hoping someday maybe I'll just float away

Sure thing! They’re really not that awful. It’s mostly, I’m just using whatever scraps of yarn I have, so some of them end up okay, and others are just a rainbow mess. 

I don’t knit, I crochet. Crochet is with a single hook, knitting’s got multiple needles and stuff. Never got into knitting, but crochet isn’t too hard. It’s essentially making a bunch of chains with yarn and a hook. I learned off youtube.

The fact that you turned scraps of yarn into anything is enough to be proud of I think. Rainbow messes are absolutely okay with me. And if anything I’ll get a kick of insisting my boyfriends wears a very bright, colorful hat.

With the weather the way it’s been, I’ve been trying some patterns for hats and scarves with whatever yarn I’ve got. If you don’t care about colors or stitches being uneven or anything like that, I’m planning on making as many of them as I can manage. Whatever isn’t claimed will go to Secure Reaches and the hospital, or wherever other people who need them are. 

I stress again, these aren’t that pretty. If you’re looking for pretty, go to Etsy. But I’m pretty sure they’ll at least be warm and you’ll have a Rouhani original. 

If there’s still some up for grabs, I’d definitely be interested in both! Warmth always wins out over pretty. Also just to appease my curiosity...is knitting difficult to learn?

The card game What Do You Meme

Malia, thanks for not only being my friend (and pseudo-bodyguard) but also having the endless patience of trying to be my social media teacher.

-Ally

a large-scale painting she’s done of his family’s farm, and his grandfather’s watch engraved with his last name--which she got after contacting his mother.

Charlie, you mean more to me than I could ever hope to put into words. You’ve given me a reason to do more than just exist. I wish I could give you everything, but for now I think this could maybe suffice. I can’t wait to spend every other Christmas with you, and more than that, I can’t wait to spend our Christmases together at that same farm. Thank you for choosing me, and for being mine.

Yours always, Ally

A handful of drawings she’s done over the course of the year that are all various characters from stories he’s shared with her. And a journal she painted his initials onto to write new stories.

Jasper, while this year has had a lot of ups and downs, I know at the end of the day I can always count on you. I love you and thank you for being in my life and being one of my best friends. I can’t wait for all the new stories you’ll be coming up with in the future.

-Ally

But you’re so wholesome?? Like, how could you not be up the teachers ass? You can show up and have some fun! And if we’re talkin’ jobs, I assign you the job of talkin’ to Old Town Road and yeetin’ his grumpy ass along for the ride. I wanna see him yee-haw around on some skates. 

I was sent to a boarding school across the country where I didn’t know anyone....I think I was more focused on myself than the teachers. But I mean it! I’d like to help. Charlie will be there though, I have my ways of persuading him. Not sure if I can get him on skates, but..we’ll see.

Aight, so here’s the dealio. Ya girl has consulted legit everyone she can ‘bout this and has come to a decision. The lit af party is gonna be new years eve. There’s gonna be lights, green energy sources, food, liquor, legit everything. So here’s what I need from y’all: 

I’m gonna need everyone to take ‘bout 69 calm downs and about 4 deep breaths. This is to have fun, feed a bunch of people, keep folks warm kinda and let loose a lil’ bit. Ring in the new year on a good note. Feel to bring whatever y’all can– tents, food, grills, fire-pits. It’s gonna be at Rollerzone, partially inside and then partially outside in the parkin’ lot. If you wanna rent some skates, it’ll be one (1) nonperishable food thing so it can be donated to the hospital. Also, I’m probs gonna need a volunteer for That, so if you were That Kid in school who volunteered for errands and everything for the teacher, like a wannabe teacher’s pet– now’s your chance to fulfill your destiny, except instead of running attendance to the office, you’re gonna be handin’ out skates to folks. 

I...actually don’t think a party is a bad idea. I agree that I think everyone can use something lighthearted and easy. To loosen up a bit, like you said. So I’ll definitely talk to Charlie about going. And even though I..definitely wasn’t a ‘teacher’s pet’, if you’re still in need of help with the skates or anything, I’d be happy to assist where I can if you want.

Alright, who did it. 

If you fess up, I won’t kick your ass too bad. 

And really, if you’re gonna graffiti a dick on someone else’s business, at least make sure it’s an anatomically correct dick. Jesus Christ. 

I think if I owned a business, I’d rather it not be anatomically correct, at least that way if it’s bad it’s not completely obscene... That said, I hope it’s all..taken care of by now?

I love working with charcoal, and also painting.. though recently I’ve also been into sculpting. Honestly really anything that allows me to express myself is perfect to me.

