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Hiii I’m Soul and I’m a huge Leosagi nerd, I read a lot and spend a lot of that time reading Leosagi fanfics specifically!!! (Leo and Miyamoto Usagi to be specific, sry Leochi fans)

I like to save my links in a huge file so I don’t lose them and recently I came across a post showcasing a ton of Leosagi fics!! Problem is that post was about eight years later old and a lot of the links no longer worked :/ (Not to mention how many Leosagi fics have been written since!!)

Except this one is constantly being updated!! It’s open to comments as well so if you have a Leosagi fic you’ve read and it’s not on my list plz tell me!! I’ll read and then add it!!

All of the fics in my guide are sorted by series and if they are multi-chapter or one-shots. As well any fics that contain heavy 18+ content are sorted into a different set!!

This has been fun to put together, I hope you enjoy and happy reading!!

🐇The Leosagi Ultimate Fic Guide🐢

Prince Eric in The Little Mermaid.

Patrick Swayze, specifically in Dirty Dancing because his mom would watch that movie whenever it came on and nine year old Shane would join her, watching with an innocent but fixed fascination he usually only ever showed for hockey related things.

Li Shang in Mulan.

An 8th grade classmate who occasionally told the other boys to knock it off when they made jokes at Shane's expense. He had that 90s popular boy curtain bangs haircut and Shane would sometimes fantasize about brushing the hair away from his face.

The boy who was the Captain of his U15 team the year he joined. Confused it for hero worship. He had a habit of ruffling Shane's hair and of teasing him in a way that sometimes crossed the line from affectionate to mean. Both gave Shane butterflies.

Scott Hunter, also confused for hero worship.

A 12th grade classmate who was on the basketball team and who always stood just a little bit too close whenever he talked to Shane, forcing Shane to crane his neck to look up at him.

Ilya Rozanov, unfortunately.

Carter Vaughn. He's cute, he's friendly, and he throws his arm around Shane's shoulders whenever they meet.

Ilya Rozanov, still.

A photographer who takes Shane's pictures for one of his many brand deals and is a little more hands-on than most, without touching Shane in any way that could be construed as inappropriate. Tells Shane "good job, kid, you're a natural" once the shoot is over, his voice warm and deep.

His boyfriend, Ilya Rozanov.

J.J. Boiziau, after J.J. takes him out to a gay club post Shane coming out and forces him onto the dancefloor with him. This crush is swiftly snuffed out the next week when J.J. tosses his socks at him in the locker room and the smell nearly knocks Shane out cold.

Give me Shane "hates clubbing and bars" Hollander not minding Kingfisher in the afternoon but refusing to go at night. Give me Shane never understanding the slang (he's never online) and being overstimulated by drag brunch (it's so LOUD and nothing fits his diet even once he loosens it a little and brunch as a concept throws off his entire routine) and utterly bored by any TV show that isn't the latest game replay (is this reality TV? Is it a drama? He can't remember and he can't tell the difference but honestly he'd rather be watching hockey) and unable to remember the difference between Lady Gaga and Cher (he never listens to music anyway) and completely disinterested in changing his wardrobe (for fancy events he wears whatever his stylist tells him to but not anything adventurous, because he just wants to look acceptable not make a statement).

Give me Shane feeling alienated from gay culture the way he sometimes feels alienated from Japanese culture and being so frustrated that being himself, exactly as he is, still isn't good enough for anyone.

Give me a Shane Hollander who doesn't want to be "the gay hockey player" the same way he doesn't want to be "the Asian hockey player" but he'll suck it up because he's such an inspiration, don't you know how many kids look up to you? Don't you know how much it matters to them to see you out there loud and proud?

Give me Shane finally snapping at Ilya that clearly he's not "super gay" if he's so bad at it, because he's sick and tired of everyone being disappointed that he's not up on whatever the latest queer culture trend is and he does not want to be a "gay icon," he just wants to play hockey and love his husband, and he's not magically a different person now that everyone knows he's gay.

Give me Ilya reckoning with how coming out has only put more expectations on Shane's shoulders and noticing the roles Shane is always forced into - the Asian player, the gay player - and understanding a bit more why privacy seemed like a better guarantee of freedom to Shane than openness.

