiastic

Taurus Midheaven: sensible, assured, tenacious

Gemini Midheaven: intelligent, creative, adaptable

Cancer Midheaven: dependable, nurturing, kindhearted

Leo Midheaven: bold, generous, commanding

Virgo Midheaven: helpful, organised, reasonable

Libra Midheaven: peaceful, well-mannered, sociable

Scorpio Midheaven: deliberate, mysterious, passionate

Sagittarius Midheaven: knowledgeable, dynamic, versatile

Capricorn Midheaven: controlled, wise, hardworking

Aquarius Midheaven: innovative, flexible, cooperative

I am an ER nurse and this is the best description of this event that I have ever heard. 

 FEMALE HEART ATTACKS 

 I was aware that female heart attacks are different, but this is description is so incredibly visceral that I feel like I have an entire new understanding of what it feels like to be living the symptoms on the inside. Women rarely have the same dramatic symptoms that men have… you know, the sudden stabbing pain in the chest, the cold sweat, grabbing the chest & dropping to the floor the we see in movies. Here is the story of one woman’s experience with a heart attack: 

 "I had a heart attack at about 10:30 PM with NO prior exertion, NO prior emotional trauma that one would suspect might have brought it on. I was sitting all snugly & warm on a cold evening, with my purring cat in my lap, reading an interesting story my friend had sent me, and actually thinking, ‘A-A-h, this is the life, all cozy and warm in my soft, cushy Lazy Boy with my feet propped up. A moment later, I felt that awful sensation of indigestion, when you’ve been in a hurry and grabbed a bite of sandwich and washed it down with a dash of water, and that hurried bite seems to feel like you’ve swallowed a golf ball going down the esophagus in slow motion and it is most uncomfortable. You realize you shouldn’t have gulped it down so fast and needed to chew it more thoroughly and this time drink a glass of water to hasten its progress down to the stomach. This was my initial sensation–the only trouble was that I hadn’t taken a bite of anything since about 5:00 p.m. 

After it seemed to subside, the next sensation was like little squeezing motions that seemed to be racing up my SPINE (hind-sight, it was probably my aorta spasms), gaining speed as they continued racing up and under my sternum (breast bone, where one presses rhythmically when administering CPR). This fascinating process continued on into my throat and branched out into both jaws. ‘AHA!! NOW I stopped puzzling about what was happening – we all have read and/or heard about pain in the jaws being one of the signals of an MI happening, haven’t we? I said aloud to myself and the cat, Dear God, I think I’m having a heart attack! I lowered the foot rest dumping the cat from my lap, started to take a step and fell on the floor instead. I thought to myself, If this is a heart attack, I shouldn’t be walking into the next room where the phone is or anywhere else… but, on the other hand, if I don’t, nobody will know that I need help, and if I wait any longer I may not be able to get up in a moment. 

I pulled myself up with the arms of the chair, walked slowly into the next room and dialed the Paramedics… I told her I thought I was having a heart attack due to the pressure building under the sternum and radiating into my jaws. I didn’t feel hysterical or afraid, just stating the facts. She said she was sending the Paramedics over immediately, asked if the front door was near to me, and if so, to un-bolt the door and then lie down on the floor where they could see me when they came in. I unlocked the door and then laid down on the floor as instructed and lost consciousness, as I don’t remember the medics coming in, their examination, lifting me onto a gurney or getting me into their ambulance, or hearing the call they made to St. Jude ER on the way, but I did briefly awaken when we arrived and saw that the radiologist was already there in his surgical blues and cap, helping the medics pull my stretcher out of the ambulance. He was bending over me asking questions (probably something like ‘Have you taken any medications?’) but I couldn’t make my mind interpret what he was saying, or form an answer, and nodded off again, not waking up until the Cardiologist and partner had already threaded the teeny angiogram balloon up my femoral artery into the aorta and into my heart where they installed 2 side by side stints to hold open my right coronary artery. 