I’ve never done sculpting before...not sure how good at it I’d be if I’m being honest. I’ve always been more into paints and sketching. I’ve dabbled a bit with charcoals, but mainly I’ve used acrylics. Is there...still a lot of supplies left at the college? I’m running a bit low. And all the same, I think I’ll stop by one of your classes, it sounds fun.

Just a reminder that I’m holding art classes of all kinds and at the art college, and that we’re offering hot tea and snacks to all who come. I know that some of you feel that recreation is hard at a time like this, but it is good to soothe your soul somehow.

With everything that’s gone on, I’ve been so frazzled I’ve hardly painted lately.. What’s your preferred medium of art? Or favorite thing you wanna teach? 

I am, actually– I’ve decided to hold it during the weekdays, since that’s actually the one bit of normalcy we can hold on to. You’re more than welcome to come, though. Do you have something in particular you’re interested in? We can get a headstart on discussions, if you don’t mind. It’s not a problem at all, just my duty as a doctor. 

I’ll see about stopping by then, since things have strangely seemed to...settle a bit. And not having to walk around with crutches anymore is definitely a plus now too. Oh um..I’m not....I’m not one hundred percent sure, if I’m being honest. Obviously I’ve never done anything relating to a scene yet, and this is the first time in my life I’ve been without the shot, so..it’s all very..new. And a bit overwhelming. Like, I’m not sure where to even start? And I know, but still. He was bad and...it could’ve been a lot worse had it not been for you and Daya and everyone who convinced his stubborn behind to get checked out.

They’re not all entirely awful. Just pretty bland, and repetitive after a while. But some of them even came with M&M’s. Actually, there’s probably a lot of those around somewhere. They might be good to have. 

Nah, the burnt ramen is pretty awful. And at this point, cold.

Mm, well...if you know how to make them? It might come in handy soon. What are, MRE’s or M&M’s?

Hopefully you get to eat something decent soon, Sir? Or at least substantial?

You know, after a few years of eating MRE’s, even burnt ramen tastes good. But that’s the last time I’m letting Bayview residents cook for me. How’s everybody else doing?

Charlie’s told me about his times eating MREs and I dunno how you guys survived on those. Was what was cooked for you really worse than burnt ramen though? Because that sounds like it’s own special form of torture.

Has there been anything productive happening as of late or is it still all gloom and doom? I’ve been weighing the pros and cons of actually going to Ashbridge and setting up class for those who’d like to come, while classes are free and there’s no tuition. Plus it’ll give me a head start on figuring out what works what doesn’t when teaching Practical D/s. Switches are, of course, allowed to attend if they so choose. I’ll be providing lunch during, as well. 

I...think both? I found it was best to fall off the radar for a bit, but now coming back to everything, it seems like both. Thankfully though, the first option seems to be the more popular one- what with people offering to help with food and volunteer work and all that. If um....if you actually go through with that idea, the classes and all..I might be up for going..if that’s okay? Also I just wanted to say thank you again, for what you did for Charlie. It’s very appreciated, Miss.

Charlie felt his cheeks reddening at her question. He supposed he might have been a little presumptive. “I, uh - well, I mean. Yeah,” he stuttered out. “I don’t want just a good time… I want a life. I ain’t the foolin’ around type… I want somethin’ real, y’know?” 

He wished he could turn his whole body over toward her, but Charlie was hooked up to enough tubes and wires that he knew it wasn’t possible. And though he was currently pain-free, he knew twisting and turning was likely to change that. Instead, he turned his head, brushing his lips gently against her temple. “I know we can’t claim… but we could get married. Get old together. Have kids, if it’s something you’d want…”

Ally felt those words bubbling up more and more but she stamped them down and instead just let out a breath, turning her head to press a soft kiss to wherever she reached as she nodded, “Something real.” She agreed, murmured softly against him, a little smile on her lips.

Fauna looked at the woman across from her and desperately tried to place her. “Oh hello Miss, we met very briefly when you came in for Charlie. Doctor Frightman, I explained the surgery to you.” She explained, usually she would have offered the other woman her hand but since they were full she simply kind of dipped her head in greeting. “Honestly I just need to put a log book in every ward that can be collected at the end of the day.” She explained.

Ally’s eyes widened just slightly at the title, a little taken aback. But maybe it was just politeness and not an actual title and her lack of sleep was just getting to her. So ultimately she brushed it off and gave the woman a little smile as she nodded, “Right! Right, I--sorry. It’s..been a long few days. Thank you, by the way. For that. For all of you here. Doctor Taylor took good care of him.” Freeing up one hand by putting the crutch against the wall she nodded to the books in her hand, “I can take some? Charlie’s sleeping so I’m just...wandering around.” granted her backpack was full of supplies she’d taken from a few closets but..she didn’t need to know that.