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You’re stopped at a red light, engine idling, music low, the city glowing in neon reflections across your windshield. 

That’s when you hear it. 

A low, unmistakable growl of a motorcycle pulling up beside you. 

You glance to your left and freeze. 

Black bike. Matte finish. Rider in a worn leather jacket, broad shoulders relaxed. A helmet hides their face, visor dark, unreadable. 

But then you see it. 

A ginger braid, slipping free from the back of the helmet, catching the streetlight like fire. 

“Oh,” you murmur to yourself.  

Your curiosity gets the better of you. You roll down your window slowly and without thinking too hard about it, pull out your phone and angle it just enough to record. 

The biker turns her head. 

Even without seeing her eyes, you feel them land on you. 

She tilts her head slightly, clearly amused. Then casually, she reaches out and takes your hand with her gloved hand.  

Your heart stutters. 

Her glove is warm. Solid. 

She lifts your hand toward her helmet and through the helmet presses a slow, deliberate kiss to your knuckles. 

You forget how to breathe. 

When she pulls back, she gives you a small nod, like this is the most normal thing in the world, then twists the throttle. 

The bike revs, deep and powerful, vibrating straight through you. 

The light turns green. 

She launches forward, gone in seconds, leaving nothing but the echo of her engine and the pounding of your pulse. 

You’re still stunned when you catch up at the next red light. 

She stops again, right beside you. 

This time, she lifts the visor just enough to see her sharp, confident and dangerous eyes.  

“You always record strangers,” she asks, voice smooth and amused, “or am I special?” 

You laugh, flustered, “You don’t usually kiss strangers’ hands, do you?” 

She hums, pretending to consider it, “Not usually.” 

She leans closer, resting one boot on the pavement, “What’s your name?” 

You tell her. 

She nods, committing it to memory like it matters. Then she gives you her phone. 

“Give me your number,” she says, not a question, “In case we don’t stop at another red light.” 

You type it in, hands shaking just a little. 

The light changes again. 

She lowers her visor, braid swinging as she settles back onto the bike. 

“Drive safe,” she says, revving the engine once more. 

Then she’s gone. 

And somehow, you know this won’t be the last time you see her. 

~ 

Later 

Natasha:  So, what were you planning to do with that video of me? 

You've been together just under a year. Long enough to know each other’s habits. But not long enough to stop discovering new things. Wanda knew your coffee order, the way you tucked your feet under yourself when you studied, the exact look you got when an exam was coming up and sleep became optional. 

She also knew your birthday was coming. 

You were curled up on the couch with your laptop open, textbooks spread across the coffee table, highlighters scattered like casualties. Wanda sat beside you, pretending to read while watching you chew absently on the end of a pen. 

She spoke gently, like she didn’t want to startle you. 

“What are you doing for your birthday?” 

You didn’t even look up, “Nothing, probably.” 

She frowned, confused, “Nothing?” 

You sighed softly and leaned back, “I mean... people are usually busy around that time. And I have exams. It’s not really worth planning anything.” 

Wanda turned fully toward you now, “You’re not doing anything at all?” 

You shrugged, “I haven’t celebrated in years. After eighteen, it just… stopped happening. Everyone had their own lives. I stopped asking,” you smiled, trying to soften it, “And this year I really need to study.” 

Her chest tightened. 

“Oh,” she said quietly. 

You didn’t notice the way her expression changed. How something sad and tender settled behind her eyes. Wanda reached out and brushed her thumb over your knuckles. 

“You shouldn’t have had to give that up,” she murmured. 

You laughed lightly, “It’s okay. Really. Birthdays aren’t that important.” 

Wanda didn’t argue. She just nodded, but her mind was already elsewhere. 

~ 

Your birthday fell on a Friday. 

You spent it exactly how you expected, hours in the university library, surrounded by half-finished notes and the low hum of other stressed students. You checked your phone a few times, saw a message from Wanda wishing you luck with studying and smiled before diving back in. 

By the time you got home, it was late. Your brain felt fried, your shoulders sore, your patience worn thin. 

You unlocked the door and stepped inside and stopped. 

The lights were dimmed, warm and golden. Soft music played quietly from the living room. The apartment smelled incredible: garlic, herbs, something sweet. 

“Wanda?” you called, confused. 

“In here,” she answered. 

You followed the sound and froze again. 

