Agnes Hultgren

Nesta and Cassian - A Court of Thorns and Roses

I love how Howl and Sophie’s relationship developed, it started from him being the charming prince, seemingly perfect, until she gradually finding out the inner side of him, fragile and lonely and afraid, and then she came to his rescue.

“Just this taste in the dead of the longest night of the year, where only the Mother might witness them.”

That bonus Azriel POV scene is sending me crazy so I had to draw it :) Please don’t re-post, Reblogs are loved!

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NESTA HAS NEVER USED HER TRAUMA TO JUSTIFY HER BEHAVIOUR.

NESTA HAS NEVER TOLD A SOUL WHAT THOMAS DID TO HER.

NESTA HAS NEVER TOLD ANYONE WHAT SHE WENT THROUGH UNDER THE CAULDRON.

NESTA HAS NEVER TOLD ANYONE THE AFTERMATH OF THE WAR.

NESTA HAS NEVER TOLD ANYONE ABOUT THE NIGHTMARES, ABOUT HER FEARS.

So stop saying that Nesta's traumas shouldn't justify her behaviour because SHE HAS NEVER USED HER TRAUMAS TO DO IT.

She has never sat down and retold her story again and again to gain any favours or empathy.

In fact, in Wings and Embers when Cassian asked her who hurt her, her first reaction is to ask:

"Would it change anything if someone had? Would it make you see me differently, treat me differently?"

She never say anything about herself, she never tell people about her misfortunes.

So stop fucking saying that she cant use her traumas to justify her behaviour because SHE ALWAYS PRETEND TO BE FINE. She always pretend that nothing affects her, even though she's feel things x1000 more than anyone else but she suffer it in silence, away from people.

That's the reason she left Feyre's house after the war. Because she could be alone, away from her sisters, away from anyone that would judge her every move and force her to keep pretending that she's okay.