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Journal Entry 381: “Be prepared to accept the blessing about to be bestowed upon you” - The Black man at the crossroads

“You’ve changed. I can’t say I like the new look” - The Black man at the crossroads.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQsdfS2nfAQ 

Honour Bound, Eigo Edition, Death Note the Musical.

People keep telling me that I have changed. I understand this. But I just can’t see it.

[ Aron 

Lumiar

Harun

ARIAH

Nobody

Aaron Burr

]

Not gona tell you what that list is for. It will make sense later I assure you. Today I had some stalkers who had cursed me before within my room. I instantly went manic, though I have been manic for several days, and unfortunately tumblr boy was there ugh. So much work. Anyways, I did what I usually do when stressed which I have yet to relent to you on part of embarrassment and other forms of whimsy within the confines of this journal. I danced. 

I’m not joshin you let me explain. I often do what I refer to as “shows!” where I dance and create illusions around me via the art of whimsy this time I used patrones my wand. I turned one of them into a dog because she consented and didn’t believe I could. I told her I could do anything with my wand. She was egotistical. I would unturn her but shant until she promises that she won’t curse me. I haven’t been as hex happy as of late do to an spoken agreement with Hekate who wishes for me not to be as of that nature.

I’m recording more porn later tonight. Just wish it wasn’t so arousing. Warning that it is the Warp My Mind Shit. I helped invent mind control you really think I can’t tell if it’s being used on me? /j

That was a joke for reference. I did not invent mind control. I am not that old. I am a normal dude.

Anyways.Anubis visited me the other night. Things are about to get a little more egyptian. I looked into the future via my spells and illusions and I saw everyone who dies by the game. Snow, Morgan, K-DJ, Crooks, Ha-jp, Eric, Mathew, a child, three cousins, and the uncle of someone. That’s all I can really see. The game is something we’ve not talked about. I don’t want you playing. It’s life or death it easily attracts parasites who abuse the concept, and introduce it to unwittingly people who get hurt. It’s life or death. As stated before you want to save the world because it’s the right thing to do, not because you get a reward for it. You live here, should you not fight, everyone will die, not just you.

Castiel told me that Genwa is getting some sort of published book later and that he’s only okay with that religion do to the nature of their eventually being a christian branch which is supposedly something (i believe this btw) that occeair the head of the pantheon consented too.

I’m stil not over my fight with Hermes. I miss him. I do love him but I’m content to keep my actions as they were. I never back track. Or atleast- I desperately try not too.

I plan on releasing my grimoure “How to Sell Your Soul and Other Nifty Things, A beginners Guide to Black Magick” eventually. It’s very very well written. But I disagree with how I teach the magick within those systems. You can literally enchant anything. Something I dispute at the beginning.

One issue that was raised with the metaphorical parasites to that tumblr blog I hate whom of which were in my cordors, is that that bitch still insisted she had a good grasp on the goetia because once again to quote before entries “my mentor has 5+ years!” bitch you don’t Im nearing 8, and I did divination the reason you and your stupid mods keep getting hurt is because you’re fuking doing it wrong! You can literally summon a demon with just it’s name. Use my methods as outlined in this journal and you will see fine results.

Notice though that despite how I prefaced and referenced them at the start of this journey, this journal was already several years into my occult practices, but still I framed myself as a novice which is something I attempt to do in the future. Maybe I’ll continue with framing my hogwarts defence against the dark arts class.

After all I saw that in my future and I also saw it leading to some great results! Since I don’t show my face online I’ll just hire adam -sigh- once again, to play the part with my script. God having a faceclaim is so much fucking work.

He does do me justice, his impression of “Aaron Burr” is near perfect. It’s exactly how I come across irl. I just wish he didn’t do it so….hectic? IDK.

Anyways, that’s all fo rnow. Goodnight! <3

Journal 355: Our Physician ||| The Rosie Lord

Are my astral temple spells working?

Ok be frank and write this word for word. Don’t censor anything but names. Yes. They are working too well. This whimsy magick system you have created and please do share this entry is extremely powerful to the degree that even imagining the wrong spell or the spells you conjure with it in general however powerful cause direct harm. You’ve mastered it. You need to write a grimoire or something beyond wattpad cus alot of people familiar with you [dead name] I told you not to omit anything?

I’m not publicly putting my dead name and you said I could censor names.

