hey one-eye, why did you decide to become a medicine cat apprentice after the final battle?
ââCause itâs ânother way tâserve tâclan. Sâway tâsurvive. Always known little âhealinââ: stoppinâ bleedinâ, clearinâ breathinâ... Necessary. Canât expect medicine cat at paw. Anâ it was good thing I had learned, âcause when we were captive, few medicine cats around; Elkclan had lost all of theirs and we doubtedâd see em again.
While was there, only way tâsurvive was tâavoid focusinâ on âow horrifyinâ t'was. Needed different focus. Found it in protectinâ and tendinâ tâas many cats as possible, regardless of clan. Liked that. Gave me worth anâ purpose when those whoâd rule us wanted us tâhave no worth or purpose but amusinâ em.
Then I felt desire tâbe medicine cat. Tâlearn how they used herbs tâdo so much good. Rowancloud of Hawkclan helped tâsave Whiterain, mâfriend, who's now our deputy. Iâd done everything I could tâhelp Whiterain, but mâpower was limited. If I wanted tâtruly be able tâsave and tend tâmy clanmates, I needed more power.
Anâ durinâ the battle, I defended those least-able tâfight back. I earned serious wounds for it, âcross mâthroat and mâeye. Lost mâvision, anâ nearly lost mâvoice completely. Though mâvoice is returninâ, mâvision never improved; it worsens. Born deaf in mâright ear already, this makes much more difficult to hunt, which was before mâgreatest skill and contribution to the clan.
One most important things tâunderstand, as warrior, is accidents anâ injuries happen. Yâcanât decide what theyâll do tâyou, but yâcan choose whether yâlet em keep you down. Donât force yâtâbe certain thing. May make things harder, but in clan, endless roles must be filled every day, anâ we all have our place in em. Sânot destiny, but common sense. Weâre family, which means we treat each other and work together like family.
Couldnât hunt as well, but could still help âround camp wiâout any trouble. Was irritatinâ no-one runderstood me well for long time, guess never considered âportant tâsign âless had a deaf blood-relation. But I worked, but wasnât makinâ mâself happy. Wanted tâdo more for mâclan.Â
Sâapproached Scorchedheart and Hollowstone, anâ asked if theyâd be willinâ to take me on as medicine cat apprentice, despite my age. They agreed, anâ after we talked it over wiâ Aspenstar, she gave her approval as well.
Sâbeen difficult, learninâ târeconnect with my spirituality, anâ tâunderstand that, even as medicine cat, donât hold unlimited power over protectinâ mâclanmates. Was my choice tâmake, anâ I donât regret it. Wasnât chosen for me, but it was mâchoice. Anâ Iâll proudly serve Elkclan as a medicine cat âtil I die.Now if youâll sâcuse me, need tâgo swallow beehive of honey anâ not speak for a week. Gâthing I taught Plumpaw tâsign. Whiterain, youâre next on my list.â