# ZALDARIAS is an independent , private , semi selective && mutuals only rp writing blog for rhaenyra targaryen from the FIRE AND BLOOD book series as well as the hbo tv adaptation HOUSE OF THE DRAGON . portrayal will be based on both canons , book && show , with minimal divergences && headcanons made from the source material . crowned by rai . this blog will be running on high to medium activity .
NOTE : this blog is dead dove && will include mature && triggering themes / content such as violence , mentions of death , inc*st , murder , etc . while i do not condone any of these , in any way , it will still be mentioned for plot reasons && tagged accordingly , example : violence cw , violence // . due to this , i will not follow anyone under the age of 21 . regarding the nature of d.aemyra , it will not be shipped in a romantic way . it will be , however , written && explored solely as a dynamic && acknowledged as a canon married couple . ( please , read carrd for additional / important rules && graphic credits . )
A STUDY IN : ambition , the pursuit of power , the burden of expectations , the realm's delight , dragons as power symbols , the role of prophecy , ascension to godhood , legacy , female sovereignty , dynastic conflict , heavy is the crown .
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you know what they say about landon mcqueen : HES GOT THE LUCKY SEVEN ON HIS SIDE ! … an original character based in a ( quite fictionalised ) world of formula one . created & loved dearly by cas ! ˚ʚ♡ɞ˚
reminder, in case nobody has told you lately: you are valued in the rpc. thank you for being here. every single one of you is sharing a little part of your creativity with us all, putting a little part of yourself into a character you love, and sharing your talent with us.
even if you feel like you aren’t getting as many interactions as you want to, or you’re disappointed that nobody is telling you that you’re doing a good job, i am proud of you. you are sharing your writing with the world, you are pouring life into a character you love and/or have created, and i think that’s amazing.
i said this in DMs already but you are THE rhaenyra to me . you capture her and her essence so beautifully . the way we plot and write , i love reading your metas which youve worked your ASS off for . i admire your passion ( for fashion ) so much and i am so , so happy and honoured youre writing with me , and that we've become such good friends in such a short time <3
for one , stop it , i don't do well with being called that !! ( though i know your intention && i appreciate you a lot . ) i want to thank you for listening to me && all the support you give me , as well as the incredibly kind words , honesty && this wonderful friendship we were able to build in a short amount of time . i'm a very big admirer of yours , too . you put so much thought , love && dedication into your muse that every time we talk about him , i find myself enjoying it even more ( angst aside , but we both love that so it's a win-win situation ) . just know , even if i already said this , i absolutely love it when i see your writing on my dash , it doesn't matter which blog it is but you're honestly a joy to be around ! thank you so much for sending this in , it truly means a lot to me . 🤍
this is probably kinda abrupt but i’ve been reading through your blog over the past few days, and i just wanted to say i absolutely love your takes and your writing. i really hope you don’t feel discouraged by the hate (though i don’t blame you if you do). there are people out here who genuinely appreciate what you put out, even if they’re not as loud as about it as the haters!
i want to say thank you for sending this in because i really did need it , it's almost like you have some kind of spider sense ... but thank you , truly , for sending this in and for the positivity ! truthfully , no one will be able to run me out of my own blog , but the amount of support , love && kind words i've received makes my heart warm nonetheless . also here's me sneaking this in a very slick way : expect me in your inbox / ims very soon because i already love your blog && muse . once again , thank you so much for your very kind words && i hope you take care of yourself , i wish you a fabulous weekend && upcoming week !