I know it sounds like all my thinking and actions at home must have taken at least 20-30 minutes before calling the paramedics, but actually it took perhaps 4-5 minutes before the call, and both the fire station and St Jude are only minutes away from my home, and my Cardiologist was already to go to the OR in his scrubs and get going on restarting my heart (which had stopped somewhere between my arrival and the procedure) and installing the stents. Why have I written all of this to you with so much detail? Because I want all of you who are so important in my life to know what I learned first hand. 

1. Be aware that something very different is happening in your body, not the usual men’s symptoms but inexplicable things happening (until my sternum and jaws got into the act). It is said that many more women than men die of their first (and last) MI because they didn’t know they were having one and commonly mistake it as indigestion, take some Maalox or other anti-heartburn preparation and go to bed, hoping they’ll feel better in the morning when they wake up… which doesn’t happen. My female friends, your symptoms might not be exactly like mine, so I advise you to call the Paramedics if ANYTHING is unpleasantly happening that you’ve not felt before. It is better to have a ‘false alarm’ visitation than to risk your life guessing what it might be! 2. Note that I said ‘Call the Paramedics.’ And if you can take an aspirin. Ladies, TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE! Do NOT try to drive yourself to the ER - you are a hazard to others on the road. Do NOT have your panicked husband who will be speeding and looking anxiously at what’s happening with you instead of the road. Do NOT call your doctor – he doesn’t know where you live and if it’s at night you won’t reach him anyway, and if it’s daytime, his assistants (or answering service) will tell you to call the Paramedics. He doesn’t carry the equipment in his car that you need to be saved! The Paramedics do, principally OXYGEN that you need ASAP. Your Dr. will be notified later. 3. Don’t assume it couldn’t be a heart attack because you have a normal cholesterol count. Research has discovered that a cholesterol elevated reading is rarely the cause of an MI (unless it’s unbelievably high and/or accompanied by high blood pressure). MIs are usually caused by long-term stress and inflammation in the body, which dumps all sorts of deadly hormones into your system to sludge things up in there. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let’s be careful and be aware. The more we know the better chance we could survive to tell the tale.“

Mars in FIRE SIGNS: Aries/Leo/Sagittarius

Suitors with Mars in FIRE Signs act these ways to ATTAIN love… * active pursuer…prefer to be chooser and chaser; not be passive * impulsive…fall in love too fast, too foolishly, too often * passionate…very enthusiastic; very expressive about feelings * forceful…can be assertive or aggressive in their pursuit.

Mars in ARIES acts…

* impetuous…is easily infatuated, then suddenly in hot pursuit * direct and bold…makes intentions known; is never subtle or coy * challenged…loves a new challenge; and the hard-to-get types * competitive…loves the thrill of the chase, to win the prize * ardent…pursues with a passion; is determined to catch you * aggressive…may act macho or tough; might fight for you.

Mars in LEO acts…

* dramatic…courts you with a flamboyant flair; may “show off” * romantic…sends flowers, reads poetry, stages sweet surprises * regal…courts like a King or Queen, with an aristocratic air * giving…gives gifts and treats; maybe more than s/he can afford * warm…acts affectionate and friendly; makes you feel worthy * proud…acts proud to be with you; may try to “show you off”.

Mars in SAGITTARIUS acts…

* to-the-point…doesn’t want to waste time on games or rituals * blunt…shares opinions, whether you want to hear them or not * adventurous…seeks to explore many new experiences with you * freedom-loving…wants to avoid restrictions; gives you space * philosophical or humorous…plays philosopher or clown; laughs * companionable…wants to pal around with you; be friends first.

Mars in EARTH SIGNS: Taurus/Virgo/Capricorn

Suitors with Mars in EARTH Signs act these ways to ATTAIN love… * practical…take useful steps to pursue you; are very pragmatic * planning…make concrete plans; know your likes/dislikes/habits * patient…will wait a long time, if that seems the best tactic * persistent…chug along in their courtship till the ship sinks.

Mars in TAURUS acts…

* a good provider…of both material things and sensual comforts * determined…wants you a lot and for a long time; will patiently persist * very physical…will hug and caress; concerned for your comforts * hedonistic…loves all sensual pleasures; likely over-indulges * Nature-loving…seeks to get near Nature, to relax and revitalize * possessive…may want to own you, or to remove you from rivals.

