life
okay yall i know yall dont honestly really care about how im feeling or anything, most of you probably dont even read my posts b/c im an annoying son of a bitch and litterally like post 2 word but whateves
so anyways listen
I have a boyfriend, kind of fiance, and hes wonderful. he is so good to me, buys me food, helps pay rent and grocerys. helps with the kittens. pretty much the most perfect person on the face of the earth
and some how i feel alone. like im trapped in my body. i dont have any friends to talk to, maybe like 1 but i always feel like i am bothering people with all of my problems. i dont even want to talk to the boyfriend about it because he has this stupid anxiety problem and like flips shit and starts to get all depressed when i talk about whats wrong with me and like i cant keep him undepressed while im supossed to be undepressing myself and like UGH!!!
i constantly feel like im not good enough and that im not pretty enough or skinny enough. i look at myself and just want to vomit. i will look at pictures of other people, like people i know and wish i looked like them. and maybe thats normal, but its just to the point of feeling unworthy of life and unworthy of the person i have. and honeslty like im just ready to die and be done with it. like im so tired of being tired and im so tired of feeling depressed and im so tired of eating lol
if i couuld just stop eating i would, and its not like i havent tried. like i went 2 weeks with 3 packs of chicken ramen and it just did not work out lol
guys help me please
