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𝐖𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠♡

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐒𝐮𝐤𝐢𝐭𝐚 (𝐒𝐨𝐨-𝐤𝐞𝐞-𝐭𝐚𝐡) 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐈 𝐠𝐨 𝐛𝐲 𝐒𝐮𝐤𝐢. 𝐌𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐦𝐞 𝐯𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐲 𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬, 𝐨𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭 𝐚 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐲𝐚𝐩.

𝐐𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐟𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐬 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐞 ^ - ^

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐜𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐏𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐚𝐧 (𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐚 𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐥 𝐀𝐦𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐜𝐚 & 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐨 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐲)

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝟏𝟔 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐨𝐥𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘 𝐟𝐞𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐞

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐚 𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐛𝐢𝐚𝐧

𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐫𝐬 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐠𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐧

𝐈 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐚𝐤 𝐬𝐩𝐚𝐧𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡 (𝐢𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐚𝐭 𝐞𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐨)

𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞, 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐬, 𝐩𝐬𝐲𝐜𝐡𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐲, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫

𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐲 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞, 𝐬𝐩𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐟𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐰(𝐢 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐩 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐫 𝐦𝐮𝐬𝐢𝐜 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞)

𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐟𝐚𝐬𝐡𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐬

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐚 𝐜𝐚𝐫 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐞, 𝐦𝐲 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦 𝐜𝐚𝐫 𝐢𝐬 𝐚 𝟏𝟗𝟔𝟔 𝐌𝐞𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐝𝐞𝐬 𝐁𝐞𝐧𝐳 𝟐𝟑𝟎𝐒𝐋 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐢𝐛𝐥𝐞

𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐬, 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞 𝐢𝐚 𝐑𝐞𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐧 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐉𝐞𝐝𝐢, 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐢𝐬 𝐂𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐬

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐚 𝐬𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐤-𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐚'𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐂-𝐝𝐫𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐬

𝐌𝐲 𝐟𝐚𝐯𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐢𝐬 𝐃𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐰𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐬

𝐈 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐯𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐈 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝟓

𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐒𝐚𝐧𝐫𝐢𝐨

𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐚 𝐜𝐮𝐫𝐥𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐢𝐫 𝐠𝐮𝐫𝐥

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆- 𝐓𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠 𝐢𝐬 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝟏𝟑+ 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝𝐚 "𝐟𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤" 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐥𝐢𝐤𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐝𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐮𝐬𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐬

𝐈 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐮𝐠𝐠𝐥𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐥 𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐬𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐚𝐬 𝐚𝐧 𝐄𝐃, 𝐀𝐧𝐱𝐢𝐞𝐭𝐲, 𝐃𝐞𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧, 𝐎𝐂𝐃, 𝐚𝐧𝐝, 𝐀𝐃𝐇𝐃

𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭'𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐈 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐧𝐨𝐰! 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐟𝐫𝐞𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬, 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠.

𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘 𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐓

𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒂 𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 𝒍𝒐𝒘 𝒕𝒐𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒅𝒆𝒉𝒖𝒎𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒛𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 𝒐𝒓 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕. 𝑾𝒊𝒕𝒉 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒃𝒆𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒔𝒂𝒊𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒆𝒔 𝒘𝒉𝒐 𝒖𝒏𝒅𝒆𝒓𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒎𝒆𝒂𝒏. (𝒇𝒆𝒆𝒍 𝒇𝒓𝒆𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒂𝒔𝒌 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒄𝒍𝒂𝒓𝒊𝒕𝒚) 𝑰𝒏 𝒎𝒚 𝒃𝒍𝒐𝒈 𝒊𝒇 𝑰 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒃𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒔𝒉𝒊𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒘𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒆 𝒊𝒎𝒎𝒆𝒅𝒊𝒂𝒕𝒆𝒍𝒚 𝒓𝒆𝒑𝒐𝒓𝒕𝒆𝒅. 𝑰'𝒎 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒂 𝒃𝒖𝒛𝒛 𝒌𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒊𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒄𝒍𝒆𝒂𝒓𝒍𝒚 𝒅𝒐 𝒏𝒐𝒕 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒂𝒎 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒌𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕. 𝑨𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒆𝒃𝒅 𝒐𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒅𝒂𝒚 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒃𝒆 𝒏𝒊𝒄𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒎𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒔. (づ￣ ³￣)づ

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1.) I still haven’t really forgiven my ex friend for what happened between us, but i don’t know if i ever will

2.) it still is extremely triggering to be in the same spaces with the same people

3.) the more time goes on the more aware i become of the situation, and how i should not blame myself for everything

4.) Even though last school year want so difficult I think it was part of the relapse in some ways, like my body and mind needed to release the built up emotions

5.) I was able to claim my suicidal thoughts and experiences and validate them, bc i was always told i was just acting this way for attention

6.) I realize how little my mother cares and honestly it’s better for me that there is no false hope

(these r all lyrics i feel give ella🫶) songs i wrote btw🥹

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✎✐ ✎ ✐ ✎ ✐ ↻ ◁ || ▷ ↺ ✎✐ ✎ ✐ ✎ ✐

✎✐ ✎ ✐ ✎ ✐ ↻ ◁ || ▷ ↺ ✎✐ ✎ ✐ ✎ ✐

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When i was in 5th grade i was in the musical footloose and i played Ariel moore (the female lead). In true children’s theater fashion the male lead was played by a girl named Zoe. So we started to like each other and shit and actually started dating during the show. But it still hadn’t hit me that i was gay. i was just like oh all girls do this… Then during one of our last rehearsals during like a ten minute break Zoe and i were being harassed by the other kids to kiss. We were annoyed so we ran away and hid in a storage closet back stage… ironic right. and then we kissed and just as we were starting to makeout my friend maria opened the closet door and screamed “THEY KISSED” the entire case of kids started screaming about it. my dad happened to be working on the set that day and heard the entire thing.

in short I made out with a girl in a closet and my entire family found out. That night i finally realized that i am incredibly gay.

her: 5’7, boxes, masc, is 2 years older

me: 5’2, doesn’t play a sport, fem,