The table was set for two. Nothing fancy, just candles, mismatched plates, your favourite flowers in a jar. Wanda stood near the stove, wearing one of your oversized sweaters, hair loosely pulled back. 

She smiled when she saw you. Nervous. Hopeful. 

“Happy birthday,” she said. 

You blinked, “Wanda… what is all this?” 

She stepped closer, “I know you said you didn’t want to do anything. And I know you’re tired. So I didn’t invite anyone. I didn’t make a big plan,” she hesitated, “I just… wanted you to come home to something warm.” 

Your throat tightened. 

“You cooked?” you asked quietly. 

“Yes,” she said, almost shy, “I looked up recipes. I hope it’s okay.” 

You set your bag down slowly, emotions catching up to you all at once, “You didn’t have to do this.” 

“I wanted to,” Wanda replied gently, “You’ve been studying all day. And even if everyone else is busy… I’m not.” 

Dinner was simple and perfect. Food made with care. Conversation that didn’t demand anything from you. Wanda asked about your classes, your exams, listened like every word mattered. 

When you finished eating, she disappeared into the kitchen and returned with a small cake. Your favourite. 

“There’s no singing,” she said quickly, “Unless you want it.” 

You shook your head, smiling through the ache in your chest, “This is already more than enough.” 

She lit a single candle and set the cake down in front of you. 

“Make a wish,” she said softly. 

You hesitated, then closed your eyes and did. 

Later, you curled up together on the couch, your head resting against her shoulder. Wanda played with your fingers absentmindedly. 

“I didn’t realize,” she admitted quietly, “that you hadn’t celebrated in so long.” 

You shrugged, “I got used to it.” 

She turned slightly, pressing a kiss to your temple, “I don’t want you to have to get used to that anymore.” 

You smiled, eyes stinging, “You’re really bad for my concentration, you know.” 

She laughed softly, “Then I’ll make you tea tomorrow. And quiz you.” 

You sighed contentedly, letting yourself relax for the first time all day. 

For the first time in years, your birthday didn’t feel like an inconvenience. 

It felt like coming home. 

Natasha and you were on a trip together. Tony had given the Avengers a week off, so you took the opportunity. Wanting to escape the city for a few days, you rented a small cabin in the forest. The air smelled like pine, it was quiet, the only sounds were the birds and distant rustling leaves. 

You had arrived later than you thought you would, without even unpacking you went to bed, too tired to do anything but sleep. 

It was the morning. You woke up and tried to snuggle to Natasha, but the place beside you was empty. You stood up and went to the bathroom for your morning routine, before heading downstairs.  

You saw Natasha on the porch through the window. Making coffee for her and yourself you approached her.  

Walking through the door you went to her and give her the coffee, sitting down on the bench next to her. 

“Thank you, baby” she said smiling. 

“Good morning” you said, placing a kiss on her lips. 

“Good morning.” 

The morning sunlight filters through the trees. Both sitting and just enjoying the view, with steaming mugs of coffee. Eventually, Natasha rests her hand on yours.  

The conversation was minimal. The moment was about warmth and comfort.  

After some time, you got an idea and stood up, telling Natasha you will be back in a minute. Entering the cabin, you went to your room to take your guitar.  

When you get back to her, she looked at you confused. 

“I’m going to sing for you” you told her, and the smile found its place on her lips again. You sat down and started singing: 

“Imagine me and you, I do” 

“I think about you day and night” 

“It's only right” 

“To think about the girl you love” 

“And hold her tight” 

“So happy together” 

She leaned her head on your shoulder and listened to you. 

“If I should call you up, invest a dime” 

“And you say you belong to me” 

“And ease my mind” 

“Imagine how the world could be” 

“So very fine” 

“So happy together” 

And after that she started singing with you. 

“I can't see me lovin' nobody but you for all my life” 

“When you're with me, baby, the skies will be blue for all my life” 

“Me and you, and you and me” 

“No matter how they tossed the dice” 

“It had to be” 

“The only one for me is you” 

“And you for me” 

“So happy together” 

“I love you, baby” she said looking you into the eyes. 

“I love you, too” you replied and kissed her on the forehead. 

It’s late enough that it feels like you are the only people. 

You’re both in the common area, not really doing anything. Natasha’s perched sideways on the couch, scrolling on her phone, bare feet tucked under her. She looks relaxed.  

You pass behind her to grab a glass of water and catch it. 

Her scent. 

It stops you mid-step. 

Before you can think better of it, you mumble, almost to yourself, “You smell really good.” 

