andrea rae

I’m not that Beautiful…

I haven’t been blogging for a month, because I have been working n a film shoot. (Yes, it was loads of fun, but that’s not what this post is about.) SO on this shoot multiple boys/men told I’m beautiful. And every single time my reaction (in my head, sometimes out loud) was ‘what do you want’or ‘flattery won’t get you anything’. Some of the girls on set turned into real girly girls when this line…

I believe every girl has some sort of issue with their mothers. Some greater than others. I wouldn’t count myself as having a great issue with my mother, but my lack of certain life skills can be directly related to my mother’s influences in my life. I once read a quote that said a parent’s voice becomes the little voice inside their child’s head,  so you have to be careful what you say to them.…

I want to hold your hand…

So I have had another epiphany about love. They don’t come too often and most of them don’t make any sense, but I feel like I’m on to something with this one. I can honestly say I have never been in love. I have never experienced the sick-to-your-stomach, the complete-bubble-in-body-eveywhere, the do-whatever-it-takes, the love so deep you would die for them kind of love. I have merely been…

Your 20’s is not for falling in love?

I had dinner at my friend’s house today and she said something that made me think of relationships. She said: ‘Your twenties are not for falling in love, that’s what your thirties are for.’ I have mixed feelings about this statement. Firstly I can relate to it. I have entered my late twenties this year. Single. Never been in love. Never been with a boy for more that 3 months. Don’t know what a…

Finding your Adulting Feet.

Yesterday I was doing some shopping, while walking around I realised that this is a very adult activity. Especially seeing as I decided to not buy the shoes I have been perving over the last few six months, but rather bought milk and coffee and shampoo and tampons and conditioner and face wash (a luxury, I know) and tooth paste and a chocolate. I think there was something else but the total was…

This is how I feel. I have always been four years behind everyone else my age. The other day a friend of mine made it clear exactly where I’m lacking my our years, because I know I am emotionally mature for my age. Experience. I am lacking life experience. The reason for this is my very sheltered teenage years. Growing up I was closely monitored by my mother. She monitored everything, music I…

Last week someone asked me what I’m lookig for. In life and love. I sat wondering and couldn’t think of anything on the spot, and I honestly answeed and said I don’t know. Over the last week I thought about this, and still my answer is I don’t know. Since I can remember, I have always been planning for the future. Always sitting around making lists and daydreaming about the future, because the…