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bruce isn’t going to understand this fully. he was being his genuine self and, through the well of hurt, he’s going to realize that his thoughts are not appreciated and it’s his authentic self that alienates his family. he will not know how to reconcile who he is with who his own family wants him to be; all he will see is that they are separate people.

he’s going to feel like that dumb fucking kid again, the one at the playground who doesn’t know how to connect with the other kids. he’s going to feel, again, like there’s just something he isn’t getting. there’s always something he doesn’t get, when it comes to the people in his life, and he’s always only going to be that dumb fucking kid and he hates it. he thought he built a family who got it, got him, but now he’s just a dumb fucking adult and nothings changed.

he’s going to pull back instead of reaching out, he’s going to swallow the words he SWORE they wanted him to share in the first place. he’s going to be so, so lost because there is no person who understands what he’s trying to communicate, no person who sees past his words into the intent in his mind. he really, truly doesn’t know how to be understood. he tried speaking his mind more and that didn’t work so now he’s back to talking less and his family seems more upset than before. he doesn’t know, he can’t know, he won’t ever know.

dick has to put his head in his hands, after bruce tells him he wants to travel the world again, peacefully, when his job in gotham is done. tim is quick to reach for the ginger-ale for the nausea rolling in his gut as bruce is hopeful about going to med school, of saving people with gentle hands. jason finds himself in that alley after bruce describes his dream for the people of park row, not crime alley, park row. he doesn't leave for a long, long time. damian goes to spar but ends up just sitting at the mats, staring off into nothing, after bruce shyly mentions a beautiful woman he wants to settle down with. cass tries to go to sleep and forget the hope emanating from bruce, hope and conviction and (comparatively) none of the weary resolution or thick self-hatred that she and bruce knew all too well, when he speaks of the milestone that will let him know he can be stop, a soldier dreaming of a declaration of peace.

they didn't know batman was supposed to be temporary. they didn't know bruce started this with the intention of stopping, because they bruce they all knew would never stop. they didn't know he never intended to sign the rest of his life to this, this violent duty that stretched him thin between gotham and wayne charities and the justice league.

Batman: The Knight #1

Follow me and my journeys of rereading Batman cannon! I have the memory of a goldfish so this is a great way for me to remember everything going on. I have read a large amount of cannon comics but I wanted to read them all + some extra's for fun.

Bruce's perfectionism when it comes to himself is honestly so undone in canon and in fanon. People often talk about him only thinking about himself but they don't talk about the WAY that he only thinks about his self. Food for thought.

Bruce being able to defeat the worlds best fencer after only 4 weeks, thats my smart and cool son right there

Him getting stuck so fast is connected with the fact that he didn't really plan this journey and he kinda just ran away from Alfred. I think that this shows his childish side, he is barely 18 and he wants to charge the world but he truly isn't ready for that-even the training.

Bruce wanting freedom but Alfred being against has always been a big thing in Batman stories and I do like it when affects how Bruce acts in general. Alfred's overprotective nature but his lack of parental care leads to Bruce having this weird relationship with him that is shown heavily in not just this comic, but many after.

My little dramatic Bruce that is still afraid of heights. Love the humor here.

Bruce and his love for robbers </3 But to be honest, a bit of a spoiler, I am not the biggest fan of their relationship because he is 18 and she is much older. I know they never really get together but I just don't think that Bruce ending up with romantic feelings for her is the way that I would go. Honest, I would have made Bruce's feelings more of an older sister/mom to her than romantic. But hey, thats just me.

It good that Bruce realizes this ig.

And if I say this is where his mentality of Criminal's can and should be rehabilitated started because he lived the life of crime (even if not extreme). Also, Martha and Thomas Wayne really haunt the narrative when it comes to Bruce. We lowkey don't know shit about them but they are the cause (well their death) of almost everything bad with Bruce and Gotham as a whole.

Not really apart of this but Lucie was lowkey using him to steal. I don't really mind that I just find it a little funny. Your like 18 and some 30 year old lady is teaching you by stealing.

Bruce calling out for his mother and thinking that he was going to die... Its just too good. I lowkey wish that his father was mentioned with him a little more. Maybe he doesn't make an effort to do so because his face is more like his father's so he is always reminded of him and has something to remember him by more than his mother. Something like that maybe, probably just over analyzing this :/

I know that Bruce doesn't drink because of cognitive stuff but lowkey Bruce not liking to drink because of his father's addiction that is in some comics>>>>>>

Connection to Bruce's dedication to the mission to the point of death. Especially early batman Bruce, oh how I love you Chip Zdarsky, what a writer you are.

GET THIS OFF MY SCREENNNNNNN!!!!! Bruce we are going to have to have a conversation about your heavy want for romance with genuinely almost everyone you meet but whatever.

And here comes my least favorite nigga. BITCH NIGGA HENRI

with alfred #dead and all, bruce should actually hallucinate him lovingly tell bruce to kill himself and join alfred and thomas and martha. they’re waiting for you, bruce. just a few more steps forward and you’ll have the family you spent your whole life grieving, doesn’t that sound nice? you’ll be at peace, that’s it, just a bit further. that’s a good boy, bruce. do you remember your first steps, into your father’s arms? i do. it’s just like that, lad. don’t keep him waiting, now. can’t you hear your mother? she’s cheering you on, just like back then. step closer and you’ll hear her over the wind. don’t look down, just close your eyes and let yourself fall in your father’s arms. he’ll catch you, i promise. don’t you trust me?

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with alfred #dead and all, bruce should actually hallucinate him lovingly tell bruce to kill himself and join alfred and thomas and martha. they’re waiting for you, bruce. just a few more steps forward and you’ll have the family you spent your whole life grieving, doesn’t that sound nice? you’ll be at peace, that’s it, just a bit further. that’s a good boy, bruce. do you remember your first steps, into your father’s arms? i do. it’s just like that, lad. don’t keep him waiting, now. can’t you hear your mother? she’s cheering you on, just like back then. step closer and you’ll hear her over the wind. don’t look down, just close your eyes and let yourself fall in your father’s arms. he’ll catch you, i promise. don’t you trust me?

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cleaned up an old sketch :)

Also im trying to make more prints for the shop so!

I Like to think both Bruce and Damien are on the autism spectrum (there’s probably other but shush) however Bruce is undiagnosed and Damien has a diagnosis (my head is saying 10). The main reason for this happening is Damien is a kid and doesn’t mask like Bruce does and/or having different autistic traits to Bruce.

And also, Bruce is willing to go through the diagnosis nightmare for Damien. Alfred on the other hand is not as willing. There weird half parental half professional relationship, Bruce issues with therapy, his issues being blamed on his parents death, Alfred believing that he’s coping okay, also it being 1980 something (I’m not sure in the exact timeline). Are all the reasons why Bruce is undiagnosed