Natasha doesn’t look up right away. 

There’s a beat. 

Then she smiles. 

Slow. Knowing. Like she’s just been handed a loaded weapon. 

“Mm,” she hums, finally lifting her eyes to you, “Do I?” 

You nod, suddenly very aware of how close you’re standing, “Yeah. Just... yeah.” 

She tilts her head, studying you with open amusement, lips twitching like she’s holding back a laugh, “That’s cute.” 

You frown, “Cute?” 

She slips her phone away and leans back into the couch, relaxed, playful, “You said it like you didn’t mean to. I like that.” 

You open your mouth to defend yourself, but she beats you to it. 

“I taste even better,” she adds lightly, like she’s commenting on the weather. 

Your brain short-circuits. 

Natasha laughs, soft, pleased, clearly enjoying herself now, “Wow,” she says, “That reaction alone was worth it.” 

She stands, brushing past you on purpose, shoulder bumping yours, “Relax. I’m teasing.” 

Then, just before she walks away, she glances back at you with a grin. 

“…mostly.” 

And you’re left there, glass of water forgotten, wondering how she does that so effortlessly. 

The rain had been falling for days. 

It blurred the world outside your window into soft shapes. The dull gray sky mixed with the trembling light of morning. You watched from your spot on the floor, knees pulled close, palms pressed together. You told yourself to breathe, to stay calm, to not think about the voices echoing in the corners of your mind. 

Sometimes, you could still feel them, the people you’d touched. Their thoughts, their fear, their anger. 

It was always the same. They looked at you, and when your power flared, they stopped seeing a person. 

They saw what the doctor created. 

You had stopped going outside after that last accident. The market man had only brushed against your hand, a small thing, until you felt his body freeze and his breath stutter. Your voice echoed in his head like a whisper that wasn’t yours. You’d seen yourself through his eyes, something bright and unnatural. You ran before you could hurt him. 

Now, you lived in an abandoned farmhouse outside the city. The walls creaked at night. The world pretended you didn’t exist, and that felt safer for everyone. 

But that morning felt different. 

There was a sound outside. Not the storm or the restless wind, but footsteps. Careful, deliberate. A quiet scrape of boots on wet earth. You froze, breath catching in your throat. For a moment, the hum inside you rose in warning. 

Then the door opened. 

You moved before you thought, every muscle tensing. The woman who stepped in didn’t raise a weapon. Her red hair was damp, plastered against her temple, her dark jacket slick with rain. She looked around, scanning, and when her eyes found you, she stopped. 

Her voice was calm when she spoke, “You don’t have to hide.” 

You didn’t answer. You could feel her, the way her heartbeat didn’t quicken, the steadiness of her breath. Most people pulsed with fear when they saw you, but she didn’t. That was almost worse. 

“I’m not here to hurt you,” she said. 

Your voice was rough from disuse, “Who sent you?” 

“Does it matter?” 

It did, but you didn’t say so. You took a slow step back, trying to create distance between you and her. You could control her if you wanted. With one look, one thought, you could make her leave, forget, disappear. You’d done it before. 

But something about her stopped you. There was a quiet sadness in her eyes. 

“I know what they did to you,” she said, “The files don’t say everything, but… I’ve read enough.” 

Her words sliced through you, “Then you should know what I am.” 

“I know what they tried to make you,” she replied softly, “Not what you are.” 

You turned away. The rain outside had grown heavier, thrumming against the roof like a heartbeat. 

“I can’t control it,” you whispered, “When people are near me, when they’re scared, it feels like I can sense them inside my head. I make them do things.” 

She stepped closer, slow enough that you could hear each shift of her boots on the floor, “That’s not control. That’s survival. They taught you to fear yourself.” 

You flinched, “You don’t understand.” 

“I do.” 

Her voice didn’t rise. You glanced over your shoulder and saw something achingly familiar in her expression. 

“They made me into a weapon too,” she said, “Different methods, same goal.” 

You studied her face then. The faint scars, the calm set of her jaw, and a steadiness that felt earned, not born. She wasn’t afraid of you. 

“Why are you here?” you asked. 

“Because no one should be alone with what was done to them.” 

The words settled in the air like something sacred. For a long time, neither of you spoke. The storm moved on, and you realized how long it had been since someone looked at you without seeing danger first. 

When you finally spoke again, your voice was small, “You should leave.” 

“Do you want me to?” 

