"To improve is to change, to be perfect is to change often."
Joined Tumblr on: 17th March, 2025
Current blog start date: 21st April, 2026
Was originally: snipemeout, grim-reaper-offical, food-hating-with-a-qing
I was previously: @snipemeout, @grim-reaper-offical, and @food-hating-with-a-qing. If you recognise the profile, you're probably remembering my old account. My house caught on fire (deactivated) and I lost lots of things 😔😔
Hello. Uhh, hi, greetings? I don't know. This is my blog I really really like being weird and annoying on it.
My name's sara but you can call me...... sara. i don't have a cool nickname. (she/her/any except it/its, fag/got)
i'm a MINOR. A MINOR.
i like food and cats and snakes and other things that i can't think of at the moment . Most of my misspellings are on purpose because i think they're funny and if i converse with you yes i will also correct you. in case you couldn't tell i'm a grammar militant (no i'm not calling myself a grammar nazi go fuck your mom).
DNI if you are:
Pro-Israel/A zionist. If you are just from Israel or Jewish then that is perfectly fine, but I am literally Palestinian. Interact with me to any extent, and I'll block you.
Currently priding yourself on hating a group of people. I don't care what group it is, whether it be queers, the disadvantaged, the poor, the heathen, or otherwise. You are not cool for it. Some mother out there is telling her kids you're a bad influence.
Sensitive to topics relating to depression, suicide/suicidal tendencies/suicidal ideation/plans for suicide/murderous or violent tendencies, eating disorders, self-harm, gender dysphoria, anxiety, abuse, etc. I say swear words and sometimes I say the f slur.
Asks i NEED from people :
1 - If you send me any sort of writing prompt I'll try and answer it to the best of my ability because i want to improve my writing skills
2 - If you send me a music/tv show/movie recommendation based on my tastes I'll watch them eventually but it may take a while
3 - Art challenges !! i might not post whatever i draw but i'll still do them rest assured
4 - PLEASE TELL ME TO PRACTICE PIANO I SWEAR TO GOD
5 - just ANYTHING. tell me about your life damn I genuinely want to hear it.
Music I like:
Theatre of Tragedy, Evanescence, Tom Lehrer, Korn, Scarling., Destroy Boys, Be Your Own Pet, Bear Ghost, Four4444, Slipknot, frazer (the 18 year old one), Car Seat Headrest, Tierra Whack, morgue, System of a Down, Glassjaw, cosMo@Bousou-P, Will Wood (and the Tapeworms), Dazey and the Scouts, An Evening at Elmwood, WILLOW, The Orion Experience, Mindless Self Indulgence, Nirvana, Tame Impala, Soundgarden, Bjork, Madvillain, the Blake Robinson Synthetic Orchestra, Type O Negative, Jack off Jill, VIAL, Britney Spears, Insane Clown Posse, Maretu, Opal In Sky, Snot, April's Love Affair, Signal the Escape, phreshboyswag, xaviersobased, That Handsome Devil, Foo Fighters, Buckshot Princess, Poppy, ThxsoMch, MEMI, Weezer, Destroy Boys, Deftones, JILUKA, Slutever, Angelspit, Skindred, Foster the People, Linkin Park, A Pale Horse Named Death, Three Days Grace, Silverstein, The Paper Chase, Slayer, Pierce the Veil, Panchiko, A Heartwell Ending, Scott Joplin, The Dresden Dolls, Nine Vicious, MISOGI, HIM, slayr, Gwen Stefani, Julia Wolf, TX2, prettifun, She Wants Revenge, Pierce the Veil, Jack Johnson, Muse, Jann, Tyler, the Creator, nazmi, Dio, OsamaSon, Sheena Ringo, Lunachicks, Limp Bizkit, Nirvana, Mitski, My Chemical Romance, Unwanted Superheroes, MF DOOM, Eminem, lifelover, Michael Jackson + The Jacksons, Steve Lacy, Go Hang Music, Ringo Deathstarr, Weird Al, The Clash, Gang of Four, Joy Division, KMFDM, Metallica, Queens of the Stone Age, Misfits, From First To Last, Lemon Demon, ksuuvi, Miracle Musical, Prayer for Cleansing, DADAROMA, Falling In Reverse, Tally Hall, Slayer, Tyler the Creator, Far From Forgiven, Sidney Gish, Kendrick Lamar, Zetsubou P, Jann, Penelope Scott, Hatsune Miku, Alice in Chains, Kasane Teto, Ado, VIOLENT VIRA, Gorillaz, Zetsubou P, Eighteen Visions, Kanaria, Mötley Crüe, Fugazi, Skycamefalling.
