amy-sissy-forever

Bells's Big Sister Advice

omg hi sweetie. u caught me. just having a lil wine night by myself, lookin all cozy. barefoot and everything. this is like, my favorite way to unwind. it makes me think of our chats, ya know? i can just be myself around you, cuz you're not like… a guy guy. you're one of us.

anyway, i'm so glad we had our talk. so we're agreed. your mission for this week is so important. it's time to finally graduate. think of it like homework. you've been practicing with ur toys, which is like, super diligent and I'm proud of u. but rehearsals are over, sis. it’s time for the real thing.

which is why ur mission… is to find a cute guy and practice. 😈 like, for real this time. go to a bar. get on an app. i don't care. but you're gonna use that throat for what it was made for. and when ur done? you're gonna call me and tell me every detail. i wanna know if he was thick, if he was clean, everything. it's what besties do.

the orange pedicure

you’re so funny. you think i’m asking for your opinion, but what i’m really doing is confirming your function. i remember you spending an entire afternoon on my pedicure last week. the sharp smell of the acetone, the patient way you filed my calluses, the meticulous care you took painting that obnoxious orange polish onto each toe. you held my foot in your hands with a tenderness most men reserve for… well, nothing, actually. while you worked, i was telling you about this guy i met, how he had this raw, animalistic energy. i talked about wanting him to sweat all over me, to leave me a filthy, used mess. and you just kept painting, your focus absolute. you see this picture and you don’t see a pussy. you see your handiwork. you see the toes you perfected, and your brain immediately connects them to the filthy stories i told you. you imagine my feet, your masterpiece, braced against his shoulders while he’s railing me. you get off on knowing you prepared me, decorated me, for another man’s purely animalistic pleasure. your art is in service of his filth.

Life after transition: It generally means that after transitioning for an average period of 2-3 years, or by completing a roadmap (see here), you are basically living as the gender you identify with for the rest of your life and are comfortable with it. This is especially true in cases like having GRS/SRS where you literally need to take HRT forever as you are lacking a crucial hormone needed for your body to survive. As scary as this may sound (and it unfortunately is if live in an area where HRT or even being trans is becoming very risky to live, looking at you Southern US), it also means you’re finally able to live the life you should have been since assigned at birth. Living with gender dysphoria is something nobody should go through as it makes your livelihood worse and it’s been proven why HRT is the best solution for trans people to live happier.

So how is life like after transition? Based on what I’ve read about fellow trans women who have transitioned over 3+years, their livelihood has been far better. Almost every trans woman sees themselves as women and their dysphoria becomes almost non-existent. Passing also becomes less of a priority as several years on estrogen and anti-blockers, as well as gender affirming surgeries like facial feminization, have done sufficient work to feminize the body silhouette. Of course, everyone around you sees you as just another woman. Your clothing is feminine, you have a basic ability to do makeup, your body movements are naturally feminine, and even your “aura” feels femme enough to connect with other girls. By this point, most girls become confident enough to focus on their own future and interests. But although their transition has come to an end, there are still two topics that are very important to know about post-op trans women and it’s one that will impact their (and possibly yours) lives.

One of those topics is something called stealthing, which is when a trans person lives as their affirmed gender and identity while omitting their transitioning past. This is often done due to privacy, safety, and ability to pass as cis while avoiding discrimination for their transgender identity. Stealthing is very common among transgender women as they are more prone to being harassed and discriminated by cisgender people due their feminine gender and trans identity. Living as stealth can provide more comfort and a better chance of dating, but it could also be detrimental as it could leave you experiencing loneliness. Stealth is not for everyone and it’s only up to the individual if they desire to live stealth after finalizing their transition.

The second one is regarding HRT. Because it is a medication that you need to take for life, especially if you have had GRS/SRS, it is absolutely necessary you make sure to stockpile whatever you need and have a backup plan. More and more laws and organizations are forcefully pulling out gender affirming healthcare to the point of endangering trans people’s lives. Don’t believe when they say they’re doing this “for the kids”. If you’ve been paying attention to the news, they have done this to adults, too. DIY is a good alternative if you can’t get the resources you need through prescription, but again, you have to do your research before giving your money to scammers.