The question stopped you. No one had ever asked before. Everyone else decided for you what you were, where you belonged, what you deserved. But she asked. 

You shook your head once, “No.” 

Natasha exhaled, almost smiling, “Then I’ll stay. Just for a while.” 

She moved to sit against the opposite wall, giving you space. The silence that followed was surprisingly comfortable. You closed your eyes, listening to the rhythm of the rain and the soft sound of her jacket as she shifted. 

You didn’t know when your guard started to lower. Maybe it was when she offered half of her protein bar without a word or when she asked about the books scattered around the floor. You answered cautiously, but her voice stayed steady, never prying too far. 

Later, when the sky darkened again, you told her about the lab. Not all of it. The cold lights. The sound of glass breaking. The moment your power first tore through the air and everyone stared as if they’d seen a ghost. You told her you never meant to hurt anyone, that you tried hard to be good. 

Natasha didn’t interrupt. She listened, hands resting on her knees, eyes fixed on you with a fierce attention that felt like safety. 

When you finished, she said quietly, “You’re still good.” 

You almost laughed, but it came out like a sob. 

“I’ve done things,” you said, “Things I can’t take back.” 

“So have I.” 

She looked away then, her expression distant for the first time. You realized she meant it; this wasn’t pity. It was understanding. 

The wind howled through the cracks in the walls. You watched the way the shadows bent around her. 

“Why aren’t you scared of me?” you asked. 

Her gaze met yours, “Because you remind me that we can be more than what they made us.” 

There was a long pause after that. For the first time in years, you didn’t feel the instinct to hide. 

You sat beside her then, close enough that your shoulder brushed hers. She didn’t move away. 

Outside, the storm faded into soft drizzle. The smell of wet earth filled the air. 

You watched raindrops slide down the window, each one catching a flicker of light. You thought of the doctor’s words, ‘You are not human, you are what I made you,’ and for the first time, the echo didn’t hurt as much. 

You were not what he made. You were what survived. 

And when Natasha’s hand rested briefly on your arm, you realized something else. Maybe you were never meant to be alone in the first place. 

Natasha Romanoff doesn’t do crowds.

She tolerated them. Manages them. Knows how to disappear inside them if she has to. But a Renaissance Faire is not exactly her idea of relaxing Saturday. There are wooden booths packet together, music spilling from every direction, people laughing too loudly, bells chiming, skirts swishing, children running past with sticky hands.

And yet.

Here she is.

For you.

You’re practically vibrating beside her, fingers laced with hers, tugging her forward through the entrance like a kid being let loose in a candy store. You look, there’s really no other word for it, radiant. Dressed in flowing fabric and soft leather, colours that look like they were stolen from a painting, hair styled in a way that feels both medieval and completely you. You fit here like you were meant to exist in this world, like you’d stepped sideways out of time.

Natasha watches you more than anything else.

Her own outfit is simpler, still a costume, but practical. A fitted bodice, dark trousers, boots made for movement. You’d helped her choose it, hands careful, eyes bright as you explained what everything was. She hadn’t complained. Not once. That alone should tell her something.

“What’s that?” she asks, nodding toward a group of musicians tuning their instruments near a small wooden stage.

You grin, “Folk band. They’re about to start.”

She hums, but she lets you pull her closer anyway.

The music starts slow at first, strings and drums, a rhythm that feels ancient and alive, like it’s echoing up from the ground itself. People begin to gather, some clapping along, others swaying without really thinking about it. A couple in full period dress spins past you, laughing, skirts flaring.

You turn to Natasha, eyes sparkling, “Dance with me.”

She arches an eyebrow, “I don’t dance.”

“That’s a lie,” you say easily, “You just don’t dance like this.”

There’s a difference.

She knows it. You know it. But before she can argue, you’re already pulling her into the circle forming near the musicians. The ground beneath your boots is uneven, packed dirt and grass and the air smells like rain even though the sky hasn’t decided what it’s doing yet.

At first, Natasha is stiff. Aware. Calculating distances, exits, people. Her hand rests at your waist out of habit, protective even here.

But you laugh softly and spin away from her grip, only to come back again, fingers brushing hers. The music picks up, faster now, joyful and something loosens in her chest.

She follows your lead.

It’s not choreographed. No rules. Just movement and rhythm and the way you look at her like there’s nowhere else in the world you’d rather be. She lets herself smile, small at first, then real. You notice immediately.

“There you are,” you say, breathless.

