if they ever still come across my page, i hope they see this. i haven’t gone anywhere, although it may seem like i have, i haven’t. as i still think of you both and i still care about you both with all my heart. it seems i’ve let distance come between us and i’m sorry. i promise you that i’m here and standing with open arms, ready for whatever it is that you need. and i cannot apologise enough because i let what i said i wouldn’t let happen, to happen. neglect is what i’ve done and my heart hurts from thinking of how you both feel. perhaps you two have reflected on the change as much as i have. perhaps i’m not the only one fully aware of what i’ve done. no one is to blame besides me, i take responsibility. i still see you two as the best things in my life and i still wish the best for you two. i hope the feeling is mutual. if what we have is lost, i will fight to find it again. please don’t shut me out though, i’m trying my best. let me fix it. i need you both.