One day it randomly comes up as Ilya says something about a time he acted like a dick and Shane is just like “Eh it’s ok, looking back I understand now that you were in a ‘I’m going to hurt you before you can hurt me’ mindset and that’s why you acted like that.”

And Ilya is staring at him and Shane asks what’s wrong and Ilya goes “I hurt you?” And Shane’s just like well yeah but it was forever ago don’t worry about it. But Ilya is worrying about it because back when he’d done the various hurtful things he’d been in downward spirals where he was convinced he didn’t have the ability to hurt Shane because he didn’t matter enough to Shane to hurt him, so he didn’t think the way he acted had any negative effects. And now he’s turning pale and his eyes are getting big as he’s realizing that oh god when he did those things he hurt his favorite person and he hadn’t even realized it

He makes Shane tell him the different times it happened and Shane doesn’t really want to because clearly this is just going to upset Ilya more, but hiding it or lying is probably also going to make things worse in the long run so it’s better to get it out now. So he mentions Ilya ghosting him after they had sex, and then how Ilya acted in Sochi, and that whole night in Vegas, and “I like you… Not as a person, obviously”

And the whole time Ilya is silently nodding and looking like he wants to throw up because no no no those weren’t supposed to be things that hurt Shane, those were supposed to be things that bounced off Shane without affecting him because they were only ever meant to hurt or protect himself, Shane was never supposed to have been hurt by those and fuck how did he not see in the moment the way that he was actively hurting Shane by doing that

And now it’s even worse because Shane won’t even be mad at him about it, he keeps insisting on being understanding and not upset and trying to make Ilya feel better when in fact Ilya is the worst most awful person in the world who should be punished for eternity for making 22 year old floppy haired baby Shane SAD like some kind of MONSTER

and finally whoever the handler is just "sorry, she's still in training." and ilya is just "ah, a professional in training. what a smart girl." "yeah, she's training to be an anxiety service dog. :)"

and ilya just looks RIGHT at shane, who is suddenly

It would be normal for Ilya to stick with the Russian players, to keep speaking Russian and only train against the other players.

Except Ilya loves playing against Shane, and Shane's obviously been cast out to the fringes by the English and French speaking players. So Ilya pulls Shane to the Russian group.

Right to the centre of it, bc Ilya's got the same charming pull to him even as a child.

And when the other Russian players say that Shane's too weird to keep hanging out with them Ilya says "fine" and leaves with Shane.

And Yuna who's heard so often from her son's teachers that he's always been on the fringes, who's heard from Shane that he "doesn't really have any friends at school", who knows his hockey teammates still think he's weird but at least he's good and funny, gets to witness her son get chosen by someone who was pushed to choose. Even if Ilya's struggling to communicate with her and with Shane, he doesn't go back to his Russian friends.

He doesn't go the "easy" route.

I just think Ilya choosing Shane when all the other kids around them can sense the different-ness of Shane's autistic ways would be so good.

Especially when paired with them being penpals but the letters stop for a couple months and Yuna has to prepare herself to talk to Shane about how Ilya's left him too.

Shane who finds a hockey training thing in Russia for the summer, applies and is ofc accepted, and when he shows up with Yuna in tow ofc Ilya is there and he looks so so so sad.

And then Shane calls his name and Ilya looks at him with disbelief. And Shane asks if he's okay and Ilya, who's never actually lied to Shane before, tells him that Irina's dead.

white boy,

respond to my messages white boy

white boy answer me

Shane generally does not participate in this, but one day Hayden says something, idk, vaguely offensive that he clearly doesn’t realize is offensive and Shane sends back:

Which is coincidentally one of Ilya’s favourite Shanes. He loves soft Shane, horny Shane, angry Shane, but bitchy Shane was a different breed. Ilya wondered why he didn’t save some of it for the ice, his usual chirps were about 10% of the scathing shit he would pull out when it was just him, or Rose or Sveta.

Ilya has been primed with texts, he knows he’s about to get an earful about the incredibly grating second AD on the set that Shane has had the displeasure of working with before.

