💠hello and welcome! don't really have a preferred name or alias so i'll leave that up to you (singular) to decide (temporary?).
🔁❤️i'll probably not post here a lot. will reblog and like stuff though! separate blogs for different fandoms is too tedious. this blog will just have to be a collage of posts.
⚠️my taste in fiction and fandom content ≠ my opinions on irl stuff. i don't condone problematic/harmful behaviors/actions that i like exploring in fiction irl. sad that i have to clarify that but so be it.
🔞likely to eventually feature mature/nsfw content on this blog so i'm a bit uncomfortable with minors interacting with it beyond polite/casual conversation.
💾list of my current fandoms (to avoid potential spoilers, though i'll try tagging properly!) in no particular order:
Novels (web/light or otherwise)
Mo Xiang Tong Xu (mxtx)
◇ Scum Villain's Self-Saving System (svsss)
◇ Mo Dao Zu Shi (mdzs)
◇ Tian Guan Ci Fu (tgcf)
Omniscient Reader's Viewpoint (orv)
Games
Kingdom Hearts (kh)
Kirby
Persona
Omori
Sonic the Hedgehog (StH)
The World Ends With You (twewy)
Mario
Ib
Devil May Cry (dmc)
Hades (hades supergiant)
Manga & Anime
D.Grayman (dgm)
Mob Psycho 100 (mp100)
Trigun + Trigun Maximum (trigun, trimax, tristamp)
Hetalia (aph/hws, hetalia)
Revolutionary Girl Utena (rgu)
Cartoons & Comics
Gravity Falls (mostly tau stuff though)
DC (mainly nightwing related stuff)
Live Action
Hatchetfield universe
there maybe a few missing...i'm sure i'll add to the list later when i feel like it.
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Semi-active on Tumblr these days, but this seriously brought me back to type up a frenzy since I don't think this was on anyone's 2025 bingo card...but after 15 years since the discontinuation of HetaOni, we actually got words from Kyokoon64, who said that on 2014, she spoke to the creator of HetaOni, Tomoyoshi, on what was planned for HetaOni Part 17-20, along with the rough plan of the "ending" for the series. The video is here on Twitch and the talk starts from 2:30:00 onwards.
Disclaimer: This is a rough summary of what I heard from the video. I'm going to listen to the talk about it one more time and polish the summary up when i have the chance.
Also, it seems Tomoyoshi was fine with whatever ending the fans made up and whether you accept her rough idea of her ending or not. All endings of HetaOni are valid.
Well then...shall we?
Just a heads up, Tomoyoshi just planned things as it came along, not really having an outline of what she planned, so...
What was supposed to happen after Part 17-1?
Italy is actually in a perfect dream with HRE, but Italy doesn't want to be part of a dream where everything is alright when everyone in the real world is suffering, so he wants to leave.
Russia and China are in the annexe, where China feels a draft in the wall (which leads to the deeper rundown part of the mansion from the original Ao Oni games) and he also hears Russia talking to someone on the phone. Still don't know what's up with that (revealed in ending plan).
When two head back to the safe room, China is extra quiet upon his return, just when Italy wakes up after rejecting the dream and tells everyone around him what happened
Meanwhile, in timeline 2, Romano calls Spain a dumbass for telling England everything, but things happen where that timeline's England runs into our!Italy, our!Germany and our!America in the piano room and the whole putting a shield on them and sending them back to their timeline happens, but he also sends Spamano back to their timeline too and also gives them some things to hold onto when they leave.
Something like a magically sealed item that holds most, if not all, of England's magic, but it would still be difficult to just regain all his magic and cure his blindness so easily.
And also there's a bloody envelope given to Romano a bloody envelope but don't open it yet (need to double check)
Turns out both America and Canada can do magic since they were once under England, and together with Japan, who can perform seals and use talismans, help to break the seal on the item with England's magic inside
Seal is broken and England regains a bit of his eyesight, but America celebrates anyway
Meeting happens and the nations talk about finding the key to do front door to escape. Romano is quiet
Romano talks to Italy and dramatic things happen because of the envelope
Romano read the stuff in the envelope it seems, and it's a letter from an England who also got blinded, but still able to see a tiny bit to write this out (double check). Emotional message to America, and the letter ends with England admitting that America was his hero and he's glad to have raised him.
Oh and uuuuuuuuuh...the envelope also has the key to go out, but they can't leave yet (like they have to break the clocks…and more insidious to uncover).
That's what I got from the talk. I'll try and polish this up! But the "ending" for series is clear, and this is what Tomo really wanted to happen...