Mars in VIRGO acts…

* attentive to details…notes your preferences and caters to you * perfectionist…wants to make everything perfect, including you * adaptable…willing to compromise or adapt to make things work * indispensable…becomes so helpful or useful, you depend on them * analytical…always analyzing the relationship to improve it * critical…sees flaws in you or the relationship, and tells you!

Mars in CAPRICORN acts…

* cool & careful…won’t reveal romantic interest until you do! * aloof…can’t seem to show warmth or emotion openly or overtly * shrewd and savvy…coolly sizes up chances and makes careful plans * responsible…wins you by being reliable and solid and supportive * organized…schedules the courtship, and orchestrates the moves * material…convinces you of the practical or material benefits.

Mars in AIR SIGNS: Gemini/Libra/Aquarius

Suitors with Mars in AIR Signs act these ways to ATTAIN love… * woo with words…calls, poems, letters, declarations, want ads * persuasive…pursue by persuading you with eloquence and reason * interactive…get you involved in banter, discussion, and debate * rational…act logical and unemotional, but often rationalize.

Mars in GEMINI acts like the…

* sweet-talker…has a way with words; can twist words to win you * wit…is a clever conversationalist; loves banter and innuendo * writer…writes notes, poems or long letters; even sends faxes * reader…loves to share books or articles, then discuss them * talker…loves long intimate conversations and true confessions * phone-mate…loves long romantic calls; may enjoy Internet romances or “phone sex”.

Mars in LIBRA acts…

* pleasing…acts gracious, charming, considerate, accomodating * the partner…wants to do everything as your partner, not alone * the listener…loves to hear you talk of events/feelings/ideas * romantic…woos in tender, sweet, sensitive ways; sends flowers * intimate…prefers to be alone with you, and concentrate on you * understanding…makes you feel only s/he really understands you.

Mars in AQUARIUS acts…

* original…unique, delightfully different, inventive; shocking * unconventional…does things in unorthodox ways; experiments * the individual…sets own style; encourages you to “be yourself” * nonconforming…rebels against the system, standards, or rules * free-spirited…seeks an unrestricted, free, open lifestyle * coolly detached…appears aloof, intellectual, or unemotional.

Mars in WATER SIGNS: Cancer/Scorpio/Pisces

Suitors with Mars in WATER Signs act these ways to ATTAIN love… * emotional…seem to feel things deeply; react too emotionally * sensitive…seem sweet & vulnerable; make you feel protective * unfathomable…seems impossible to really read their intentions * fluid…seep into your heart through weak spots in your armour.

Mars in CANCER acts…

* nurturing…cares for you and caters to your emotional needs * mothering…babies you; pampers you; fusses over you; feeds you * protective…makes you feel safe from harm or emotional hurts * secure…offers a safe haven, a secure future with a nest-egg * caring…wants to know and understand your feelings or fears * sentimental…makes a fuss over special occasions and keepsakes.

Mars in SCORPIO acts…

* smoldering…seems to have passions ready to flare any time * sexual…seems strongly sexual; may have “an animal magnetism” * intense…seems single-mindedly focused on you, or what they do * probing…seems to stare into your soul, to sense your secrets * mesmerizing…draws you in – so deeply you could lose yourself * powerful…seems strong: a survivor, savior.

Mars in PISCES acts…

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What? Your Descendant is ruled by Libra and Venus. It mainly represents relationships, partners, romance and who are attracted and why. Your Descendant is exactly opposite to your ascendant/rising sign and is held on the cusp of the 7th house. 

Aries: You will attract and are attracted to people who possess Mars like qualities. People who are obvious, loud, aggressive (not like punch aggressive), blunt, and bright. You will have a libra Rising, and this indecisive, fair ‘attitude’ directly contradicts with the bright, aggressive, in your face people they attract. You are attracted to very kind and generous people too though.

