Inviolable Spirit

THAT’S ANOTHER THING THAT’S BUGGING ME RIGHT NOW.... When people insult overweight people and justify it as “constructive hate”. Don’t get me wrong, telling it how it is and pointing out actually helpful, if obvious, habits and the like that are truly unhealthy is great and is most definitely constructive. But on the other hand, personally insulting them and/or doing this repeatedly is NOT OKAY, that’s bullying and is insanely hurtful. WE HEARD YOU THE FIRST TIME, we get it! We’re disgusting. We’re worse than everything else in the history of the universe. We’re a plague on your existence. etc. etc.. But chances are we DID hear you and we’re MAKING A CHANGE. You CANNOT preach that the problem won’t be fixed overnight and then berate us because tomorrow we’re not a supermodel.

So please, if you

actually

care about people making a positive change to their lifestyle, use this tactic with caution. Because for every one person that decides to change their life around because you called them the scum of the earth, there’s another that was already on that journey and had nobody tell them that they were doing a good job.

This is NOT a black and white issue and you certainly cannot tell by looking at someone what their lifestyle is. (I’m looking at the troll that says “What about the fat guy at Macca’s hoeing into a Big Mac?”, to you sir, I say “Go fuck yourself, a Big Mac is actually lower in calories than most of the subs you get from Subway. Maybe he used to buy 5 of them and is still doing AWESOME for only getting one, or maybe he’s reached a goal and this is his reward. And more importantly, if McDonald’s is so darn bad for you and the reason that every fat person everywhere is overweight, why were you there in the first place? Surely not to eat that ‘food’.”)

Some people would do well to remember that positive feedback and praise is almost always a better motivator, because 90% of overweight people trying to lose the weight are their own biggest critics and that’s saying something considering the tonnage of shit we get every single step outside our houses. (Call it how you see it though, over-exaggeration or sarcasm will put you back to square zero.)

I was naughty and jumped on the scales for the hell of it just before and was pleasantly surprised (again). Officially the lightest I have been in more than 12 months and UNDER 120!! I know tomorrow or whenever I jump on them next it’ll probably be a bit higher, but I take this to mean that I AM making progress, which in all honesty is very comforting and overdue.

I am really excited to go to the gym tomorrow (or Monday, but point is soon). And I’m actually pretty excited about life (at this very moment). 

Honestly I don’t know whether these past 45 days have gone really quick or really slow.. A bit of both I guess.

I also don’t know how I feel about any “progress” I have made; probably because in the grand scheme of things I have a LOT to actually shift so that makes awesome little progress much dimmer and can even be a little discouraging.

I am I have not bought a new scale (or even new batteries or anything), so my broken scale probably doesn’t help, but I will still take the /random/ number it spits at me and leave it at that.

Today that numeral is: 121.3 kg   ......   [-7.6 kg in 45 days] Which is pretty amazing and awesome, even if it’s still painfully high. All I can think when I see the number pop up on the readout is “Oh. I remember the last time I weighed this.” Which brings both good and awful memories.

Basic Stats Progress: Start Weight: 128.9 kg Current Weight: 121.3 kg Goal Weight: 115 kg Status: On-Track

On August 12th I set a 90 day weight goal of 115kg. (Deadline of November 10th)

Today I reached my first weight milestone: 125kg It probably doesn’t sound like much, but its progress.

So, this happened. I actually created a Tumblr account, which was scary and intimidating for reasons which aren’t quite rational…

But anyway, lets get a few things straight.  (1)  This blog is for ME, it is my own personal record which I have allowed people to access if they so choose. I’m not expecting anybody to even see the posts I make, and I am not making them for to gain attention, sympathy or praise.  (2)  The major theme of this blog is as I mentioned before, is my personal life and goals which include bettering myself as a person, my health (weight loss, diet, exercise, attitude etc.).  (3)  Things I expect to be posting:  -  Journal-style personal notes  -  Personal progress notes, pictures etc.  -  My motivation and motivators   -  Anything else I feel like at the time