So what's the ending?
First of all, it turns out Tomoyoshi made RomaHeta as well? Don't know if anyone remembers it, but basically another HetaGame where everyone's sucked into a game made by Japan but a virus trapped the nations inside it. It was popular because of Italy and Romano became badass priests for the boss fight.
Now brace yourselves, my dears. Because it turns out...
This timeline was meant to fail! ✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧
Also, it turned out Spain and Romano came to the mansion in previous timelines too, but hey this is the furthest they got (don't ask how Italy and Romano don't remember).
But the biggest plot twist of all is this!
HetaOni is actually a sequel to RomaHeta!
Everyone in HetaOni is just still trapped in the game and the previous timelines are just save files!
Also the Things are just amalgamations of various viruses, while HRE is an antivirus that is trying to save Italy (you know that explains why he just appeared in RomaHeta for that one second when Italy went berserk with magic...)
And Prussia getting the intrusive thoughts of CONGRATULATIONS in the game was because he's literally hearing the victory music cheer thing you get after you defeat a boss in an RPG.
Also, fun fact but not very clear? Not all of the nations are inside the game. The ones that are in the game in their place are actually AIs who are just repeating the original nation's speech patterns and actions based on the previous save files (not sure what Kyo meant by sometimes or other times it's the nations or AIs).
The phone calls Russia kept getting are actually from the mods.
Now the planned ending is that the nations got to the root of the program and after finding it, but they could get out. However, Italy realised something (?), and in the end just sets everyone free, but he got the Aqua from KH: BBS treatment and had his soul lost in the void while everyone else returned to the real world.
Thus this is the ending that was meant to make way for Part 3 of the series of the fangames. First RomaHeta, then HetaOni, then...whatever supposed to happen afterwards.
The end
And that's that! Just a reminder tho that Kyo said Tomoyoshi doesn't mind if no one accepts the ending. I just thought to share it by typing out the summary and ending from the stream. Heck, Tomoyoshi thinks no one will believe Kyo anyway. All endings everyone else made is just as valid, and sharing this is for those who cherished HetaOni from a long time ago and can now rest from learning what was meant to happen.
I just read a history buff (non-hetalian btw) compare the relationship between the UK and the US to Robin and Batman (specifically Frank Miller's version, for some reason).
Probably a coincidence, but it made me wonder, could it be that Hima didn't choose their costumes just for the sake of it?
Because of the very nature of the anime I always assume that Hima doesn't overthink what he writes, but perhaps, and only perhaps, sometimes there is a reason why certain things are represented as such.
I like how it's basically canon that England and America's worlds revolve around themselves and each other.
According to France, England is essentially useless when it comes to matters not pertaining to himself or America. That one wiki sentence pretty much sums it up for England, so I'm going to focus more on America.
For America, it's shown that he constantly involves England in everything.
-Getting him to dress as Robin for being "his first Twitter follower" was said to be an excuse and that if England wasn't his first Twitter follower then America would've come up with some other reason.
-His Halloween tradition is to have a competition with England.
-At the end of every year he prank calls someone and makes a list that he carefully goes through to pick the target. It's always England.
-His weird "sexy Rio Carnivale outfit" plan to distract the Axis involved none other than England.
-On Valentine's Day, who does America throw a big tantrum over not giving him chocolate? England.
-He specifically asks what England will do for him in return in his character song I'm Your Hero.
-America gets England to put on cat ears with him.
-England is one of America's only friends, as said in two of his bios.
-America has a hard time throwing away anything from England.
-America dresses up as a Starbucks cup and...asks England if he wants a drink.
If it’s hard to tell, America is saying, “All right, then…the first order of business is to determine the weakness of the Axis Powers. U.K., I want you to put on a sexy Rio Carnivale outfit and sway your hips provocatively at them. Are you up to it?”
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Rem Saverem, Mom Jeans, and the Ticket to the Future
aka gushing about Rem, clothing, and settings.
I was reading through some of @chuthulhu-watches analysis on Rem and it got me thinking about one of my own favorite Rem scenes and quotes and how it feels very different from the manga to the anime adaptations (granted I'm still four episodes from being done with '98 so there's a slim chance they'll include it? But I doubt it.
One of Rem's most famous lines and philosophies that she gives to her boys, specifically one we see Vash mention a few times in his journey is the concept of the ticket to the future. This is used as a way to accept previous events and progress forward despite mistakes or pain. I believe Vash uses this philosophy to help others understand how he can still have faith in people who have done bad things - as he sees it the tracks that someone has walked are always behind them, and do not dictate the future.
