no one cares about this blog thank god so i can just scream into the void about it. after being in the heated rivalry fandom for the last 6 months i can say with my chest, so so so so so many people are literally so ignorant of their heavy racial biases and orientalist ableist mindsets and the way they bleeds into fanon and like it really makes me want to shoot myself. like i get so much joy from talking to my mutuals but inevitably i will encounter a fic or post that will go as far as to actively deny canon in order to push racist and ableist ideas onto shane's character, and when the canon is already kind of microagressive, a fanon that's worse is like. kind of so bad.
and im a big believer in making your own post but theres only so often that i can make a "that idea is not grounded in anything besides perhaps,,,,,,your internal biases" before i sound like the meanest most annoying bitch and i really really dont want to be a mean annoying bitch i do not but whenever i see one of those posts it actually makes me want to cry a little like guys i love this fandom so much but why does racism always persist sometimes i just want to not see racism
and like i know i sound like a nutter but i stg its not just me saying it, i literally will see a popular post go around about author and fandom racial biases go around every so often but like nothing ever changes. and its not that i can't regulate my emotions i really really can but i'm just at a point where it has worn on me so much to get vitriol over the softest most timid polite "i think you guys should perhaps reconsider x headcanon, because y, but no worries if not" post and then see racism on my dash and ugh
probably i just need to bite the bullet and quit fandom for HR bc i'm clearly not having fun but like i ammmmm when im having fun i really am its just that no one can tag "has implicit racial biases" in their post and i am occasionally jumpscared when something shitty comes through
