cynic

I just don’t wanna start. Yeah idk either

I can’t seem to get out of bed

I stayed home this week, called in sick, faked illness. I really really don’t wanna go back to work. To THAT job.

Ive been searching for other jobs.. actually applied to few. I found smth and just because I know they’re gonna approve me right away.. I couldn’t apply

Im afraid. What if I’m dumb? I won’t get it all at once . I can’t live with that thought

Uhh the anxiety is worse than ever

What did our parents and their parents do? They sucked it up and worked hard, no complaints.

We’re a whole new and different generation, I guess we appreciate life more? Wanna actually live it and Not just gain money . We spend most of our lifetime at work. Shouldn’t it be atleast a bit fun? Is it hypocrisy wanting a job that doesn’t actually drain you on every Monday morning ? Or Sunday evening, knowing you have to go to work the next morning?..

Which one is it?

WTF do I wanna do?