He knows the drill. Gets out a bottle of red (his husband is less finicky about drinking these days), turns off all the main lights and gets Shane’s comfy sweats ready and slippers ready. He paces a little, full of excited energy after not seeing the love of his life for a whole three days. (criminal. should be against the Geneva convention. whatever that means. where even is Geneva.)

They make out for a minute at the door, and then Shane drops to his knees for a quick Decompression Blowjob (he needs cock in his mouth to reset his brain, ok.) and then after showering they’re just drinking wine on the couch and Shane’s being a total cunt about this poor AD and Ilya is just grinning ear to ear and fake gasping Hollander! like he’s scandalised about what he’s hearing come out of his adorable husband’s mouth.

(He’s not- he knows better than anyone that Shane is not his Golden Boy image.)

and because Shane being a bitch is a massive turn on, Ilya takes advantage of the fact that he’s more than a little fired up groaning about Linda (Linda is a total fuck-up and her giant head must have broken her mother’s pussy on the way out, apparently.) and drops to his knees.

It only takes moments for Shane to get hard, what with the wine and the adrenaline and Ilya looking up at him hungry and waiting- but he knows what he wants, and he wants Shane to unleash that energy, grab him by the roots and fuck his mouth. Gag reflex? Pfft. Ilya’s in the big leagues, baby.

Afterwards when Shane’s brain has reformed back from a liquid and Ilya is lying in his arms, he goes ‘and another thing…’ and all Ilya can do is nestle into Shane’s stomach and smile and try to somewhat cover up the butterflies he’s feeling.

Svetlana attends there, Ilya and Alexei and Irina join her at Raiders games. Alexei's basically in a forced detox program at the school bc it's so well secured/monitored and his dad being a cop in Russia doesn't impress any of the dealers enough to give him shit, and they don't actually have real money.

Ilya who's constantly training, like usual.

Ilya who meets a cute freckled Canadian boy at a summer training camp and despite Ilya's private school hockey friends saying he's weird Ilya picks Shane over the pretentious kids.

Shane who's never been picked before, friends would be told he was weird and pick their other friends, but Ilya picked him. And he doesn't really know what to do with himself.

Irina talking to Yuna at training camp pick-ups and Yuna inviting them up for Christmas when Irina talks about how much she's missed it.

Ilya who sleeps on the floor of Shane's bedroom, Alexei who thinks Shane is weird but he's perfectly happy to not say shit and just eat the cookies Yuna and David have. Shane and Ilya who sneak out to the canal and skate on it the second it's open, racing each other, tackling each other, horsing around, being normal young teenage boys. Shane who quietly asks about girls Ilya's interested in, back in Boston. Ilya who answers honestly, Shane who doesn't like the weird, jealous feeling in his stomach. Ilya who suggests practising kissing so Shane will feel better prepared.

Ilya who doesn't like Shane's high school girlfriend, but he doesn't say anything bc he knows how few people Shane has at his school.

Ilya who ends up on the Russian juniors team despite playing for an American juniors team bc he's still a Russian citizen. Ilya who decides he hates playing against Shane.

Ilya who doesn't need 2009 to be the year he bursts onto the international stage because it hasn't been drilled into his head since age 12 because Irina's alive.

Ilya who decides to go to university for a bit, delays his draft date under the guise of wanting to get more training.

Ilya who gets drafted to Montreal and Shane's there for Ilya's draft day and is so happy he hugs Ilya and doesn't let go. Shane who booked and paid for Ilya and his family's hotel rooms, who made sure Ilya had his own room, who sneaks into Ilya's room and hugs him more.

Ilya who says fuck it and kisses Shane. Shane who kisses him right back.

Shane and Ilya who enter Ilya's rookie season already together and hopelessly in love, who everyone sees as best friends. Hayden who's the only one who knows bc he caught them making out when Jackie made him bring Ilya a tray of enchiladas she made to welcome him to the team.

A power play line for the Metros that's Shane, Ilya, and Hayden.

