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this year had its ups and downs but as far as my experiences wasn't the worst. i got to spend more time with my friends and family. started accepting myself more. expressing myself more. realizing that if someone is uncomfortable with me saying i don't like something i don't have to suck it up to appease them. its okay to like different things.

spent more money on myself this year. that was always a struggle for me. feeling guilty about spending money but now i have the mindset of i worked to earn it i should get to enjoy it. will continue that in 2026.

my highs of the year: seeing ateez in nashville. it was the first time i have ever been front row for ateez. and it was with the same person i got to be front row with stray kids years ago. proud to say we still very much shake ass lol i got acknowledged by multiple members. developed beef with yunho during the send off (kidding).

i put myself out there more. choir and yearbook at work. its exhausting but seeing how happy it makes my students is nice. nearly there with being fully licensed too so it's good to get my name out more in the school.

lows of 2025: having to pay tuition out of pocket. its killer. i could have gone to so many concerts instead. health has not been great but should have expected that. i'm old af and many diseases run in my family. will take better care of myself in the coming year.

overall 2025 had a lot of healing, self discovery, appreciation for those who stuck by me and hope for coming years.

stop eating flamin hot cheetos.

nap more.

I actually missed the Ateez tour before this last one. I can't remember what it was called but where Guerilla was the highlight and kind of theme I guess. I had tickets but day of I felt terrible, turned out I had rs.

I was also supposed to attend that Central Park festival, I think it was Central Park, Stray Kids participated in the same year they did Kcon but had to cancel on the person who got the tickets. I had covid and actually suffered an asthma attack as a result.

Didn't miss another show but shouldn't have been there. At The Boyz in Newark I attended not knowing I had Covid. Ended up knocked on my ass for a good week and having a telemedicine doctor recommend I go to the ER. But I hate hospitals so a family friend treated me at home.

Lost my way for a while but I'm still kicking. I've started playing games again. Animal Crossing, Final Fantasy Crisis Core (I don't remember it being so hard to build up Zack's strength), and oddly addicted to mild horror games on Steam.

Tried writing fan fiction again but realized I can only write troll or super sad, no in between. Somewhat active in rpc again. I'm on one site only. Tried to make my own but realized its too tedious. Shout out to all the admins running sites and balancing everything because wow.

I got moved to a higher grade level so my students are all ones I've taught before. Keeping up with my therapy exercises even though I no longer see a therapist (too expensive). Writing my thoughts is part of it.