DID sideblog

When like the point of DID is that there is another alter that Can and Should handle that but instead I just rotted alone unemployed for years and only now am coming out of that

And old andy always had such an issue with anyone even being slightly co con because they felt so separate from himself and all he ever wanted was privacy so 🤷‍♂️

I wonder why new andrew is always struggling with brain fog(?) and that sort of thing. He also has so few memories of before his time and of his time it makes it hard for him at times. But it also makes it so he cannot dwell on things or be experiencing the bad i suppose?

I like him

Things arent good for us right now and i would have completely destroyed everything if i had been around. Now we just need him to get us a job and we will be sorted (is what he says). (I already am not coping and im barely out)

Like only been actually here and awake and present and being able to think only for a total of about 6 hours since idk march? Is maybe dissociation related

Also its been almost exclusively one part the whole time and we dont even know if thats andy or andy 2.0 or someone else or anything

We stopped labelling our experiences so now it feels like we have none. DID ones i mean

And god the not being able to have thoughts or recall most things for this long is so awful. Our my his (?) recall is so bad he can't recall basic things we used to be able to say in our sleep

And then BAM clarity! Able to think and be back to how we used to be

But literally three times this year

I dont know if we need to start labelling our experiences again. And parts. Because i think that idk i dont know

He does Not do being stuck there, he makes that my (Andy) job and always has