okay now that i’ve calmed down what am i going to buy myself as a treat for enduring this suffering

ah november. the thursday of months,

every day i wake up and drink my silly little coffee while God eats my heart like a pomegranate in front of me

i wonder where i’ll be this time next year

there’s a misconception that grief only happens when we lose people. this is not true. we can grieve circumstances, relationships, missed opportunities. in fact, sometimes when you find yourself plagued with waves of emotion from sadness to melancholy you may be grieving yourself. the version of yourself that you might have been if things had been different, or if only you had said something, or if someone had stood up for you.