24/7AvPD

i hate when personality tests ask questions like “how would other people describe you” listen bix i already agonize over this at every moment of my waking life and i dont need u bringing it up in this my area of escapism

“I Constantly Think I’m Breaking A Social Rule I Wasn’t Made Aware Of” a novel by me.

it’s hard for me to make friends irl and it’s even harder for me to make friends online so i guess i’ll just die

anyone else feel like their trauma isn’t bad enough n they’re probably just overreacting to normal childhood experiences? same

I always feel it's not bad enough.

when i watch other people my age, i see that they have this kind of effortless way about them that i don’t think i’ll ever have. the way they talk to each other and the way they go out and pursue what interests them without having to think twice about it. the way they know how to conduct themselves, the way it all comes so naturally to them, like breathing or swimming or riding a bike. it’s like they all have something ingrained in them that i just don’t have, and it’s so embarrassing and it’s fucking killing me. i wish i knew how to be okay.

the moment i feel ignored or unimportant is the moment i emotionally check out

It happens quickly too.

The worst feeling is when you find out you didn’t mean as much to someone as you thought you did and you look so stupid for caring too much