doing it for me

“A checkmate with a bishop occurs when an opposing king is attacked by a bishop and has no legal moves to escape, block, or capture the attacking piece. Since bishops move diagonally, they require support from other pieces to trap the enemy king.” Bishop needed the support from other pieces aka Ali to bring the king down.

May God have mercy.

ever since I started watching this, I saw a lot of myself in Rue. before my dad died from cancer, I’d tell myself my ending would be the same as hers.

today, I watched that sequence of her dying while I cried and screamed in my room. when Ave Maria started playing, I instantly remembered the last time I saw my dad leaving our house in an ambulance and Ave Maria started playing somewhere as I watched him leave the house we lived together for the last time. thinking about Rue hugging her father makes me wish I was dead too and it brought back the pain of relating with a character doomed by the narrative. how many times I thought about ODying so I could see my dad again. hug him and feel the smell on his clothes. I can still feel how it felt hugging him.

this was a beautiful ending for the show but it wrecked me with the amount of coincidences with my life, once again. Rue died in October, just like my dad. my birthday month. the Ave Maria playing, even the way Rue’s dad kinda looks like mine.