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as everyone knows, i'm not one to respond to any kind of anon hate and i refuse to turn it off because no person will try to scare me off my own blog. however, i've had enough with the amount of transphobic anons i have been receiving for who knows how long, along with insults towards not only my persona but also my writing and portrayal ( we won't talk about the anons i've gotten trying to make me paranoid about my own friends along with threats, but anyway ). i'm the type to delete and move on, yet this has truly ground my gears.
i will not be showing the first anon because it was an absolute coke rant in my opinion, not only that but also nothingburger. the points that were made are incredibly bizarre to the point of accusing me of claiming rhaenyra wants to be a man. nowhere in my blog have i said this and i have even written an entire meta that has taken me a full eight months to finish because of how carefully i have crafted it. this is unnecessary, but proof below.
besides this, accusing me of projecting onto a muse is truly a reach. i write all kinds of muses and i have never blurred the lines between me and them, so please, never say this to me again because it is incredibly odd to tell a person. coming to me, a person who writes from both canons, regarding the book is just… have you ignored the part on my pinned post and carrd where i mention i work with book and show? not only that, there is so little to take from the book to be able to say it is 100% true when it keeps reminding you to take every claim with a grain of salt, is honestly crazy. i enjoy the book, it's my favorite one and i have read it a total of four times and no, you don't need to give me a lesson on it because i am very much aware of what it says, i take it from my shelf and re-read parts of it when i find myself forgetting an important detail and/or event, if i don't have it anywhere near me, i go on the awoiaf wiki which is the book canon one. still, you do not deserve any kind of explanation from me, but i am incredibly exhausted of this weird hate i continue to receive simply because i do not stick to this hyperfeminine fanon regarding rhaenyra. it is incredibly transphobic to be attacking a person due to the same reason over and over again and bringing up their own gender identity while doing so. i would check myself if i were you.
now, i will leave you some screenshots from my gender meta because you've accused me of things that just don't sit well with me. but also that reiterate whatever points you believe you made in your incredibly passive-aggressive message is just a bunch of nonsense babbling.
i would like to be pointed out where in my writing have i ever said she wants to be a man when it's the one thing i always make clear. she also loves her body, something i have also reiterated, she loves motherhood which is heavily linked to womanhood. i do not know where you're even taking your claims from but you have come to the wrong person. my meta literally states she identifies as a woman, still, she doesn't conform herself with the societal mold of a highborn woman and wishes to occupy a man's space just as they would, without any kind of restrictions.
lastly, this unwarranted comment, but i mean, your entire rant in my inbox was unwarranted, lacks respect and is filled with hatred, transphobia and also passive-aggressiveness as i have already mentioned.
i do whatever the hell i want on my blog, how i make my blog look like is for me to enjoy, it is not to please others especially not you. i write plenty for me to be incredibly secure and confident and happy with my portrayal of a muse i love and a character i absolutely adore since i read about her the first time six years ago. now, if you truly are serious about being one of my followers, i am recommending you to block me and never come back here because you are not welcome at all. i truly pity and feel sad for people who are hateful enough to send anon hate to others only because they have nothing else to do. your "two cents" as you said were not asked for and you can take them back. get off my blog and block me, i do not wish for people like you to be around me at all.
𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐇𝐄𝐋𝐃 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐈𝐍𝐒𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐇𝐄𝐑, 𝐅𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍, 𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐖𝐄𝐍𝐓 𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐀𝐘 but she cannot help this soft spot she has always had for rhaenyra. she can be angry at her, she was, but even the dowager queen knew it would not hold for a long time. her resolve would soften, the anger would melt away, & she would do as she always has: favor her, forgive her, aid her however she can. however, for now that anger simmers in her blood under her skin ... she holds onto it because for all of his wrong doings, his faults, his schemes otto had been her father. ( 'how can you feel such a way?' often asked herself in the days since rhaenyra took her throne. otto used her, he manipulated her want for love & approval to his benefit then he used her children in the same way for his own ambitions. he was terrible, he was conniving, but he had loved her once ... or did he ? ) it was the girl inside her who holds onto that notion of a fathers love, not the woman who stands in front of her queen. the girl still curls inside alicents chest, still cries into her own palms just wanting him, anyone, to love her. but that person had never been otto, had it ? but someone else.
