☁ あおぞら ☁

everything feels empty and i just want it all to end

Oh what an unlovable thing I've become.

people have said good things about you behind your back, without your knowledge. people have shared their love for you with others.

note to self: don’t hate yourself over things out of your control. really just don’t hate yourself in general. you are not what your dark thoughts insist you are.

i know this can be hard to hear, but sometimes you are the only one holding you back. the world is not against you. there isn’t going to be a right time to do the things you want to do. sometimes you just have to go for it.

we are not broken people. we are bent and distorted. to adapt to our hostile environments we conformed and shaped ourselves around everything in life as trees do when they grow around obstacles. as we grow we’ll return to a more comfortable shape, no longer growing only to suit our surroundings.

*thirty

born to be chill, forced to be overthinking and anxious and overwhelmed and restless

stop trying to be palatable, stop trying to be palatable, stop

i give u full permission to be weird. i am signing your permission slip

bad news! i have no idea what im doing. good news! i will continue nonetheless.