with everybody saying ...

i feel i am the only person who is just going to be like new year same old me . why change anything when i am enjoying life the way it is you know ??

Holy chest hair. We were all winners tonight. If you get my drift… 🥲

oh ..... i mean , good ? sorry i have no idea how to comment on this . known the guy for years so , it is a tad awkward .

Holy chest hair. We were all winners tonight. If you get my drift… 🥲

.... i do not know what you mean .

oh really ?? guess that means they like me huh ?? i'm glad seeing as i was concerned that i wouldn't quite live up to their expectations . can't dissapoint mama bella so as much as i wanted it to be the three of us on new years , and yes the three included matteo , i'm okay with being with your family just as long as i get that new years kiss from you i'm fine .

currently freezing my ass right now but that's not gonna stop me from drinking eggnog with vodka while having the time of my life. i bought unlimited amount of drinks and some rolls if anyone wants to have fun. ;)

hits ? getting high ?? were you not just talking about dinner rolls were you talking about something else entirely ?? i feel like i am missing the entire plot . we are going to have to start all over . drinks ? yes i'm down . what i am assuming is now something else ?? i have no idea because honestly never had if before and i would rather not embarrass myself by seeing what it is like to have it . guess that just leaves me a tad bit more sober to watch you and let you get loose after your week before going back .

cried seeing my mum today, cried walking into my childhood bedroom, just cried all day basically if you were wondering how much i missed my hometown and being home.

a little emotion is better than not at all . i know it is pretty shocking , but i can be a little softie from time to time . won't go out there being soft enough to share my feelings or whatever , but i do have a soft spot for certain cases .

cried seeing my mum today, cried walking into my childhood bedroom, just cried all day basically if you were wondering how much i missed my hometown and being home.

hey now , i didn't say it wasn't . having emotions are far better than the alternative . those are the moments you want to have anyway . pretty sure i ' d do the same if i was in your situation . wouldn't think so at first glance , but i'm a softie at heart .

putting it politely, this place is cold as shit.

did you expect it to be anything less ... ?

currently freezing my ass right now but that's not gonna stop me from drinking eggnog with vodka while having the time of my life. i bought unlimited amount of drinks and some rolls if anyone wants to have fun. ;)

no judgment here ... although being apart of your krew means i can't really doing that anyway . i will say thiugh , if you are kindly offering , i'd love a drink or two probably some rolls as well . i think i need that after the weeks from hell i have had .

true or false, you want to choke someone.

true . very true .

so hey guys this is actually my spirit writing this, just to say i do not recommend getting rag dolled by raquel ‘cause it’s like getting hit by a train .. unless you’re into that, then 10/10 recommend.

probably not gonna be back for a little bit , but that won't stop me from coming by and playing your backstage cheerleader for a little bit . least i can do for now . just maybe less jumping because damn it hurts to do much tight now . trust me you did . maybe not so much with the pain , but you helped distract me from a lot of it which in my mind is ten times better than being able to cure my pain . you want chef shaun ?? you'll get him and then some . just expect him to be slow and very eager to try this new concoction .

cried seeing my mum today, cried walking into my childhood bedroom, just cried all day basically if you were wondering how much i missed my hometown and being home.

a lot of crying you did there , butthat's what walking down memory lane gets you . teary eyed memories . i'd ask how it feels to be home , but i'm assuming it's good .

sigh

well when someone hits the sigh , gotta always assume the worse but i guess it's a good thing you found out whatever was in the closet ? kinda questionable but you know not gonna question anything you talk about .

sigh

oh lord .... what happened now ??

THATS MY MOTHERFUCKIN BOYY

congratulate your boy for me because that was a solid match . best match of the night in my opinion .

so hey guys this is actually my spirit writing this, just to say i do not recommend getting rag dolled by raquel ‘cause it’s like getting hit by a train .. unless you’re into that, then 10/10 recommend.

i guess it means they have confidence enough in me to know i can take all that and come back swinging ten times harder . you most definitely have a spotless record in being a great nurse truly . if it wasn't for you i feel like i still would be feeling like i got hit by a subway and not a car . that's progress though . i'm more worried with how you are feeling anyway . taking care of me after going through what you did couldn't be good so least let me take care of you tonight while i feel good enough to do so . i'll cook you up something nice and you can sit back and relax .