@zaldarias does not comment nor acknowlage her words alicent notices. the quick composure, the change of subject ... neither of them can exactly speak on it yet. 'come with me,' seems to linger unspoken most of all.
a deep breath is taken in, alicent straightening her own back & lifting chin. hand comes to rest at her midsection, thumb rubbing against fabric of blue dress. ❛ yes, everything you have afforded us is more than generous, your grace. ❜ 'your grace' simply a formality in this moment but not one used like before to create space between them. alicent did not exactly want space, not completely, but she did know it would take time to get close to any kind of intimacy or close familiarity. ❛ helaena, she- .. ❜ helaena seemed to be a soft spot for both of them, ❛ she is very thankful for the visits to the godwood, for the time with her daughter. it makes her .. happy in all of this & for that i am most appreciative. ❜ tiniest smile graces the dowager queens lips.
this very place , the one she was born && grew in , it was filled with memories . most of them were happy ones , or so she wanted to convince herself ― those of her childhood she held close to her chest for it had been a happy one , for the most part . nevertheless , sleep eluded her in that room , it nearly felt as if ghosts were haunting her , watching her from every corner . for as foolish as it would sound to say it out loud , she had hoped her mother would come out to coddle her as she did as a child . the queen had lost her at a young age , when she needed a mother the most , yet no matter how much she'd grow , it seemed as if that need did not intend to disappear . she missed the times when she would scrape her knee playing in the gardens , when she'd make the injury a much more severe one despite how it did not hurt as much as she claimed , because there was her dear mother , whispering words of comfort , kissing the side of her head with fingers carding through those messy , silver tresses ― in the end , the late queen would order for rhaenyra's favorite pastry to make her feel better , lemon cake , which she would eat sitting closely to her mother . even now , as queen of the seven kingdoms , as more burden && weight have been set on her shoulders , she craved that comfort .
it was strange , the formalities between them , perhaps they were treading a new territory ― « come with me » still echoed in her mind , the sort of agreement she had formed when the request came out of the other woman . the gods were playing some sort of cruel game with the both of them for if only alicent had agreed when rhaenyra offered when they were young girls , they'd have lived a happy life in lys . but alas , whereas the lady alicent would have never agreed nor asked , the queen rhaenyra was unable to put duty aside && follow whatever remnants of that love still resided in her heart . there's something akin to a small smile tugging at her lips at the mention of her sweet sister && her child , head giving a small nod with a slight arch of a brow . ❛ ⠀ i am sure they enjoy their leisure time . perhaps i must be ... kinder && allow them to see each other for longer . ⠀ ❜ a child as young as jaehaera needed their mother by their side , many times the girl had mentioned her mother , each time a spear through rhaenyra's heart . ❛ ⠀ she is a good girl . jaehaera , i mean . she listens well , does as she is told with no fuss . ⠀ ❜ truthfully , the queen had made sure to personally make the child as comfortable as possible , checking periodically as she did the dowager queen . once more , with fingers fidgeting with each other , she allows silence to engulf them before there is some sort of huffed out chuckle through her nose before their gazes meet again . ❛ ⠀ it is odd for you to choose to stay in what happens to be my old chambers . ⠀ ❜
good timezone to everyone , it's finally the weekend so i hope everyone has fun plans even if they're just relaxing ― if not , i still wish you a wonderful weekend ! i wanna apologize for my sudden absence from the dash these past two or three days , i have been going through a bit of an emotional drainage due to undisclosed circumstances , but i will slowly get back to my usual grind over here because writing nyra && seeing my mutuals on the dash always makes me feel better . just wanted to remind yourself to please stay safe , do not ever let anyone try to dictate what you should do nor say , let alone feel or even what opinions you should have . you are your own person && that should be respected , if anyone ever makes you feel this way , trust me when i say it's best if you no longer allow them in your life . while i'm at it , i want to say how incredibly thankful , grateful && happy i am for having such terrific mutuals as well as friends by my side , you all are very appreciated by me ! take care of yourselves always , do not forget to stay hydrated during this heat as well . 🤍
if we think about it , there is a clear gender alienation when it comes to rhaenyra . truthfully , she doesn't solely struggle with patriarchy but with womanhood itself . to understand her gender alienation , we must first examine what womanhood means in the seven kingdoms . for a highborn woman , identity is entirely reductionist: it is defined by the womb . womanhood is actually a transactional state of marriage , submission , && childbirth . rhaenyra’s subsequent rejection of marriage && childbirth isn't merely fear of physical pain , it is also a rejection of the somatic prison of westerosi womanhood . when she tells her childhood companion that she wishes to get on her dragon && flee , she is expressing a desire to opt out of the social contract of gender entirely . she does not want to be a lord , but she utterly refuses to be a lady .
