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what drives me so up a wall is the total hypocrisy like it's apparently okay to think violence is hot when the violence is almost offensively removed from any real idea of violence… like why is my actual engagement with the multifaceted nature of rape so egregious when the ppl who post like that do want that taboo extension of sexuality but they can only go abt it in such a marvel movie way. bloodless, sexless, pneumatic sex machines of pointless thoughts created with barbie doll parts. maybe i'm being too critical. but i find it annoying bc i actually find this stuff hot and i think a lot of these ppl fall into two camps, both of which bother me. a) they find this stuff hot but have to remove themselves from it bc they think it's actually more ethical to act like sexualized violence is nothing, is air. b) they don't find it hot at all and find a real sexualizer of the perverse, perverse. LIKE ACTUALLY i think my mind is a beautiful free expanse that i can wind any which way and if i choose to think abt sex in a way these ppl hate, i can do that. and they can choose to think abt sex in a way i hate. but why are they acting like their sexualized violence is so much better than mine bc it's bloodless. fuck everything… anyway

and i am not trying to play some kind of ethics olympics with fetishes here, i don't think that is a game anyone should play lmao. but i do feel that this is crazymaking when the implicit message is that i am evil not for engaging with sexualization of rape, but for engaging with it SERIOUSLY.

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