I am a survivor, and hereâs my story.
Hi, I am a girl who is a sexual assault survivor. (I am going to keep my name private). But I want to let everyone know what happened.
I was dating my ex-boyfriend and he was always sexual. We would hang out with friends at a playground in my apartment all day. I would be laying on my side, resting my head on my palm. My friends would walk away for a lil bit to either get some water or use the bathroom. He would come up behind me, while Iâm lying down, and start dry humping me in from the back. I didnât like it, so Iâve told him to stop. He would stop for a second and do it again. Iâve told him no multiple times until he finally stopped. Heâs been doing inappropriate things to me for a little over a week and Iâve told him no. He kept pressuring me. Iâve told him no. Until one night..
One night Iâve smoked some weed. I wasnât aware of my surroundings, and I was hanging out with the same group of friend weeks later. That night will never be the same. My now ex-boyfriend grab my hand and pulled me away from my friends. He took me to an opening that leads from the park to another side of the apartments. I just started laughing because Iâm really high and donât know whatâs going on. He grabs my waist and starts kissing me neck. I push him away twice. And he put himself on me. I didnât stop him. I couldnât. I didnât like how it felt.
After all if that, I went home, I laid in my bed and started crying. Balling my eyes out. My eyes were bloodshot red. I was devastated. When I finally spoke up about it people shut me down. Saying, âheâs not that type of person.â âI know him, he donât do that.â Iâve never felt the same. I would been depressed and just sob. Never wanting to get up nor eat. I would smoke a lot more to have a smile on my face. Then a few days ago I was dating someone new. And we were going to meet at the mall to hang out, and before I went I had a panic attack. My heart pounding, getting cold chills and many more. It was about 15 minutes it felt like and I finally calm down.
A month later, I am working on myself and I am feelin so much better. I am happier being single and being me. I am free and I just glad heâs gone away from me.
