Like I was saying. I meant of other occultists. Anyways, the whimsy magick is an advanced system of hermetics similar to the golden dawns work. The difference between them bozos and yous is that you share your bloody fuking systems without a proper guide or manual on how to fuking conjur it properly. I’ve gotten several calls from several magicians asking me if it's legit and some I had to turn away saying it wasn’t for their own fuknig safety. Oh shut up. Grow up. Acrians isn’t putting words in my mouth. If he was he’d be a very talented writer. I’m too in character. Not even the bbc’s lucifer imaginnings have got me so right. I’m in character, it’s really me.

Who are you talking to?

Your readers. Go on respond I’ll wait.

Uh-

You are met with so much fuking skeptisim in the occult community. Oh wait oh wait. Let me guess. That’s what you wanted. That’s why you did that spell on your reputation? So people wouldn't know? You will one day go down as one of the most insane, and talented occultists of our generation. However there will be a falsified and I do mean FALSIFIED fall from grace where it appears you’ve gone mad. After all you work with fictional characters. Dead pool ring any bells?

I have a separate alias for that

Sure you do and I’m the son of satan

Are you joking?

Yes Also please don’t see me as a father figure. I know that was once our relationship but I have -he rubbed his hands together- other means for you now and I have to be sexy and free for them. If I’m your dad outside of a daddy kink that would be bad. And terrible. And make me feel terrible. Oh shut up I’m not as well spoken as you’ve come to believe.

Who are you talking to!

Sebastian

Please don’t address my audience by name, he checks this blog alot.

Wrong sebastian. Fang bro.

Who?

Relax. Relax Acrians. It’s time to get spooky.

I’m glad you have good spirits.

Well I sort of have to lord of the universe. Alot is about to come to light about you. But back to this bloody fuking hell raising whimsy magick.

Right.

It’s inherently of Satan. Plagiarized by god. You have reinvented the wheel with it. I ask you don’t share this whole conversation and omit what I tell you to from here.

Fair enough.

Right so. (omitted)

How will my gender spell manifest?

Oooh this is a good one. So let me get this straight. Hot dam you type fast. When you really wana.

Okay.

First your mother will forget you're not a boy. You’ll still have a girls body at first but keep in mind no matter how much you yell at you know who she’s trying her best. This is time shit. She’s literally working an actual fuking miracle for you stay watched. So first everyone you know with the exception of your brother Jrock will realize your male, then they’ll forget you were ever female, then your body will slowly and painfully, I’m sorry it has to be painful, begin to morph, until this reality begins to fade and their will be glitches, I’m talking “glitches in the matrix” about it, and then finally you’ll wake up, not believing you were ever trans like everyone else. Only this journal and the dante book and that stupid dreamers shit your friend is writing mr.snowflake, will remain to prove you are who you say you are and that you are trans. There will be some legal trouble because of it. But it’s working. It’s worth it. You have till the end of the month. There. Satisfied my league?

ACtually that provides me alot of insight thankyou.

Okay next up that tumblr boy. Since we’re doing word for word let’s just call him tumblr boy. Ooh I hate his guts. But him and you are about to become lovers. God I’m getting horny just thinking about it. He’s handsome and your type though be it a little older than you. I don’t believe you’ve been doing this all your life as you say, magick sure. Spirits sure, but Goetia? Nope. He’s a little later. I’m sorry did you want to say something Acrians? Oh great and powerful Acrians

Now your just teasing me. About the reality is saw where we were-

Oh kay that’s embarrassing. I don’t know why I was (omitted) or why you were involved. But that was an alternate reality shift yes?

Yes

Okay those things aren’t what people think they are. Less literal realities and more manifestation of alternate timelines. Alternate looks into other realms and possible futures. Not draco malfoy au good grief.

You saw my ticktock

I was with another magician who was watching it. She laughed. Thought you were stupid.

I intentionally do that.

Well stop it, as one of your biggest allies and supporters and you can put this in but I ask you don’t (omitted) I’d rather not be made a mockery with you. Aries strategy or no Aries strategy. SO we were just fucking? That was it?

Yeah.

And what did your god spouse or spouses have to say to this?

Alternate reality

Good grief. But like I was saying before you embarrassed me, like King Paimon I am not a whore, and you may not have to call him king but I do- you and this occultist will have a short lived fling. He’ll be in awe of you my great and powerful master.

