So I found out I have depression recently. And I guess it's not going good, but I've had it for many years and never knew. Its made me push people away, not because of cruelty or like I wish to be mean, but because I am afraid. I tried to reach out like they tell you to do. All I got was scolded and yelled at and told to stop speaking. No one believes me. No one cares nor wants me. So I wanna do the right thing and leave before I ruin anything else.
I don't mean to ruin things, I'm not a monster. I'm just a lost man. A man who keeps being used, lied to, and I am sick of it. So I am sorry. People lie to me constantly that I am not alone. That I am not so unique. But all I get is lied to over and over and over again. You don't want me. You don't care. I dont think I'll be back here, and I am so sorry to post such a negative post on this otherwise positive space. I'm just tired and it makes me say things like this.
I hope you all have a wonderful life. You each have people who want you, who care for you. So please take care and please have a wonderful day. I wish I could give more than that.
