also to be fucking clear about something: me posting about loving trans men, transmasculinity, dykes and butches ultimately has nothing to do with my sexual/romantic attraction or lack thereof.
i am writing about queering masculinity, about the beauty of transmasculine self love, about the wide and wondrous cosmos that is masculinity when absolved of societal hostility and hegemony because i think they deserve to be written about and i find them breathtaking and i find that they give me breath when society has me feeling like i'm suffocating.
i love and cherish transmasculinity, transmasc people, trans men, butches, queer masculinity and all thats in between not because it gets my rocks off but because i find it so profoundly awe-inspiring and i want others to be able to let go off their internalized self hatred, anxiety and fear so that they can see themselves that way.
i grew up with so much self hatred for my baby-butch-supposed-to-be-a-man self and i have found a whole world inside of my exploration of liberated masculinity and i need others to see that too.
so no: i'm not writing about this because i'm attracted to trans men and transmasculine people, i write about it because i needed to read that shit when i was still so full of self hatred, my carnal desires towards specific transmasc individuals i can put aside for a moment; but my love for all we are and all that we can be i cannot.
