A.E's Poetry and other rambles

I’m quite happy that you’re here! I just want to get this out of the way right now; I am not a published author! I have yet to complete a project, but I have started many of them.

This blog is, in essence; something that I’m trying to utilize at the very least to finish a project—esspecially if I cannot make it as a published author.

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I love to write poetry, short stories; and random dialogs between my original characters. I’m starting to get into solo RPGs, and I would love to make one of my own one day. 

I do not specialize in one structure of poetry, I try to write in them all. I do this because sometimes a Haiku just fits the vibe better than a sonnet—or, I freestyle it. 

My short stories are my main nemeses. I love starting them—I’ll plan them out and maybe write a scene or two; but then I find something new and shiny, and devote all of my time to the new thing until that becomes boring… I’m almost certain you get the picture.

As far as the dialogs go, those are what really get me into the short story writing mode. I can write an entire conversation, then figure out where it’s taking place, then figure out why it’s happening—I love that.

I also try to write informative things as well, mainly essays—but don’t worry, they’re usually about 4 paragraphs tops… but I might expand on them for the purpose of this blog… I’m not sure though.

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Well, for starters—I’m A! I use pretty much any pronouns, whatever you can think of is what I want to go by.

I’m also 21, soon to be 22! You’re going to have to guess if you want to know my birthday though.

I am a perpetual student, I love to learn and expand my mind; and I love to help those in need when I can. I do not have any spare money at the moment—because I am currently out of a job due to severe and worsening fibromyalgia and schizoaffective (depressive type) disorder. But, I am trying to find one so I can start making some kind of income again.

However! Just because I have no spare money does not mean I have no spare food. I will cook/bake for anyone who needs something warm in the stomach. That’s just how I was raised. 

So, to answer this section’s question; I am many things wrapped up into one being. I’m an adult with two disabilities, but I am a generous being, and I am a funny being (in a deadpan sort of way), I am a “go with the flow,” kind of being—and most importantly, I am happy with my being!

I also would love it if people would reblog this introduction post, and any of my following posts—I want to make an open community for writers, artists, students, creators, analyzers, everyone!! So, please; if you wouldn’t mind rebloging my posts, that’d be highly appreciated.

Also!!!! I have a few side blogs now!!

super sorry for the multiple posts in a very short timeframe but I'm currently at a coffee shop and this dude just sat down next to me and his cologne is so damn strong it's almost suffocating. If I die from lack of clear oxygen then just know I died happy because I got to read The Idiot.

I never in my life want to be put in this position again. this is the only spot with charging outlets; I don't want to move but my eyeballs are threatening to leak.

Simply because I was busy reading The Idiot. I really liked this book so now it's going to be everyone's problem.

Hehehehe! >:3

Also!! If like... anyone else has read The Idiot or anything similar; I'm writing an essay right now that'll compare some of the major themes from The Idiot to works of authors such as Dante, Shakespeare, and Jean Paul Sartre... If I stretch it I might be able to throw in Camus too... That'd be interesting!!

The server I'm about to advertise is one that I'm a trial mod for! But I do think that it's super neat-o and deserves a chance!!

Welcome to....

Loulbun

A nontox art centered server

This server is a system and lgbtqia+ friendly server made for those 18 or older to promote commissions or express their art freely!!

We even have the cutest mascot ever!!

This is Loul! You can refer to her with she/they pronouns; and they identify as female!! They are an African wild hare with one blind eye, and she is from South Sudan!!

The inspiration for Loul is as follows:

⊱ Loul's facial markings are based on the scars of the dinka tribe in south sudan. ⊱ Traditionally, boys get these scars to celebrate their transition into manhood. ⊱ As well, her outfit has punk rock influences.

---All credits go to the server owner for the description!!

Also!! If you have a spare server boost, and use it on this server; there are some perks that come with it!!

Your first boost grants you:

A custom emote, and a personal channel (called a studio)!!

Your second boost gives you:

TWO additional custom emotes, a custom autoresponder, and a custom announcement!!

So! Come on, join the server!! We might be quiet when you get there, but we've got a lot of personality!!

I can't wait to meet you!!!

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An original poem by a medical assistant.

Please be kinder to your MA’s, we’re typically doing more than what you think we do. And if you think the doctor you’re seeing is bad at their job—try working for them. I’m fucking done.

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Also! Before you come at me saying “why not change professions?” I’m actively trying to do that. It’s not as easy as it might seem—as you’ll read in the poem below I am grossly underpaid; and guess what? I have medical bills of my own (and my mother’s)!

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Sorry for the longer intro—my dumbass needed to vent.

I just feel like—if 7 people came up to me and were all like “hey, you’re super cool. Let me like… stay updated on your stuff.” My anxiety would spike—but in the same breath my excitement and need to create would SKY ROCKET.

So, thank you to all the 7 people who have followed me on this hellsite—I hope you all have a fantastic thanksgiving, Happy Native American Heritage Day, happy Hanukkah, Merry Christmas, Happy Kwanza, Happy Asarah B'Tevet—-HAPPY WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU CELEBRATE.

...In the event you wanted a visual of how I view myself!!

I used this picrew!

This image was created with Picrew’s “Scene/Emo Character Maker“!! https://picrew.me/share?cd=9sI9Gzqha5 #Picrew #SceneEmo_Character_Maker

"Forget ME not" is a flash fiction work I've written through the thoughts and emotions of a forgotten OC. This can be potentially triggering to some; as my description of the "waste land" is kind of gross. Total word count for this ended up at 348 words.

I'm quite proud of this, and I hope you can get some enjoyment out of this as well. The story will be below the cut.

Before going into this though, I think it's important to note that your characters only have the emotions and thoughts that you give them. This is coming from someone who was really spooked by the Toy Story movies as a kid.