as a child , she envied the freedom that was afforded to princes , making it unfair the lack of it that princess , women altogether receive . she never wished to become a man , nor did she ever despise being called a daughter , but she chafed at the invisible cage that surrounded womanhood . the title of princess sat comfortably enough , yet she longed for the unquestioned authority && liberty that came with being a prince .
the second her father named her the heir to the iron throne , something within her clearly stirred . it was not mere pride but also relief . lords && ladies of the realm , even those without titles , would refer to her as "your grace" one day , a title completely stripped of daughterhood && motherhood alike . she wants to be remembered not as viserys' little girl or the mother of heirs , but as a ruler sitting on the iron throne forged with the swords of the conqueror's fallen enemies . she doesn't want her gender to define her legacy . by naming her his official heir , he introduces a big concept where two things can be true at the same time , even if it seems unlikely . he puts a woman into a role in politics that is usually held by men . this places rhaenyra in a middle ground where she doesn't fit into traditional categories && she embraces this unique position enthusiastically .
during her childhood , she clearly linked her sense of comfort to how she presented herself in a more masculine way . rhaenyra rids herself of the heavy , restrictive gowns of the court for riding leathers , doublets && breeches . as the king's cupbearer , a job that was often given to young boys learning about government , she comfortably takes on roles that are typically male; she doesn’t necessarily experience any physical body dysphoria , but she experiences profound social dysphoria . she understands that the traits she has , like wanting things , being independent , having a hot temper && wanting power , are accepted in men but not in women . instead , these qualities are often viewed negatively in women , as if they are not allowed to have them because society expects women to be submissive && serve others .
as time passed , rhaenyra fulfilled the roles people expected of her; she became a wife && a mother && even embraced those aspects of womanhood that she genuinely cherished . however , she could never grasp why the world believed these roles completely defined who she was . to her , they were just parts of herself instead of being her entire self . her struggle becomes intense when she realizes that the world cannot accept her identity based on her titles.
she is "the realm’s delight" , a title given to a little girl of eight , one that had caused her insecurities for having to live up to the expectations of it , yet she is expected to command armies && rule seven kingoms as a king would . still , the lords who opposed her insisted that a woman couldn't rule simply because of her gender . ironically , even those who had supported her often celebrated her specifically as a woman claiming a man's role . neither of these sides understood . rhaenyra never sought to become a king because she wished to be a man nor did she ever wish to prove women equal to men . in her own heart , she simply wished to reign as herself .
when she is finally crowned on dragonstone , she doesn't try to change the system that favors men . instead , she accepts the complete power that has always been held by men . she has to act like a king while being scrutinized like a queen . she is trapped in the middle , like trying to force a square block into a round space in politics . the sad part of her political journey is that her opponents && many people refuse to look beyond her appearance , while she's trying to operate from a psychological space where her anatomy is irrelevant .
in the end , the tragedy of it all is that she's someone trying to live in a way that goes beyond the words people use in her time . She feels a deep sense of social discomfort . It's not that she hates her body; rather , she struggles with a big difference between how she sees herself inside && the rigid , two-sided way society expects her to be based on her body . rhenyra has to participate in a game where the only pieces are "lord" && "lady," but deep down , she is something different altogether .