Meiko is my favourite VOCALOID, but i wouldn't say I keep up with the -loids much so I wouldn't be able to decide my favourite for others.
I usually like listening to music. I mean, like, I love it. I love it so much. I love jazz, I love pop, I love metal, I love rock, I love rap, I love reggae, I love jmusic... I love culture. I love how people express their emotions such that others can feel them. I love the idea of creating it and consuming it.
my favourite genre right now is post-hardcore
I also enjoy classical music -- in fact I play piano. I love this one song called Serenade for Strings in E. I can play it and it's super awesome. My grandma also taught me a song called Passacaglia which is super easy and fun can recommend 👍
Yada yada, I'd love to play a bunch of instruments, like bass, guitar, saxophone, drums... I'd also like to sing, I practice it a lot. Wouldn't that be cool?
If I was in a band, I'd want to be the keyboardist + vocalist + bassist.
Shows/Movies I like:
Helluva Boss, Perfect Blue, Serial Experiments: Lain, Hazbin Hotel, Steven Universe, Gravity Falls, I, Robot, South Park, Arcane, Rick and Morty, One Piece, Demon Slayer, Scott Pilgrim vs. The World, Blue Lock, PARASITE, Assassination Classroom, Sonic Franchise, Knights of Guinevere, The Truman Show, Dragon Ball, Boondocks, The Amazing World of Gumball, The Wonderfully Weird World of Gumball, Delicious in Dungeon, Classroom of the Elite, Meet the Robinsons, Assassination Classroom, Fullmetal Alchemist, The Apothecary Diaries, The Substance, The Owl House, Spy x Family, Make the Exorcist Fall in Love, Lady Bird, PEN15, Angels of Death, Naruto, Death Note, Boondocks, Neon Genesis Evangelion, End of Evangelion, Inside Job, Family Guy, Longlegs, The Promised Neverland, Interstellar, Jojo's Bizarre Adventure, The Mandela Catalogue, I can't remember anything else whatever i'll do it later i just wanna get this posted
I don't normally watch things but I like anime, sci-fi, horror & fantasy. Also cooking.
To be clear, I don't support Vivziepop or how her hiring of a rape fetishist to storyboard the song Poison. I'm a sailor of the Caribbean seas... if you know what I mean. Detailed post will be put here when it is done.
I also like D'Angelo Wallace and Meatcanyon.
Books I like:
DUNE, The Hobbit + Lord of the Rings (I will also watch these), Hawking's A Brief ... series, Shadows of the Mind, To Kill a Mockingbird, The Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde, 1984, The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes, The Great Gatsby, Animal Farm, IT, The Shining, Carrie, Pet Sematary, 11/22/63, The Dead Zone, Firestarter, The Reality Game, Metamorphosis, The Hunger Games, Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation, The Book Thief, The Time Trilogy, Macbeth, Frankenstein, The Bell Jar.
I HAVE THE BOOK OF BILL IT'S SO AMAZING MY GOD
This is HEAVILY unupdated I'm just kind of rushing through editing this thing. Please ignore its size... its n ot small its average :(
Games I like:
Genshin Impact, Honkai: Star Rail, MiSide, Elden Ring, Assassin's Creed: Mirage, Doki Doki Literature Club, Needy Streamer Overdose, Detroit: Become Human, Fortnite, Class of 09 trilogy, Error143, Tomodachi Life: Living the Dream, Forza Horizon 4 & 5, Your Boyfriend John Doe, A Date with Death, 14 Days With You
I WANT TO PLAY DARK SOULS AND RESIDENT EVIL AND SILENT HILL AND PERSONA AND ULTRAKILL AND RED DEAD REDEMPTION AND THE INQUISITOR AND DEVIL MAY CRY AND WOLFENSTEIN AND KILLER CHAT AND TCOAAL SO BAD
league of legends HATER. i'm sorry it's such a bad fucking game. if you're a fan of this game i admire your perseverance.