Ilya who's there when the twins are born, playing the bouncer at the door to her room because Jackie only wants Hayden there and both their parents and Jackie's siblings are all being a little entitled about deserving to be in there. But they've also all seen Ilya body people twice their size on the ice. So they behave.

Ilya who calls his mom when Jackie has Arthur and is struggling with PPD, Irina who drives up and is such a big support for Jackie. Irina who's unofficially the Pike-lings grandmother after that.

Ilya who's an unquestionable part of Shane's life even though they're just marketed as best friends. It's survivable, because they can be seen together in public being openly affectionate and people chalk it up to bromance.

Ilya who doesn't come out after Scott but Shane who still comes out to the Metros. Ilya who hears the first-hand slurs and homophobic language that still gets bandied around the locker room. Ilya who pulls Yuna and Irina into figuring out a team that can afford him, JJ, Hayden, and Shane all at the same time. JJ who ends up traded to New York after trying to speak out.

The other three of them ending up in Ottawa in one big signing in one summer. Press who see the two stars of Montreal and their biggest supporter leave the team and start poking around and uncover the homophobic culture at the root of it before Ottawa's training camp even starts.

Ilya and Shane who are able to be a little more open with the Cens, though they close back up a little when Troy's traded. And then when Troy comes out to the two of them at the Kingfisher they come out to him in return. Shane who tells Troy to ignore Ilya's matchmaking. Shane who hears abt Troy sleeping with Harris and then saying no to a relationship and bluntly tells him that it's really fucking stupid.

Troy who comes out to the Cens and shares his relationship. Wyatt who jokingly says "anyone else?" Shane who says "fuck it" and kisses Ilya and announces they're actually married and have been since 2015. Hayden who collapses in relief bc dear lord he's been so close to outing them through circumstance too many times and it's done a number on his nerves.

Shane and Ilya who pull a Scott Hunter and make-out right after winning the cup. The carpet hasn't even been rolled out yet, they haven't even done the handshake line.

Ilya unlocks his phone, and navigates to the realtor app, which is already open to the page he wants. It’s a massive five bedroom home on the bank of the Ottawa River. There’s a dock and a pool and a finished basement that Ilya can already see filled with their exercise equipment. It’s the only house on the street, with farmland on either side. There’s a four car garage. Shane yawns again and looks at the picture, frowning. “Is this the place you’re looking at in Ottawa?”

"It’s not in Ottawa." Ilya says, "It’s in a town called Hawkesbury. It’s an hour away from the arena.” Shane’s forehead crinkles, obviously wondering why Ilya would want to drive an hour to every game, so he continues before he can ask. “And it’s an hour from the Bell Centre.”

“Wait. What?”

Ilya has been thinking about how to say this for a couple weeks now, ever since he first started poking around a map of the distance between Ottawa and Montreal. “I want to live with you. I want us to buy this house - or another one if you don’t like this one - and live together as much as we can with our schedules. You can keep your apartment near the arena, and I’ll buy one in Ottawa too and we can stay in those if we’re too tired to drive or have to be back later or -” he waves a hand, “whatever. If people need to come over. Those apartments can be where that happens. And our official addresses. But the rest of the time,” he reaches out and takes Shane’s hand, can’t look him in the eyes, but can run their fingers together, “I want to be with you whenever we can.” He looks up at Shane, to find him looking down at the phone, fingers scrolling through the photos and a soft look on his face. It gives him courage, so he continues. “I miss you.” Shane looks up at that, smiling, and Ilya can’t not smile back, it’s impossible. “And I know, it’ll be a lot of driving. If we only have practice it’ll be two hour round trip. And an early flight will be horrible but -” he hesitates, squeezing the hand he’s holding, and makes himself continue, “I want to live with you. I want to go to sleep in a bed that’s ours. I want your gross bird food in our fridge. I want your stupid boring car in our garage next to my cool car. I want -”

From then they always pair off during fights, and years later they are getting ridiculous with it.

First goalie fight in 20 years is overshadowed by them dramatically skating into each other like damsels in a romance novel. JJ draws blood and all anybody cares about is Hollander and Rosanov having the world’s most intense rock paper scissors game of all time in the background.