Why do you keep-

Doing that? It’s amusing, and also I recognize you as the authority in this scenario regardless of however much respect is given. I change my mind it’s alot. I know you try to make it personal for me. I didn’t realize it was a respect thing. Acrians you have earned some brownie points today. But in the future since your still new to evoking or would like to pretend to be, a sacramental alter is where I prefer to do the talking, lover thankyou.

We’re not lovers

We were there! You can tell them I said that I’ll tell you more about tumblr boy after he binges your blog. God is he hot.

If I wish to become beautiful how should I go about it?

What the fuck? What the actual fuck. Acrians your at least a 7 or 8 out of ten what the hell. Though the hairstyle could use work. Should I ask?

An agreement with ah puch

Oh alright. Yes he does prefer to cut his vessels hair. The current hairstyle your wearing is african did you know that?

He just told me to shave the sides-

No no I know what you look like. But it’s hardly the punk rock shit you were going for. At least he’s satisfied.

Any general advice?

First the hot thing then I’ll go. You're beautiful as a little girl you were gorgeous. As a little boy when you were a teenager you were a solid 8-10, sure the weight makes you unappealing to SOME people but you have this all star quality about you most magicians wish for. So your face is not angular, your not “hot” by your definitions, I promise you you are by everyone elses. They aren’t just saying that cus they like you family and friends, you are genuinely fuking attractive and I wish you could stop with spite your self loathing and see that. Magick or no magick. Though maybe someone has cast an insecurity spell (omitted) I highly doubt this is new. Your beautiful so own it. Would look better without short hair though however “girly”

Well thankyou lucifer.

One last word fo advice and please don’t write this down.

For the entirety of the past few days I had been seeing dragons and dragon imagery everywhere and when I went outside on my deck with my dog I saw several dragons in my backyard astrally. I didn’t approach them.

Anyways.

I talked to Genesha before finishing this entry. He like all of my gods as of late, expressed frustration with me, and especial frustration via my gender spell. He told me something echoed before, that I will forget I was ever transgender, and he tested me saying “what if oyu become transphobic you will, even a terf almost, don’t you care?” and my response was a very extremely bitter “I want this so badly I trust myself to be good. I trust myself if that does happen to become good again. Don’t you?” and he was bitter, he told me before furthering our relationship, I must study hinduism. Further more, he asked me to revel in all the changes coming soon, the good and the bad in exchange for removing blocks from my path. Which is sorta what this guy does.

I also want to stress regarding my gender spell, I have ensured other measures to create this reality that I can’t dive into. The spell I performed was simply the catalyst in this coming to be. If you perform the spell I created it will simply set things up for you, for this reality to unfold, like all other magical work you still have to workor put in place the foreseeable wishes for the end game, don't expect miracles unless you've ensured it. Also I promised Aries coffee tomorrow, writing this down so I don’t forget. I’m getting my teeth fixed!

One thing I've noticed is the etymology of the Goeita. This isn't magick, also known as that tumblr blog I hate doesn't know jack shit about magick. Long term readers have heard my rants about it. They go about playing with fire the wrong way then get confused as to why they are fuking burned. "Oh my teacher has 5+ years of experience with this so I know what I'm talking about!!!!" Bitch you fuking don't. Also they preach that demons are inherently evil, and talk down to it. The blokes are fuking idiots. They claim that the etymology of demons is shaky. Which I internalized for a long time because I used to generally use them as a bloody recourse. They also look down on pop culture magick and reality shifting.

Here is some written out etymology:

Lucifer appears in the bible once, Izeah 14,12, it is an attempt at the translation Hel el, ben za arh, I am going to be spelling all of this wrong. In demonology Lucifer is not just one entity but also a title shared by many different demons (This is my personal knosis but it has a track record of being recorded from other occultists). Hel el ben za arh is a canaanite deity. This along with the other references will indicate eto you that demons are infact old gods, or old spirits and concepts persoonified that thisins’tmagick doesn’t fuking understand.

It’s important to note that modern demonology just like the concepts of left handed hell, is based upon folklore, modern mysticism, dantes inferno and other works, and while correct and in my opinion real (read this stupid blog), it is not apart of actual biblical scripture. I believe in Hell I have been there, however it is not canon to the bible, which itself is based upon what was most profitable for the church’s agenda around the time that the stories were being collected. There are a shit ton of scriputres and stories and gospels fake or otherwise that never properly got canonized into the bible, such as the dead sea scrolls, a few sacred and secret tora portions, as well as the gospel of jesus’s wife.

