Tamaki’s Bitch

Kai: I agree

And the only thing I can think while looking at him is “he really deserves someone better than me”. I don’t know why, I just can’t accept happiness or love. It feels wrong.

He tells me all the time that my skin is soft, I’m beautiful, I have a body like a goddess, etc. and I just don’t. Believe him. I feel like such an awful person because he just wants to love me and I don’t know if I’m okay with it.

You were everything in my life

Did anything for you, didn’t think twice

As soon as I saw you, live at first sight

Everything about you was beautiful to me, my smoke cloud in the sunlight

Blow smoke to forget you left

Get high to think you’re still here

Pop pills just for fun, don’t say I’m depressed

Down my liquor, makes it easier to swallow the fear

My life seemed so clear, I could see my future

Now I take drugs and just feel like a loser

I try to move on and act like things are fine but they’re not and they aren’t gonna be for a while

You pop up every now and then just like the hallucinations in my head

Only difference is, they say what I want to hear, everything you say brings me to tears

Don’t tell me I have a problem I know I’m addicted

People ask me who made me cut, a dick did

I lay in my bed smoking my blunt, I see how pretty the smoke is in the sunlight and just wish my thoughts would shut up

Smoke clouds look pretty in the sunlight

Waited a couple months, maybe you’ll call tonight

I don’t wanna down these pills but I just might

Argue with you, it’s just another fight

Things go up in flames, the ash reminds me of the smoke clouds in the sunlight

Picture that inspired the poem👇