Hobbies I have:
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Other:
pinterest | spotify | bluesky | noterook | spacehey | last.fm | writing megathread | favourite characters | reasons to live | media i MUST consume | meeee :3 |
Epic Games/Fortnite username: chudbaka
Genshin Impact UID: [placeholder i'll insert it later]
Honkai Star Rail UID: [placeholder]
If you want to message me, you should do it on tumblr, because it is the easiest, and if we become closer I can contact you on discord. I don't usually text first. This is because I'm usually too anxious about whether I'm saying the right thing, or whether I'll get tired of talking and just sound stupid or lose a mutual, or because I feel like I'm taking time away from my studies. However, I am here to respond. Make of that what you will.
My username is usually either amoebaporn, snipemeout, or some variation of chudbaka.
I also use soulseek.
I'm working on a neocities/cowsites/my spacehey
I really really like umbrellas. I like a lot of things, actually. I can never quite choose what I like the most, which is strange because I wouldn't describe myself as indecisive... I just don't think my identity is truly and completely ever expressed in any sort of personalised object at all, which I keep hoping I might one day find anyway.
Oh, you wanna know my aesthetic? it's [ ]
Soooooo... my gender. The elephant in the room. Though I consider myself "transmasc", in that I suffer gender dysphoria, and do want to be more masculine, and appear masculine and act masculine in general, but I don't consider myself a transboy. Pronouns have little to no effect on me, so it is ok to she/her me, I think it's easiest for all of us. Actually, a lot of the time, when people he/him me, I kinda feel like I'm lying, and you're lying, and I just feel like it's a courtesy people take to make me feel more comfortable that doesn't actually really make me more comfortable.
I'm probably aspec, but not completely ace. Grayace?. I'm a BIROMANTIC that's for sure.
If I'm being honest, I guess the flags I'd consider me under would be grayasexual, biromantic/bisexual, transgender (transmasc) and apagender.
I am a massive nerd and check my grades like a middle aged drug addict sniffing all their musty surfaces after going broke and running out of crack.
I honestly must warn you, I have forgotten what it means to be good. I was good because I did not realise there was any other way of being, and when that changed, when I realised I did not have to try to be the better, the bigger person, a thrilling sort of moral ambiguity, it since then became difficult, it is difficult, for me to return to trying my best, to being good, to being kind. I am trying. I try to compliment people on the street, on the train, in the hallways. I try to make sure I have honest, real reasons for disliking another. I am trying, learning how to keep myself to myself. I just need to find another reason, and another. I need to have a clear why. One of them is you. Of course it is, have you seen yourself? You're so bright. I love you, y'know, even if neither you nor I know it yet.
I like brownies.
hey y'know what else is funny? the way the economy is rigged for class to always remain a rigid function of society! there's always going to be someone suffering, right? so why not enjoy your own meagre life with minimal pay, no joys, and complete isolation! why not fool yourself with popular media tropes, convincing yourself that's what you want! why not have a family! #marxism am i right folks
Song stuck in my head right now:
Favourite artist/band right now: The Dresden Dolls // Jack off Jill // Be Your Own Pet // Skycamefalling // morgue
Favourite TV show right now:
Favourite movie right now: Perfect Blue
Favourite anime right now: Serial Experiments: Lain
Yes, I used to have a "People" list. I removed it. I don't want anyone to feel like I'm all out of friend spots.
In progress: Gachiakuta, Paprika, Sonic Prime (i'm sowwyyyy i never finished it), Wolfenstein, Elden Ring, Assassin's Creed: Mirage, Serial Experiments Lain (PS1 game)
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steam repeatedly notifying you that a friend is booting up a game thats clearly not cooperating feels like ur sitting inside and someone outside keeps trying to rev up a lawnmower
When the average heterosexual family man complains about his family not respecting him, it is almost always because there is absolutely nothing about him to respect and he has made no effort to connect with any of them and he considers the slightest pushback or lack of affection a sign of ‘disrespect’. When the average heterosexual family woman complains about her family not respecting her, it’s usually because her 14 year old son keeps calling her a bitch and throwing things at her while her husband laughs. The difference is so fucking stark.
