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The older was thinking and thinking again, he was used to think for almost the whole day when he was alone, though he was also used to mumble things about his thoughts while thinking. It had put him into many weird interactions with people around him, like weird questions and even rude words. He couldn't help, he was completely drowned into his thoughts and problems.

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Youngjae was leaning against a wall, a cigarette between his fingers. It was rare to see him smoking, but whenever he felt like he was going to give up on everything, nicotine was one of the few things that could make him relax. Though, sometimes that same substance made him feel anxious and desperate.

He was used to believe that maybe his problems and his stress could be taken away with the smoke that got out of the cigarette’s ashes. And while having those weird thoughts about life, problems, justice and discretion, he suddenly heard an unkown voice, “There’s nothing left to lose.” It was for sure towards him, he knew it, so when he looked at the one who talked to him, Youngjae sighed and shrugged.

"As long as you still have a life, there’s always something you can lose,” he mumbled before take a drag of the cigarette.

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"Never give up, it's such a wonderful life."

"Some things are best left unspoken."

"Do you know how it feels to let you go?"

"I feel so lost."

"Talk to me. Tell me your lies."

"Just take my hands. I'll make it all better."

"I don't feel safe."

"All my life I've felt this way, but I could never find the words to say."

"Since the day I left I see your face in every crowd."

"I feel lust like a sick disease."

"I know you need me too."

"I'm going home."

"Remember when it was just you and me?"

"Don't bring me back to life."

"Such a beautiful lie."

"I need somebody to die for."

"Love is not that easy!"

"Someday when you wake up happy you'll thank the Lord that I'm gone."

"It's a long way down when you're alone."

"I'll forget about you."

"Don't cry, please don't cry."

"I came so close to giving up."

"When I go, you will be someone new."

"There is no turning back."

"I've got nothing left to live for, but no reason yet to die."

"I see you when I close my eyes."

"Can you hear me?"

"I'm tired of being afraid."

"You'll be better off on your own."

"All I want for Christmas is New Year's Day."

"Home is where the heart is."

"You know I love you."

"We all get hurt by love."

"I can't sleep."

"I will give you my devotion until the end of time."

"I have no reason to forgive you."

"I'm afraid of myself."

"Nothing that I do will ever be enough for you."

"I wish that I was stronger."

"I could never live without you."

"Can you keep a secret?"

"Why are you out by yourself so late?"

"I'll never leave you again."

"My heart is empty."

"There's nothing left to lose."

"I'd rather be lonely than by your side."

"Look at what you've done!"

"Don't leave tonight."

"I can't hold my head up high with the weight of the world on my shoulders."

"You will never be forgotten with me by your side."

"Carry me away from the pain."

"Is this the end of the love that had just begun?"

"Things we never say are often best left alone."

"I can't cry any more tears."

"I wish I could stay with you tonight."

"Things are going to get better."

"Things aren't going to get better."

"Time waits for no one, so do you want to waste some time tonight?"

"I've been waiting my whole life to tell you how I feel."

"There is no light inside of a broken heart."

"No matter where they take me, death I will survive."

"Don't let go."

"I need you."

"I don't need this life."