She doesn’t know what that means, exactly, but she knows she likes the way it feels.

The first raindrop hits her cheek, cool and unexpected.

Then another. And another.

Someone nearby whoops as the sky finally opens up, rain spilling down in earnest. A few people scatter for cover, but most stay. Laughing. Spinning harder. Letting the music and the weather do whatever they want.

You tilt your head back, rain darkening your hair, fabric clinging to your arms, “Nat,” you say, voice raised over the sound, “it’s raining!”

She looks at you, soaked already, eyes bright, cheeks flushed and something settles deep and warm in her chest.

“So it is,” she says.

She doesn’t pull you away. Doesn’t suggest shelter. Instead, she pulls you closer.

The rain soaks through her clothes, runs down her neck, but she barely notices. All she feels is you, your hands in hers, your laughter pressed against her shoulder, the music pounding through her bones. The world narrows down to this moment: mud on her boots, rain on her skin, you smiling at her like she’s the best decision you ever made.

For once, there’s no mission. No threat. No past clawing at her heels.

Just joy.

Just you.

When the song finally slows, dissolving into applause and cheers, you’re both breathless and laughing, foreheads pressed together. The rain has softened to a drizzle, the sky lighter now, as if it’s pleased with itself.

“Worth it?” she asks quietly.

You nod without hesitation, “Best time.”

She presses a kiss to your temple, right there in the open, rain and music and people all around you. For once, she doesn’t care who sees.

She went because you enjoy it.

She stayed because she loved it.

And later, years later, when the world gets loud and heavy again, she’ll remember this. The dancing. The rain. The way peace found her in the most unexpected place, simply because she chose to follow you into something new.

The compound gym was usually quiet on Sunday mornings. Except for today, when a group of young trainees from junior program had been invited to tour the Avengers facility. Wide-eyes kids, all of them staring at everything like it was magic.

You were supposed to demonstrate a simple disarm. Simple.

But the trainee you partnered with moved faster than expected, swinging the practice staff at your head with way too much enthusiasm.

You didn’t even think. Your body reacted on instinct.

You ducked low, swept his legs in one clean motion, caught the falling staff mid-air, spun it around your wrist and tapped it gently against his shoulder in the universal “you’re out” signal.

The entire room gasped.

One of the kids whispered, star-struck, “She’s so cool…”

And before you could say anything, you heard Natasha’s voice ring out from across the room, loud, proud and absolutely smug:

“That’s my girlfriend, you suckers!”

Nat was standing there arms crossed, smirk sharp enough to cut glass, absolutely preening.

You helped the trainee to stand and then turned to Natasha with a smirk.

“Your wife, Nat.”

The kids gasped. Natasha froze for a second, then her smirk deepened into something warmer, brighter.

She closed the distance in two slow steps, eyes gleaming.

“My wife,” she echoed, voice dropping like she liked the taste of the word, “Even better.”

A couple of the trainees whispered excitedly, one of them whisper-shouting, “She’s married to Black Widow!”

Natasha ignored them completely, her attention fixed entirely on you as she took your hand and tugged you closer.

“You know,” she murmured, low enough only you could hear, “you showing off like that is extremely attractive.”

You raised a brow, “Didn’t mean to show off.”

“Liar,” she said with a soft laugh, “Good thing you’re my wife or I’d have to fight half these kids for your attention.”

You squeezed her hand, still smirking, “Relax, Nat. They’re all terrified of you.”

Her smirk returned full force, “Even better.”

Bucky’s sitting on the edge of the bed, boots kicked off. The room is dim, lit only by the bedside lamp and the quiet hum of the city outside. He looks relaxed in that way that only comes from being home with you, shoulders loose, hair falling into his eyes, sweater sleeves pushed up his forearms. 

You hover in front of him, trying not to smile too much. 

“What?” he asks, already suspicious. 

“Nothing,” you say, “I just wanna try something.” 

His brows knit together, “That’s never a good sentence.” 

You take his hands gently, lacing your fingers with his. His grip tightens. You lift his arms up slowly, guiding them over his head. 

“Hey,” he laughs softly, “What are you doing?” 

“Trust me.” 

He does. He always does. 

His arms stay raised, elbows bent awkwardly, and he looks at you like this is mildly ridiculous but harmless enough to allow, “You good?” he asks. 

“Mhm.” 

You step closer, close enough that your knees brush his. You tilt your head, just for a second, watching his expression, those blue eyes, calm and curious. 

