a foul move

okay but shiv saying “I like it all” to tom’s advances. her pausing. him repeatedly asking her if she likes it , if she wants him. but she doesn’t want anything. she wants it all. she wants all the love she could possibly have, all the love she could never give. she doesn’t know what she wants. any affection she has ever been shown has been tainted. the poison drips through. she doesn’t want him, but she doesn’t want anything else either. so she’ll take what she gets. the only thing she’s ever gotten. he won’t make her happy. he’ll try and fail and eventually give up. he’ll become infected by the poison that’s innate within her. and shiv will lie stagnant the whole time. wondering if she had been microdosing this man with this inherited curse, or if it had been within him the whole time, if she sought it out.