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holy shit just remembered i’m here to laugh and jump and cry and sing and dance and hug and run and play and scream and weep and eat and drink and blast music and have fun and love and love and love and love and love!!!!
whats cool about being trans is my parents are totally right. i did kill their beautiful son. im the thing that animates his corpse in an ever more convincing parody of a happy girl. i devoured him from the inside out and now there is nothing left of him and he is dead dead dead and there is only me, with my hollow eyes and dark eyeliner and long hair, and my big smile. my limp, effeminate gestures belie the marionetting of the boy they loved. my fagginess is his death. already his body becomes a fitter home for my parasitism in full; the tits, the hips, the thighs. sorry about your kid. thanks for the biomass <3
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I think a lot about who I am to other people in the world–particular who I am to strangers as a mere concept in their lives.
Today this woman called our information desk and said, “my son’s band is playing tonight. I want to come see him, but he never answers his phone…..I want to be there. Have you heard anything about his band?”
And I felt so bad for this lady but I’m not in the music scene around here so I had to tell her no, sorry.
Five hours later, I’m hiking and run into a group of guys setting up for some outdoor performance, and as I watch them unload the drums it hits me.
“Hey,” I said, “are y’all in a band?”
They said yeah and smiled and I told them “one of your moms called today. She wants to watch you play, but she can’t get a hold of you. Call your mom.”
And they all pulled out their phones and started discussing whose mom it probably was as they presumably dialed their own.
And now, unless we meet again and recognize each other, that’s who I’ll be forever to those guys–some mysterious courier for mom-messages who came out of the woods and told them their mom called.
I didn’t even tell them why their mom called me. Who am I to their mom?? Nobody even asked. They just took my word for it and called their mothers.
YAYAYAYA I HOPE SO........ life has been so peak lately......... AND the aforementioned cutie pie has been reciprocating everything!!!!!!!!!!!!! like gen likes being my friend (i think)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay! and he's so cute . very fucking cute. cute cute cute.
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happy 1 year anniversary to my officalness, im being sentimental so here we go, OOC BITCH
if you talked to me a year ago today, it would be almost like talking to a completely different person. yall have changed me for the better and now i can confidently say that, sometimes, i dont feel like everyones least fav gal.
corny ik, but its the truth. you guys are amazing and dont let anyone convince you otherwise. so lets make a list of all the things that have happened for the better in the past year since i started my blog.
i started listening to music everyday, i never used to be able to concentrate with it and now i can and i cant live without my 4100 song playlist
i stopped living with with my emotionally abusive dad
i have made so many close friends on here and they make me feel loved every day
came to terms with my sexuality and more about my gender and just generally who i am as a person
my style got way better
i learnt many lessons about a varritey of things
i am less clueless and am a bit funnier, although people irl beg to differ, they still dont get my refs
gained 650 followers for being myself, sometimes, on the internet
CHARACTER DEVELOPMEnt
im going to @ some of my fav online friends (and tabs cus idk) that have been here with me since like the start (so not any of u newer moots although i still luv u <3)
in no particular order except tabs is first cus hes better :
@can-tab-eater-offical, ur my bff, love u, we are the same person. the reason i got tumblr and the reason im still here today
@snomulonimbus-clouds, even though i say i hate u, i never could, you are amazing and so fucking funny and you just get me
@nerdwholikesnerdythings, ur silly and sweet and like the most pure and real person in this world and dont let urself convince urself u arent that
@amoebaporn, u are the reason im here where i am today (in the officalverse cus glamkilling), you are smart and funny and cool. you make me smile so hard it hurts
@wizardex-yt, im kinda convinced that we share a brain. you are a sweetheart and an icon, ur like me but less of a bitch usually and u deserve the world to be burned for u
i genuinely dont know what i would do without you all there for me, love you all so much and my life would be very different without you all.
ughhhhh, words cannot being to describe my gratitude
fuck it, i never ever do those “reblog for X, this one really works!” posts, but this one doesn’t have any of that BS, this is just straight up wishing us good things; and then the comment doesn’t even say any of that either. Zero claims on this post, all positive vibes
May you end this week feeling ever more certain of a future you’ll love