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Christmas should be a happy time…. Right? Why do I feel defeated and depressed and like a fucking failure? I look at my life and yea I’m happy I have two beautiful kids but fuckkkkk do I dread Christmas this year. Idk if it’s because my bank account is almost negative or because the person who made my Christmas amazing by just being alive and happy and seeing joy in her face at this time of year is gone. She’s gone.. 😭 I miss her. Maybe my grief at this time of year is at its peak. I don’t know anymore. All I’ve done this week is cry myself to sleep wake up and cry and it never ends. Fuck man.

Been a long few months.. dealing with a bunch of bullshit.. sometimes I wish shit would hurry the fuck up and happen already.. I’m exhausted from helping people who don’t deserve it!