spiraling inwards & out

It's like no one remembers that the wire mother was the only one with milk

sadism is literally cute. its really really cute.

I quite like when I press my hands against someone's head or face to pet them and they push their head into my touch. It can be gratuitous, in a way. Ceasing to perform human posturing like taking off a mask. Like a splash of fresh water revealing your desire for more of my touch. Directly asking for it in something that translates more clearly than mere words. It's cute.

i actually think being in a romantic relationship is the most triggering possible thing for my ocd and they probably should legally bar me from doing it so that i don’t subject other people to it

the worst thing about ocd for me is the feeling of/ability to perceive myself being neurotic, and then having ocd about that, knowing that’s making it worse, like i just feel fucking crazyyyyy, it eats itself etc etc