Taurus: People who can provide for you are attractive in your opinion, in a relationship you crave someone who can be co-dependant with you and you can equally (heavily) rely on each other. You will have a Scorpio Rising sign, and this means you love to help people become the best version of themselves, so you may be attracted to people who are not similar to you so you can help them build on qualities they lack. 

Gemini: You have a Sagittarius Rising to go with your Descendant. In relationships you like to be with someone you can feel free with, you like adventurous, constant change, and not too heavy commitment (at least at first). It will take the right kind of person to persuade you into marriage but you fall in love with the people you think are the most true and kind hearted (that’s your weakness). 

Cancer: With a Capricorn rising , the people around you are the ones you hold the most dear and near to your heart. You are attracted to people who have similar family backgrounds to you, because this is a part of your life you find important to relate on. You attract people who want to take control of a relationship, you love to have an equal involvement, but like to be treated and be the one in a back seat. 

Leo: Love can become an obsession to you, you are likely to be undoubtedly in love with love, This means you are attracted to people who are romantic, and pick out the smallest of  details. You are incredibly attracted to people who make you feel like you can do more than what you already do, people who are inspiring and kind. You attract eccentric people who don’t know how to fit in because you show them they do. (Aquarius Rising).

Virgo: You are someone who changes yourself for you partner without even realising. You fall in love and are attracted to people who point out things about you that are permanent and you don’t change. For example “I love your natural curly hair”; it makes you feel actually wanted. You attract (luckily) very kind hearted people because they know they can give you a lot of love and affection. Pisces Rising. 

Libra: You are someone who might overuse the term “it’s not you, it’s me”, but really mean it. You are attracted to people who tell you to sort your head out, and tell you not only when you are in the wrong, but when actually you aren’t. You are also attracted to people who really considers your feelings and needs. You attract lively and tenacious people, people who are fun loving and natural smooth talkers. Rising is Aries.

Scorpio: You partner will choose you because they want to really feel love. Your rising is Taurus. You are attracted to passionate people, who never do anything to make you feel jealous and concerned (unstable) in your relationship. You attract strong minded individuals. You fall in love very hard and crave the same in return. 

Sagittarius: You are attracted to people you can talk on another level with; whether this is a deep talk or an intelligent conversation, In fact, you value the conversations over anything else. You attract people with hell of a will power. You attract people you are blunt and not co-dependant. Your Rising is Gemini, so you also think a physical connection is important, and will attract partners who feel the same. 

Capricorn: You have a very emotional and sensitive rising sign; Cancer. You are attracted to people who value family and get along with yours (no matter what your relationship with them is). You tend to really fall for people who don’t make you feel like you have to do anything, as you often will feel like you need to be perfect and do everything perfectly for them. You attract people who have a huge sense of humour and love to be safe and feel secure.

Aquarius: You are attracted to people who challenge and attract people who are full on and intense. You fall in love with people who wear their hearts on their sleeves and love very openly and publicly. You attract people who want a 24/7 relationship and someone to really rely on. The people who want you tend to be wanted and are fairly dependant on you to make them feel good. You also attract very understanding people. Rising in Leo. 

My name is Monica. And this is my sister Wiola and her six years old son Jakub.

Last month my sister’s husband left with another woman and he move to another country. We don’t know where excacly. He doesn’t pay for anything, he doesn’t send any money. He is a piece of shit. He was homophobic towards me (I’m a lesbian), he cheated on her when she was pregnant. He was always working, not caring about his son. But my sister stayed with him because of the child.Also she had to leave the place they live for the last 9 years because it was bought by his parents and they told her to move out.

She is back now in our parents home where I sill live too. There’s only two rooms in the house, kitchen and one bathroom. All of this for 5 people now. This is our house:

She wants to find a place to rent because right now she is stuck wth Jakub with me in my small room. And he is in the first grade and he doesn’t even have a place to do his homework. Also he is growing so fast that he needs new shoes and jacket for the winter. My father is an alcoholic with violent tendencies so it’s not good for my nephew to still live here. She is going to take legal action against her husband but she needs money for that too. I don’t know how else to help her because I’m unemployed at this moment.

Even a dollar makes a difference.

She needs 2500$. 

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