 The actual version of Hell was probably a location known as “Gahenna” which was just nothing more than a shithole, back then, that was used as an example lot for this bullshit.

."King James Only-ism: Is the KJV King?" Youtube, uploaded by Religion for Breakfast, 2021,

    www.youtube.com/watch?v=J52c9kb70oE&t=1146s. Accessed 18 Nov. 2021.

"The History of Hell." Youtube, uploaded by Religion For Breakfast, Google, 31 Oct. 2018,

    www.youtube.com/watch?v=s25-6Fq7PM8.

Of course through folklore and mysticism however you believe these things work hell became real. Or maybe it always was, also Lucifer also refers to the romman god of the dawn. It was probably done to rival saint lucifer since in that passage it has alot to do with satan, fallen angels and more.

Satan is often referenced in teh bible, to describe. Keyword DESCRIBE against the current. Think adversaries, forces against god exedera. Satan as we know him while a real entity is actually in the book of JOBE and is connected to the archangel SAMEAL who is referenced as an angel of death in modern christinaity and biblical lore though in my personal gnosis he is an aspect of lucifer for these reasons. “His job is to oppose god, his job is to tempt men. If life on earth is a test it wouldn't be much of a test, without no obstacles. Satan is an obstacle….and he literally cries when he succeeds at his job” - ticktockers crimsonbarell,

Belphegor is a slander of the name Bael Pior, which is god of the Morebites, who is in the bible aka SHAMASH. Bael is literally the goddess Bael of canonoites.

Lilith is adam’s first wife in scripture, but is demonized in that very scripture. Lilith has straight up admited to me that she’s closed but if your truly left handed you shoudn’t give a shit about that. Iwas raised jewsih I’m in the clear. Theirs also indications that she is a reimaging or a pervesion of a longer awaited deity, though I’m unsure which, and I don’t have all the details so take that with a grain of sand.

Abandon also known as Apollon, while the term of a pit is also really fuking metaphorical in the passage it appears via the bible, and Apollon is fuking apollo. The names are barley even changed.

Mammon comes from teh term wealth, which is why their are associated with greed.

Leviatien literally someone god fuking fought in the stupid ass bible. Daily reminder that I speak to god. It paralleles the canonoite story, of Bale hedan vs lotat. Again this is from memory and other sources so I only know the sound of the names I apologize once more for the spellings. He is the monster of Yam. Yam is a whole fuking can of worms, go look into taht yourself.  Theres also a tiemock and mardo connection there. This fight has been paralleled and paralleled every other mythology. In christianity it’s just where Leviathan comes in.

Bezlesbub is an aspect of Bael. However Belzebool is his god form. Anyways!

Amsodaues or Asmoday, Zorostirism! Asmodayva. WHo is conconicly a demon but of WRATH rather then lust though anyone who works with Asmoday will tell ya, he does both!

Alot of this info came from tick tocker clinsonbarret and his latest video on that. However it also comes knowledge of the bible which is my special fuking interest and general demonology. This doesn’t mean they aren’t demons or that they are evil, it just means when they evolved and chrisitanity got their hands on them this is the interpretation. God has literally offered pagan deities angelhood and that can just as easily be perverted and exchanged and twisted into the goetia. Which doesn’t have it’s ties to king solomon but is rather fuking old scripts that were hidden via their priests. It was fuking attributed to solomon so the people using this magick could legally fuking keep it. It’s the only reason it has survived!

That is just common knowledge via scholars since its too hard for me to track down an exact source, educate yourself.

So no, demons are fuking real and they are fuking from other sources outside the fuking bible. Okay? Okay. Thisisn’tmagick peaches alot of bullshit some of it is good, some of it is bad, but that shit? When it comes to demons? That’s what truly made me loose faith in that blog. Read this one! I know my shit! Total nincompoops. And I’m acrians locket saying that! I intentionally destroyed and continue to destroy my reputation for certain stradgeies! So when I say your full of shit? If even I can see it? Jeesus when Belzebub said my heroes aren't who they say, he wasn’t fuking kidding cus everyone I have ever looked up to magicaklly has turned out to be a con like e.a a rapist like asanath, a curseworden who signifies starseeds like vidian a hack like T or just plain misinformation like this isnt’ magick. Guess that’s a lesson I need to learn.

Oh and I’m writing a new grimoire. Acrians out.

Acrians Locket

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