Animal Desires

My nonhumanity impacts me everyday. Even when being out with friends and having fun, it's a damn struggle

I can't just go and do stuff and have a nice time. The fact i'm living a human life makes me so depressed that all i can do at the end of a day is cry

I have days where it gets so bad i get physically sick and have to stay home

I love hearing stories about Nonhumans that still live their life like "red panda working at a coffee shop"

But i wish i'd hear more about ones like me too.

Ones like me that cannot go outside sometimes because they can't keep their instincts away. Some days i cannot go outside because i know i'm gonna do "weird stuff" because i struggle to push it aside

My body hurts from having to hold myself back. I sometimes really wonder how others do it. I have two friends that both consider themselves Alterhuman. But they manage to be so casual about it, they can still do stuff like getting ice cream without feeling absolute dread

When i was little i used to have moments like this where i went full on animal and no one could snap me out of it. I'd refuse to eat like a human, i walked on all fours for days, i only communicated with 'dog' noises

This feeling never left. I just managed to supress it

I AM MY KINTYPE. That's what non-humanity is about. It's not "a strong connection", it's not only a past life or an aesthetic, it's litterally all/any/some level(s) of your identity. Who you are. What you are. You absolutely can feel human to some extent, and that's OK. But if you don't feel like you ARE your kintype on any level (which disqualifies you from non-humanity), then you are just... human

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your identity is valid no matter what. even if you have an identity that in some way connects to humanity, it doesnt make you any less valid as a therian or otherkin in either of the communities

having any level of connectedness to humanity as an alterhuman doesn’t make you less non-human because fully human people don’t feel any disconnect. the threshold of being nonhuman is literally 1. youre nonhuman regardless of how you may or may not connect with your humanity

For you, this may mean buying cat ears or cat ear headphones. It may mean amber contact lenses to mimic the eyes of a wolf, dyeing your hair black and wearing it shaggy and long. It may mean implants on your canines to get fangs. Tattoos. Piercings. Claw-shaped acrylic nails. I mean, who knows?

i just feel large and ungraceful

i want to be lanky

i want my long limbs and paws

Today is my birthday 🌱

I will be grateful for the repost ~