In both anime adaptations they show Rem telling the twins this analogy, in '98 I believe just as they're hanging out, and in Stampede she mentions it to them before she lets them leave in the escape pod (again if my memory is correct). However, I feel both of these negate the very touching and to me impactful way that the manga tells this story.
One thing that is very relevant in the manga but is not present in either adaptations is the slow realization of the world, and the comfort of the Ship Five. The world of Nomansland is strange to the viewer - just left of comfortable. We understand it as a facsimile of the wild west, but people wear clothes that don't quite fit any time period, and the technology is all over the place. When we realize that this is actually an alien planet, it makes sense to the viewer as their strange feelings are proven to have been valid. People wear strange layers and a million belts.
(this is all relevant I prommy)
And then in one of the first few chapters we see Vash and Rem together for the first time.
This is the first person I can recall seeing wearing something so simple. A t-shirt and jeans. And in this scene Vash is wearing a similar simple outfit. It instantly makes Rem stand out as if apart from the world, simplier and to the audience familiar. I could never imagine red coated Vash walking down the street, but something about this woman feels like she is real in a way. And here we see her mention her ticket to the future. (I could gush about this scene but I'll push on).
Anyways, I think that in Trigun clothing and setting and how the viewer relates to them is very important. We only see Vash in casual clothing when he is somewhere that he feels comfortable, when he is somewhere he considers home. One instance is when he is masquerading as Eriks, and one is when he is at Ship Five - the only two places he really seems to consider as his home at any points during the manga.
I really dislike the anime's decision to make the members of Ship Five have strange, futurist clothing. This makes the occupants of Ship Five feel strange and foreign to the viewer, separate from not only the world but from ourselves. I felt like Vash's time spend in this area is notable in the story and stands out because he is dressed so normally around others who are also dressed so casual. It tells you just how comfortable he is here, and again as a viewer it makes these people and Vash in this instance relatable and in many ways real. He stops being Vash the Stampede and we are able to see him as a person.
Okay okay - as promised let me talk about the Ticket to the Future. (several of these photos are taken from @lonelysnowymemes' edit of this scene - please go check it out if you haven't watched it!)
This scene is a shock to the system. We don't know how long ago humans left earth, or how old Rem was when she left, and for the most part as the reader you have become accustomed to the setting. So at least when I was reading this, to suddenly see Rem on a train felt so... mundane. She isn't wearing special space clothes, she isn't even in her t-shirt and jeans from her time on the ship. She is wearing what perhaps I might wear if I was going somewhere special. This scene is so important because we know so little about Rem, and when we do hear about her especially in the anime adaptations she seems to be almost like a Virgin Mary figure, somewhere high up next to god, untouchable. And this mundane scene shakes that picture of her.
It is a slow and quiet scene in a hectic manga. And then, the scene comes to an end.
Rem wakes up in a room, alone. I always assumed this was on earth, before she became a higher ranking member of the SEEDS project. And you realize that Rem had this dream, this revelation, in the midst of a deep depression. While this analogy is applied often to the inherent goodness that people can accomplish in the future, here the ticket is a way to push forward. I get the sense that this was the start of a long journey. A little dream did not magically fix her world, or her pain. She still wakes up in a messy room, in the dark, and alone. But you can almost still feel the lingering lightness that she felt in the dream. Again I want to push the setting of this scene. A messy bedroom that could feel familiar to the viewer - as someone with bad priorities and depression, this is a familiar sight to me.
And finally, just to top it off. Why does this line convince Vash that people, despite their actions yesterday, can go on to be good tomorrow?
Because that is what Rem tells him. Vash struggles after hurting Rem, and this discussion of both the depression he feels from seeing Tessla and the guilt of hurting Rem as a darkness that he finds himself swallowed by, she uses the same analogy that pushed her out of her own depression to tell him to continue forward. Vash tells himself this, takes to heart this analogy of the ticket, not to ignore the bad things that he has done but to rather help himself to continue onwards.
Sorry if this is super scatterbrained I've just been thinking about these things a lot the past week or so.
anyways have you ever noticed that Rems' name is Rem Save Rem
Did some research on x-ray forensics for a graduate applied x-ray course, because I have exactly one (1) personality trait, and let me tell you:
Holy shit. Whenever Bruce or Dick or Tim or whoever yapped about their investigation findings, I always used to think it was kind of ex machina bullshit. It still is a little. But the specificity and detail of modern technology is INSANE.
