So, update on the GP: she doesn't believe me because I don't 'dress masculine enough' even though I was literally wearing my binder, men's pants, men's shirt, men's shoes and a men's hoodie? She also said I wear too much jewellery (two rings - one black one silver - a necklace and earrings) and that I would 'make more of an effort' if I truly wanted to be seen as male. Then when I told her I wasn't out to my mum and that's why I was still wearing jewellery (even though jewellery doesn't have a gender??) and she said that was no excuse? I mean, sure it's not like coming out to my mum could get me kicked out or anything NOOO not at ALLLLL. So that didn't go well. I cried. Talking about how shitty dysphoria makes me feel is always A+ insta-cry. She told me to talk to my psychiatrist because my schizophrenia complicates things, which I expected but I have also been feeling this way for way longer than I've had schizophrenia. Then because I was so sad afterwards my mum noticed and I wound up telling her all about it. Surprisingly she still is okay with me, though she has specified that she would only ever see me as androgynous rather than male but I'll take it for now. My mum also said she would help me set up getting a breast reduction. So there are some positives. Will update after my psychiatrist appointment.