Then you kiss him. 

It starts soft. Slow. Just your lips against his, warm and unhurried. A familiar pressure that you’ve shared a thousand times over the last few years. You expect him to stay still at first. 

He doesn’t. 

His breath hitches almost immediately. You feel it, the subtle shift, the way his shoulders soften, how his head tilts instinctively to meet you better. His hands twitch above his head like his body forgot the rules. 

You deepen the kiss just a little. 

Bucky exhales into you, a quiet sound that melts straight through your chest. His posture collapses into the moment, spine curving forward as if gravity itself is pulling him toward you. His lips move more eagerly now, careful but hungry in that restrained, reverent way that’s always been his. 

His arms finally give up. 

They drop around you, strong and sure, pulling you closer until you’re pressed against his chest. The kiss breaks only because you laugh softly against his mouth. 

“You tricked me,” he murmurs. 

You grin, “You melted.” 

He shakes his head, smiling like he’s embarrassed and proud all at once, “I always melt with you.” 

You brush your thumb along his jaw, feeling the warmth there, “Good. I just wanted to make sure.” 

He leans in again, slower this time, pressing a gentle kiss to your lips, then another to your cheek, your temple. 

“As if a few years would change that,” he says quietly, “You’re still it. Always.” 

You curl into him, heart full, knowing that some things never fade. 

Natasha is still learning you. 

Not in the careful, distant way she usually learns people, but the quiet, stolen moments like this, where she watches how you react before you even realize you’re reacting at all. It's only been a few days since you stopped pretending there was nothing between you. Only a few days since her hand started finding your waist without hesitation, since her gaze lingered a second longer that necessary. 

You still haven’t caught up to it. 

You are standing close to her in the dim light of her room, your back against the door, heartbeat already too loud for how little she’s done. Natasha steps into your place with unhurried confidence, close enough that you can feel her warmth, her presence grounding and unsettling all at once. 

One hand up beside your shoulder, palm against the door. The other sets at your hip light, but deliberate. 

“You’re holding your breath,” she murmurs. 

You inhale quickly, almost defensively, “I’m not.” 

Her lips twitch. She doesn’t argue. 

She leans in and kisses you. 

It’s slow. Measured. Like she’s reminding you that she has time. Her mouth moves against yours with practiced ease, just enough pressure to make your thoughts scatter. The kiss deepens gradually, not because she pushes, but because you forget how to pull away. 

Your fingers curl into the fabric of her shirt for balance. 

That’s when it hits you. 

The warmth spreads too fast, pooling low in your stomach, your knees suddenly unreliable beneath you. It’s not dramatic, not sharp wave, not warning, just a quiet, terrifying realization that your legs are no longer doing what you ask of them. 

Your breath stutters. 

“Natasha...” you whisper, pulling back half an inch. 

She feels it immediately. Her hand tightens at your hip, steadying you just as your strength gives out completely. 

Your knees meet the floor. 

It’s not a fall. It’s a surrender. 

The sudden change in height pulls you out of the kiss and Natasha freezes for half a second before looking down at you. Her expression flickers, alert, assessing, then softens into something unmistakably intrigued. 

“Well,” she says slowly, tilting her head as she takes you in, “that’s… an interesting reaction.” 

Heat floods your face, “I... I swear I didn’t mean to... this is just...” 

“Hey,” she’s already crouching in front of you, one knee on the floor, bringing herself to your level. Her hand comes under your chin, steady and warm, lifting your face gently, “I didn’t say it was a bad one.” 

You swallow hard. Your legs still feel weak, trembling faintly beneath you and you’re suddenly very aware of how close she is. How calm she looks compared to how undone you feel. 

“It’s just new,” you admit quietly, “You’re… still new.” 

Something soft passes through her eyes at that. 

“Ah,” she murmurs, understanding settling in. Her thumb brushes lightly along your jaw, grounding, “That explains it.” 

She leans in, not to kiss you this time, but close enough that her voice drops. 

“So,” she says, almost amused, “I kiss you and you forget how to stand.” 

You nod, embarrassed but honest. 

A low, surprised laugh escapes her. She looks pleased, but there’s no mockery in it. Just fascination. 

“Good to know,” she says, “I’ll be careful. Or…” her gaze flicks briefly to your knees, then back to your eyes, “…maybe not.” 

Before you can overthink that, her hand moves to your shoulder, steady and reassuring. 

“You okay?” she asks. 