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𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐃𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏 . childhood friends / work buddies or coworkers / family friends / friends with benefits / smoking buddies / adventure buddies / fake friends / recently friends / party buddies / friendship of need / dying friendship / circumstantial friendship / partners in crime / old friendship / [ your muse ] is the good influence / [ your muse ] is the bad influence / [ my muse ] is the good influence / [ my muse ] is the bad influence / opposites attract / ride or die / frenemies / roommates or flatmates / penpals / exes to friends / enemies to friends / other
𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄 . childhood sweethearts / [ your muse is mines ] childhood crush / [ my muse is yours ] childhood crush / exes / exes to lovers / forbidden lovers / highschool sweethearts / secret relationship / opposites attract / long distance / unrequited [ from your muses side ] / unrequited [ from my muses side ] / unrequited [ from both sides ] / skinny love / friends to lovers / enemies to lovers / spurious relationship / power couple / newly entered / soulmates [ metaphorical ] / soulmates [ literal ] / awkward / turning toxic / toxic love / cheating [ on your muse ] / cheating [ with your muse ] / other
𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐋 . siblings [ half ] / siblings [ step ] / [ my muse ] is an older sibling figure to your younger sibling figure / [ my muse ] is a younger sibling figure to your older sibling figure muse / [ my muse ] is a parental figure to yours / [ my muse ] is a child figure to your muse / guardian figure / legal guardian / adoptive child / foster child / [ your muse ] is taken under mines wing / [ my muse ] is taken under yours wing / other
𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐎𝐍𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐈𝐂 . dangerous to each other / dangerous to others / unpredictable / rivals / petty / developing into sexual or romantic tension / based off family matters / based of off circumstance / based of professional matters / based off misunderstanding or lies / conflict of ideology / betrayal / hero - villain dynamic / enemies / fight club / friends turned enemies / lovers turned enemies / exes turned enemies / other
this is very interesting to me because i do actually have an akotsk verse for nyra that i've barely ever written in ... in this verse , she's actually daeron ii's youngest && only daughter , so this means maekar && nyra sibling dynamics are very likely to happen here . ☝🏻 however , once she grows old enough , she leaves to lys , so she obviously keeps in touch with her family ( especially her siblings , maybe even mainly maekar && baelor ) , also visits as much as she can . but of course , she is also invited to the ashford tourney and she is witness to the horrors that happen there . we could actually plot something out for them in maekar's main verse && even nyra's main , but for now , we could do plenty for this one . 👀
good timezone , i hope everyone's doing well && having a fabulous week ! i am leaving a little something under the cut , you could assume it's an actual leak for the rest of the season .
HIS MUFFLED VOICE CAME THROUGH THE PHONE SPEAKER ❝ Rhaenyra I pray to god I am not speaker phone. If I am, take me off RIGHT NOW. ❞ He had to get his point out quickly. ❝ I am getting pulled over and I am probably, definitely, going to get arrested and taken in. I have a lot of drugs in me AND on me. ❞ He had called his older siblings the second the police lights flashed. ❝ Please bail me out. ❞ Aegon wasn’t sure they would but he had to try. ❝ I will owe you big time. Don't tell Dad or Otto. ❞ The police were now approaching the stopped car. ❝ Seriously, me getting fucking charged with drug possession and a driving under the influence will not be good our stock prices. ❞
of course . of course something like this would happen just when they were in the middle of closing an important deal for their family . how has he never learned ? rhaenyra had been more than successful being sneaky with it ― that is , until their parents found out , sent them away to some boarding school . an expensive retreat , away from home , more like . often times they hide the fact that they weren't exactly sent away solely to complete their studies . their brother was more fortunate than them ― their mother have given up , viserys barely cared , so it was all the blonde's responsibility to look after him . this had to be their last straw , pulling them out of meeting only to save him as many times in the past.
