I keep thinking about this quote this week. I posted it on twitter a few days before the final saying I'd got the fear up me. Last night at 2am I remembered it and it hit me like a train, had me sobbing my eyes out. I've only been into football a few years so I missed the UCL final, all the other lost finals, the decades as the butt of every joke, you feel the collective weight of those years on you but my first spurs tragedy was Kane. Our best player who'd been here his whole life deciding we weren't good enough so he was gonna fuck off to a better club when we really needed him. And the love was just not enough. Everyone loved him so much they were bursting at the seams with it, millions of people, all desperate for him to stay, begging him, we painted a mural of his face by the stadium with his children's handprints on it, it was a beam of love and wanting so concentrated it could have burnt a hole in his shirt, and it all meant fuck all because he left anyway. "The power of this weapon turns out to be that of a custard pie dropped from a stepladder six feet high." Took the lesson from that that wanting something very badly doesn't make too much of a difference if the universe decides you're not getting it. European cup final somehow comes along, we're dogshit, half our players are injured, been horrific all season, laughing stock of the country, I was terrified that love wasn't going to be enough again. But we have one shot, we win it and we win it because we want it more, because our players are dead on their feet still trying so hard, because they want to win it for Son, for Ange, for the club, for the fans. Sonny gets his trophy. Ange told us himself at the trophy parade, "they did it all for you because you deserve it." You remember doctor who? The empty child? Just this once, everybody lives. You understand when you watch it that it's special because this is not standard doctor who rules. Things don't get magically undone, people don't come back from the dead. But just this once things are different. We get a happy ending. Just this once love is enough! Just this once you get everything you want.
