AmoebaMom

Has anyone else feeling like everything's been overwhelmingly out of control?! (My anxiety level has been through the roof😮‍💨) Everything seems to be changing everywhere🫣

But just keep pushing forward no matter what💪 don't give up🫂 I'm here if you need an ear to vent🗣👂🙏 or some advice 🤔

I've tried to write this at the beginning of the year to celebrate the New Year, but i rather celebrate the seasonal new year calendar (Feb.17🌱) since it's more natural than the existing calendar ending in December🥶 Though I've have been feeling unmotivated, I wanted to get this out at least👍🏼 Besides I haven't found another platform to do this on yet😒 (maybe I should just try X now🤔)

Anyway, astrologically speaking, Neptune has been in Pisces ♓ (2011-2026) and the feelings of empathy & illusion was the energy we had before. But now (Jan. 26) Neptune is in Aries for the next 14 years. A new era/chapter begins (time to wake up!😳), bold actions, courageous assertion & independent potential ("I am, I will"), will spark new vision to the warrior/pioneer initiators of this challenging but transformative energy in the realm of consciousness👍🏼 and it will spiritualize the personal and the collective as a whole (The great awakening🤯). Dreams grounded in reality and spirit in action by staying centered is necessary because whatever happens will shape the future💯 What will you build? Who will you become? I'm a bit excited/anxious to see what happens in the future, It'll be important life changes for sure🐛🦋

In that case I will only be doing things that line up with my healing and growth so that I can allow my authentic self to fully emerge💖

Starting with changing the foundation that isn't working. If you're in an environment that doesn't allow your "vulnerable" side to come out, then you're mostly going to be guarded the whole time.

There's no space for growth that way🥀😥 So one of the things that I'm going to be doing is getting in shape and keeping a more healthier/balanced lifestyle. Now that my precious Migi👼 is almost 4 years old and my body has mostly recovered from pregnancy (though it takes a total of 8 years to fully recover and to find your identity again, from what I've read🤰📚🧐). I'm able to start my workout routine and do more things for myself. Because face it, the first few years are usually the hardest and the most stressful after having a baby, because it requires a lot of care and attention from you. Though every child and situation is different, the goal is to build a well established bond with your child in the beginning and show your child better habits because kids learn by example. So modeling a healthy routine is important for not just me but for her to follow as well.

As a recovering childhood trauma survivor, I understand how important this stage is for her developing brain. As Dr. Bessel van der Kolk mentioned in an online course I attended recently about trauma healing (featuring his book "the body keeps the score"), if we can avoid childhood trauma, society as a whole will benefit from this greatly. Childhood trauma is harder to heal from and it causes lifelong problems (including health issues) for the individual and not just. That's why I'm re-parenting myself, as I also parent my own precious daughter🤗 which is part of what cycle breaking is about, and ending that cycle here and now is for the betterment of humanity ⛓️‍💥🌎🙏🏼

Despite things not being ideal currently, I do feel hopeful about the future and the inevitable changes that are happening. It almost feels like we're in a different time-line✨️ Like tides are changing🌊 tables are turning🔄 and new leafs are turning🍃 Everything is changing so much that it's going to be unrecognizable (especially with AI coming into the scene)🤯 opportunities will be available if you're able to find hope amidst all the chaos and reconstruction 🚧 Let's find ways to keep hope alive, like this song that hits differently for me because of my healing journey.🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼 (please enjoy!🎵🫨🎶)