“Yes,” you breathe, “Just… need a second.” 

“Take all the time you need,” her voice is gentle now, “I’ve got you.” 

She presses a soft kiss to your forehead and stays there with you, close and patient, until the trembling in your legs eases. 

Even kneeling in front of her, heart racing, you feel safe. 

And very, very aware that this is only the beginning. 

The problem wasn’t Christmas.

You realized that early, standing in the compound kitchen at an hour that technically still counts as night, the lights dimmed, decorations half-hearted and crooked like no one really wanted to commit. The problem was Natasha Romanoff leaning against the counter across from you, sleeves pushed up, eyes tired and warm in a way she never lets anyone see.

The problem was that she’s yours.

And no one is supposed to know.

“Stop staring,” she murmured without looking up from the mug in her hands.

You didn’t stop. You stepped closer instead, careful with your footsteps like the walls might gossip, “You’re the one who followed me in here.”

“I needed water.”

“You drank coffee.”

She finally looked at you then, mouth twitching, “I needed you not to be alone.”

That’s how it always went. Practical excuses. Tactical reasoning. Natasha didn’t say things she can show instead.

You’re close enough now that your knees almost touch. Close enough that you could see the faint scar near her collarbone she forgets exists. Close enough that your fingers ached not to reach for her.

You didn’t. Not yet.

Because the compound was full.

Because the Avengers were everywhere.

Because whatever this was, existed in glances, timing and the unspoken agreement that neither of you were ready to explain it out loud.

Natasha sensed the hesitation. She always did.

Her pinkie hooked around yours, subtle enough that anyone walking in would miss it. The contact was brief, grounding. A reminder.

“I’ll see you later,” she said, neutral voice back in place.

You nodded. You let go.

That’s how you survived the mornings.

~

By noon, it was chaos.

Kate had decided that Christmas decorations are “a morale issue” and had taken it upon herself to rearrange the common room. There’s tinsel where there shouldn’t be tinsel. There’s a tree that looks like it was put together under duress.

Natasha positioned herself across the room from you like it was instinct.

You tried not to notice how she tracked you anyway.

Every time you laughed, her shoulders loosened. Every time someone stood too close, her jaw tightened.

You pretended not to see it. She pretended she wasn’t obvious.

She was failing.

“You two fighting?” Clint asked casually, eyes flicking between you and Natasha.

You choked on air. Natasha didn’t even blink.

“No,” she said.

“She has been glaring at you for twenty minutes,” Clint added.

Natasha took a step forward, smile thin, “I glare at everyone.”

Wanda, sitting on the arm of the couch, looked between you. Her lips curved into something knowing. You pointedly looked at the floor.

Kate squinted, “Wait. Are you…”

“No,” you and Natasha said at the exact same time.

Silence.

Kate grinned, “Okay. Definitely something.”

Natasha turned on her heel and walked away before anyone can say more. You didn’t follow. You gave it a minute. Two.

Then you slipped down the hall, heart racing like you’ve done something wrong even though you haven’t.

You found her in the gym, hands wrapped tight around a heavy bag, hitting it harder than necessary.

“You’re going to break that,” you said quietly.

“I know.”

She didn’t stop.

You stepped closer anyway. You always did.

“You’re terrible at this,” you told her softly.

She exhaled sharply, forehead dropping to the bag, “I don’t want them in it.”

“I know.”

“I don’t want opinions.”

“I know.”

“I don’t want it… touched.” her voice dropped on the last word, almost gone.

You reached out then, palm pressing between her shoulder blades. She froze for half a second before melting into the contact, breath shuddering.

“You don’t have to hide it like it’s a crime,” you murmured.

Natasha turned slowly, eyes dark, intense, searching your face like she’s checking for danger.

“I’ve spent my whole life hiding,” she said, “This just happens to be something I want to keep.”

You smiled, small and soft, “You’re allowed to want things.”

She scoffed, “Dangerous mindset.”

She cupped your jaw suddenly, thumb brushing your cheek. You leaned into it before thinking better of it.

For a moment, the world narrowed.

Then footsteps echoed down the hall.

Natasha dropped her hand instantly, stepped back like you’ve been burned. You didn’t move fast enough. Steve appeared in the doorway, eyes flicking between you.

“Am I interrupting?” he asked.

“No,” Natasha said. Too fast.

You cleared your throat, “Training.”

Steve nodded, polite, but his gaze lingered. He’s always noticed things. He always will.