they had hung up at first , excusing themselves before leaving the room , sprinted towards the elevator to go down to the garage . it was not often when they sped in the driveway like this , but who cared if they got some kind of speeding ticket ? there was enough money to fix that later . the last thing they wanted was a stain on their family name ― their business , the one rhaenyra was supposed to inherit && they'd not allow aegon to ruin that . finally , they call him back , on speaker this time as they drive , yet they do not give him enough time to even begin speaking . ❛ ⠀ where the fuck are you , aegon ? are you not well in the head ? did the drugs finally kill all your brain cells ? jesus christ , i'm going to fucking kill you as soon as i see you . ⠀ ❜
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by all rights vaelor's life was forfeit to her, his sister— the fact he was still breathing was a miracle that he knows his mother does not take for granted. she had only been permitted to see vaelor once since the castle had been sieged and taken, their words short & stiff and under watch. however, it was what was not spoken and which lingered between the words that meant everything. be quiet, be good, be kind and you might yet best death.
" LUCERYS ! — ... " a deep inhale is taken as the young man lowers his voice, seeing his mother's deep russet eyes in his mind imploring him to be rational and reasoning. something, that unlike his brothers, he was quite capable of.
breathing outward, he raises his gaze that unbeknownst to vaelor himself, had fallen. bringing mulberry eyes upward towards his sister's lighter shade— scanning her face briefly— he uses mind over heart to speak next:
" your son should not have died, doing only as a son should for his mother. but jaehaerys ... i never thought you cruel, i never thought you for mindless killing. but when we are in the midst of a war that calls for the heads of my brothers? for my own? what else do you expect me to believe? "
vaelor again, must dance a careful line. for in this situation, it was rhaenyra who held all of the power— while vaelor? held none of it. for all he knew they'd take his head in the morn and wait for aemond to come to avenge him, setting up a clever trap to ensure the death of not just one twin— but both. as with daemon at his sister's side, anything was possible.
daemon.
eyes narrow briefly as it clicks then. " your husband called for it. " the accusation no longer falls to stab rhaenyra, but their uncle instead. the mulberry of his eyes, sharp and poignant, and searching his sister for confirmation.
truthfully , the queen could have taken his head right there && then , on all accounts , he was a traitor as his brothers were ― yet was he not only following their orders && trying his best to keep his mother && sister safe ? for as chivalrous as that could have been , it was not enough reasoning to keep him alive . however , rhaenyra kept trying to make up excuses to spare his life ― the wall , that would be a better place for him , rather than taking his life by her own hand as she did his grandfather . a merciful ruler is how she must be seen as , not one that took lives left && right . besides , she had broken her promise , but didn't his mother as well ? the usurper was gone , one of them must know where he was for he could have not escaped on his own .
speaking of her dead children was not something she came to do , even less so to receive accusations as the ones he was throwing at her . she knew her enemies had painted her as a villain , as a cruel queen that ordered the death of small children in their beds ― still , how could rhaenyra do such a thing ? to helaena , no less , an innocent that had no part in the usurpation , a young woman that did only as those around her expected of her . ❛ ⠀ next time you dare speak the name of my children , you will be chained , gagged && thrown in the black cells . ⠀ ❜ voice is sharp , still at a raised level yet controlled all the same , eyes still showcase the anger , the grief she had been pushing down && internalizing for as long as she could remember . the last thing she wanted was to act on those feelings , for them to take control of her rather than the other way around . with an arched brow , eyes roll before closing , a hand coming up to rub at her forehead as that ringing in her ears returns . it takes her a moment to compose herself before their gazes meet once more . ❛ ⠀ why are you here , vaelor ? should you not be away with your brother ? always his shadow , were you not ? ⠀ ❜