You can detect as little as like half a microgram per cm^3 of gunshot residue from simple x-ray fluorescence techniques, down to differentiating between leaded and unleaded bullets.
There’s an entire database of diffractograms for different textiles based on the width of their Bragg angles. It was made by the FBI and stupidly easy to use if you have the tech.
You can differentiate the species of bioapatite cremains based on the fucking lattice constant it makes when it melts. You can tell a bird from a reptile from grandpa in your urn. You can even tell the type of bone, like a tibia from a femur, and you can glean information even from highly diluted substances.
Idk it’s very neat 10/10. Wish some Detective Comics issue would have Bruce pull out one of those portable XRF machines.
I also kinda wonder what Metamorpho would look like under one of those, because it’s dependent on excitation of inner shell electrons for different elements. Bro can shift his matter. He could absolutely become a disco ball.
Each of these clusters represents the identification of a species via solely cremains. I know these clusters don't seem perfect, but actual science rarely is. They're lowkey beautiful. Combined with auxilary information, this shit is wild.
And the fact that there are discernable differences in Bragg peak in just a 2% difference in citric acid concentration? For the same fabric???? Lord.
Like this was just fluorescence from a hand that *fired* a weapon versus one that didn't. Not even the victim. Not even something directly exposed to the bullet. The hand of the *shooter*.
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ok so, I approached my local library with a proposal to donate a mural as a way to A: build portfolio/gain practical experience and B: give back to a beloved public institution. The director was very enthusiastic about it and i've been working on it since the beginning of March. Come with me as I endeavor to paint what is in all honesty an excessive amount of birds
I wanted the birds to look like they were actually in the space so first thing after doing the draft was to do a lighting study
after that I covered the walls in letters in lieu of a projector/vr headset bc i have neither of those :) Then i take a picture of the section of wall and superimpose the lineart over top of it so I can pencil in the lines
et voila
and that was a whole week on it's own so next comes the paintin' >:)
my chains are broken i am FREE. although i did have a great deal of fun with this, the barring on the wings itself took me like four days and i am READY to move on
this was a week and a half of continuous work so please excuse me for getting a little emotional in the bg 🙏
BIRD NUMBER 10!!! The Male Mallard Duck, Anas platyrhynchos
the male and female ones are gonna be posted separately bc they're taking a lot longer lol but yea! super happy i was able to capture the iridescent green of the head, i found metallic green and blue paint at a craft store that really made his head POP. it looks better in person i promise
ALSO!! As this is the 10th one, BIG announcement. The end is in sight!!!!! I plan to finish within the next 3 weeks and there will be a small dedication ceremony/ unveiling happening at the library to commemorate its completion on the 16th of May. If you live in the Western New York region and want to check it out for yourself shoot me a dm!
Also thank you everyone for your kind words and support throughout this whole process, it's been a genuine treat thinking there are potentially thousands of you out there cheering me on while I paint this 🥹
we're movin right along with bird numero 11!! The lady Mallard!! Anas platyrhyncos
the 16th is looming in the distance so i'm trying to get thru these as quickly as i can so i can have as much time for the GBH as possible. i still need to do the names next to all of them so i've got about a week and a half to finish everything which is GREAT because i have adhd and nothing gets my ass in gear like a fuckin deadline, let me tell you
power couple that they are, here's bird number 12 and 13,
the Northern Cardinals, Cardinalis cardinalis
and NOW that they are complete, ITS GO TIME, in the next five days (library's closed for mother's day 😭😭) i need to have the GBH fully rendered, the names of the birds vectored, weeded, masked, applied to the wall, and then painted, plus additional cattails throughout. I may be able to get away with just getting the GBH done in time for the unveiling and then just have the names and cattails added later, but i'm gonna really try to get it all done in time. BUT, i have a plan. Part of why i take so long on these is because i really am just figuring it out as I do it lmao. there have been many a time where i am sitting on top of the ladder googling "how to paint birds" but I think if i take the time tomorro to do all that figuring out how to approach it beforehand, this will go a lot faster. I may also recruit some of my artist friends to help with the placing of the names... hrmm we'll see.
Anyways, shout out to the librarian who tracked down exactly the thing i needed so i could figure out where to place the highlights in my birds eyes, ur the real mvp
thank you to everyone who reached out or got excited about this project, it genuinely gave me the fuel i needed to keep going. In total, the 480+ total hrs it took me to cover this wall pales in comparison to how long its expected to spend on there, hopefully imparting a sense of beauty and love for the natural world to the next generation and here's hoping i'm only getting started with these.
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