Life Is Challenging Us

Loved weed more than I loved myself. Quit it. Drank the other week cried about the you I lost. I love reminiscing and replaying the same snippet of good days and good thoughts I/we had. It’s so fucking pathetic I can’t seem to cope rn. Why did you ruin shit. Ik I did too, but not as bad as you.

Dude I miss my best friend. I got sober, you’re a big inspiration. I wish I could ask you how the tf you deal after 30 days. I’m at 32…..yay…..I have too much time to actually think now. I feel my mind racing at night like it did when I was younger. Talking to you always calmed me down. I wish I could hear you sing again to me, that’d be nice. Thanks for always sharing your sober journey with me, it really helped, especially recently. I wish I could ask my best friend how he’s holding up, but you don’t deserve to hear from me. Hoping you’re doing better.

Love when shitty ppl remove themselves from your life before you have to

Allergies making me feel a slug lives in my nose

Fully dissociating is doing so much weed you don’t even fell it anymore lol

All the people I work with are multiple years older than me and recently I was given the nickname gen z. Although I love their thoughtfulness it’s more saddening at their point cause the only reason they criticize me is because I’m the lesser and will one day succeed all these old people 💅💅

Love-sadkid’s music makes me ball my eyes out now a days. What happened to me feeling things? What happened to me enjoying time with people? Life is balancing work, school, and personal for rn it’s lately just the first two now with my personal being tied on the back end of a truck, discombobulated, hanging by a thread, corpse skipping across the pathway surface at 80 miles per hour.

I see you years from now in somewhere I could never imagine now; holding the face of yours my vision drenched in the beauty you present, flawless, effortlessly more stunning around the clock. I like thinking of the moment we’ll spend together and how I hope they’ll last; I hope one day we spend hours wrapped in each other’s ways explaining every story we see in eachothers eye, but not digressing for more important issues of the self- as no issue will be left unspoken upon. Although I’m sure of our differences in how we were raised I would never want any disagreement to be personal; it is with hopefully no need explanation my care for you, I want to cherish you

I wanna have a something I enjoy

One day I’ll have someone. I hope someone knows that I can’t wait to see them when they get here.

Fuck a nice fancy night all I want is tear jerking in a good way conversations, even more conversations that end it in “fuck it!”, 3am in grocery store making puns with our surroundings, smoking honey backwoods with the one I call my honey, cherishing life because I have something so sweet like you’ll be, taking adventures we never imagined; I want to be thousands of feet from the ground but still ever so grounded by you.