angel

long story short my friendship with the guy i was interested in completely blew up and i've been trying to deal with that in the last month. it still hurts every now and then but ultimately i'm feeling way better now than i did a month ago. we went completely no contact (aka he blocked my number so i blocked him on every piece of social media possible + blocked his number back) and that was all due to his own insecurities and his inability to be a normal fucking person and hold non-toxic relationships with other people in his life. wish i could've seen the red flags way before all this but unfortunately me and our mutual friend had faith in him as a person and it completely backfired on us. the only good thing that came out of this is that me and said mutual friend have gotten even closer than we were before and i'm so so so grateful to have her in my life, she's truly the best. there's so many things i wish i could say to him now that the sadness has mostly dissipated and turned into anger, but i've been letting karma take its turn with him. he got fired from work a week after we went no contact and a week or two before then his ex refused to take him back even though they had a very serious and close relationship, AND his parents have been trying to kick him out of their house, so as much as i want some type of revenge, i think i'll let the universe keep doing its thing and stay out of it. it's unfortunate because he had people in his life who really cared for him and tried to support him but in the end i guess he decided that wasn't worth it for him. i hope he's happy with his decisions. all i can do from this point on is try to keep healing and move on. thank you for reading if you got this far lol