DEAR PERSON I… // ACCEPTING.
( @twobasstards @angstiism @effxmera @tsunchii @yolined @reiue )
There are too many of you, so I’ll just address the letter like this. I wonder if some of you will be surprised to know I consider you a best friend, I wonder if some of you won’t want that. I’m not sure, really. I’m never really sure when it comes to you all aside from one thing, a thing that you’re probably sick to death of me saying — but I’ll never stop saying it.
Bet you were expecting that somewhere in this letter, right? Maybe not so soon but best to get it out of the way. Did Kaname scrunch his nose up? Did Vince gag? Did Maxie roll his eyes? Eri might’ve smiled along with Yolin but Lia, Lia I’m not sure. Whatever your reactions might’ve been I hope that you all know I mean it, I’ve always meant it & always will.
Honestly, I’m not too sure how I’ve found myself surrounded by you miserable bastards. I sometimes feel that I stick out like a sore thumb because our minds work so differently ; then each of you do something sweet or creative or funny & I’m reminded that it might not be such a bad thing, after all. You’re all weirdly wonderful in your own ways, I feel very lucky to be your friend & a part of this group because I get to hear your opinions & see all the cool things you can do. I love that. I love hearing your stories & planning things with you all. I’m very lucky, which is why I sometimes feel… Bad.
Lying. You know I do it, I know you know. I hope you don’t mind that I’m not always honest ( I find it quite hard to lie to you all, if that’s any consolation ), & if you do mind I hope you know I lie for very good reasons. Gross reasons. Gross, personal, reasons that would make you all sigh & roll your eyes again, but good reasons. I wouldn’t do it otherwise because you’re all important to me. Very, very important.
Are you ready to hear why you’re all so important? … Oh, I don’t think you are. Sit your asses down & get comfy, this is gonna take a while.
Kaname is important to me even though he probably pisses me off the most (Vince, you’re a close fucking second ). Always challenging us, pushing us to do better & his little round about ways of showing he cares is sweet, isn’t it? My precious Ototo. I do enjoy pissing you off too, it’s terribly fun. Thank you for letting me be your friend, even if you deny it. I always enjoy listening to what you have to say, even if most the time it’s hurtling insults my way.
Eri is important but, honestly, I don’t think I even need to say this for you or Maxie. Everyone can see how especially gross I am with you two, but Eri, is my pillar of support & someone I can have complete faith in, always. You’ve always protected me & stood by me, I hope that you realise how much I adore you. Thank you for sticking by me, thank you for trusting me, thank you for being my friend.
Maxie, adorable-&-he-knows-it-Maxie. Biggest tsundere fuck I’ve ever met in my life, but my favourite. Our little group wouldn’t be the same without him because he’s so annoyingly brilliant at so many things, isn’t he? It’s amazing to watch him play an instrument. Him & his ‘take no shit attitude’ is brilliant too because after a while it sort of applies to anyone who dares to give shit to his friends as well. He’ll deny it, but he would drag someone so hard if they tried to fuck with us. Hoo boy, they’d regret it.
Vincent. Motherfucking. Pierce. When we first met I never thought I’d be writing a letter about my best friends, the people I cherish the most, and you be on that fucking list. I’m glad you are though. You’re so much fun, you big, lanky, goofy idiot. I’m not even sure that I’m deserving of your friendship but I’ll have it for as long as you’re willing to give it, because I love you just as much as everyone else. Thank you for forgiving me.
Yolin. so blessed. so moved. so grateful. cant believe you’re in my life. never going to take you for granted. always going to give back. thank you… Did you like that? TOP QUALITY MEME FOR YOU, MY FRIEND. Honestly though, you & your w o n d e r f u l sense of humour make my day. You’ve got a shit-eating grin on your face more often than not & I’m so grateful for that, I hope you wear it every single day. Thank you for making me laugh ( even when I might not feel like it ). Though I hope you lose every single follower you have, just for funsies.
Lia. Strong & resolute, thank you for putting up with me those first few months of knowing me. I was kinda annoying, huh? Stuck to you like glue but that’s because I knew you were someone special. Not because of your powers or abilities but the person you are. Thank you for letting me be your friend, thank you for not kicking me to the curb, thank you for opening up to me because I know you don’t do that very often. I feel incredibly lucky to have a bad ass like you as one of my dearest friends.
Well, I’m sure you were all expecting me to get emotional & sappy. I’m quite predictable that way, aren’t I? I hope you don’t mind. I just want the people I care about to know that they’re loved & to be told that every day – I’m happy to be the one to say it every day for however long necessary. I love you, I love you, I love you.
You all deserve a lot more than you might think & you help me so, so much. Perhaps without even realizing ( because you’re idiots ). I can only hope I am lucky enough to remain your friend & that I might be able to help you, too.