When he left, Natasha exhaled slowly.

“That was close,” you said.

She looked at you, something like fear crossing her face, not of being found out, but of being seen.

“I don’t want to lose this,” she admitted quietly.

You stepped into her space, hands resting at her waist, unapologetic now, “Then stop acting like it’s already slipping.”

Her hands came up, gripping your jacket like she needed the anchor.

“Stay,” she whispered.

You did.

~

That night, the compound quieted.

Lights dimmed. Laughter faded. The decorations glowed softly, imperfect and warm.

You knocked once on her door.

She opened it immediately.

Inside, the world shrank to dim lamps, discarded boots and the space between you that vanished the second she pulls you in. The door closed behind you. Her forehead pressed to yours, breath warm, steadying.

“You okay?” you asked.

She nodded. Then shook her head, “Better now.”

You smiled. You always did.

When you curled up together on the couch later, her arm around you, thumb tracing absent patterns, you realize this is the part she didn’t hide well at all, the way she relaxed with you. The way she let herself be human.

Tomorrow, you’ll pretend again.

Tonight, you didn’t have to.

And for Natasha Romanoff, that might be the most dangerous and precious thing of all.

~

You should’ve known it wouldn’t stay quiet.

The compound never let things stay quiet for long.

It started the next morning with coffee and bad timing.

You were half-awake, leaning against the kitchen counter while the machine sputtered and complained, when Natasha stepped in behind you without a sound. She always moved like that. Her hand brushed your lower back, brief and familiar, meant to steady, meant to be gone before anyone noticed.

Except you relaxed into it.

Just slightly.

Enough.

“Morning,” Sam said, strolling in like he owns the place.

Natasha’s hand vanished. You straightened too fast, nearly spilling coffee everywhere.

Sam froze mid-step.

He looked at you. Then at Natasha. Then back at you.

“…Okay,” he said slowly, “That was something.”

“It was nothing,” Natasha replied, already too composed, too blank.

Sam’s eyebrows shot up, “Wow. You didn’t even insult me first. That’s new.”

You kept your eyes on your mug like it might save you.

Steve entered next, holding a tablet, stopping when he clocks the tension. Wanda followed, gaze flicking between the three of you, her head tilting just a fraction.

Her lips curved.

Oh no.

Kate barrelled in right after, ponytail bouncing, “Why does it feel like I walked in on a secret?”

Natasha exhaled through her nose.

“It’s too early for this,” she muttered.

Kate’s eyes light up, “Oh my god. There is a secret.”

“No,” Natasha said.

“Yes,” Wanda said gently, at the exact same time.

You choke on your coffee this time.

Natasha’s head snaped toward Wanda, “You said you wouldn’t…”

“I didn’t say anything,” Wanda replied innocently, “I just… noticed.”

“Noticed what?” Steve asked.

The room felt very small all of a sudden.

Natasha looked at you.

Not to check if you’re okay, but to ask permission.

You swallowed, heart pounding. You gave a tiny nod.

She turned back to the group, shoulders squaring like she’s about to step into a fight.

“We’re together,” she said flatly, “It’s not a problem.”

The silence that followed was deafening.

Kate’s mouth opened. Closed. Opened again, “I KNEW IT.”

Sam let out a low whistle, “I was betting on stress-induced crime vibes, but this is way better.”

Steve smiled. Soft. Proud. “I’m happy for you.”

Natasha blinked, clearly thrown.

“You are?”

“Yes,” he said, “And I’ve known for a while.”

You stared at him, “You knew?”

He shrugged, “You stop pretending when you think no one’s looking.”

Natasha groaned, “Great.”

Kate was vibrating, “How long? Who made the first move? Was it dramatic? Was there a mission?”

“No,” you said at the same time Natasha says, “None of your business.”

Kate grinned wider, “Confirmed.”

Wanda stepped closer, voice gentle, “You don’t have to hide anymore.”

Natasha’s jaw tightened, “I wasn’t hiding.”

Sam snorted, “You almost stabbed me with a fork last week because I sat too close to her.”

“That was unrelated.”

“It absolutely was not.”

Clint appeared in the doorway, coffee in hand, taking in the scene in half a second, “Oh. You finally told them.”

Natasha glared, “You knew too?”

He grinned, “Please. You go soft. It’s weird.”

You laughed before you can stop yourself.

Natasha turned to you, mock offended, “You promised not to laugh at that.”

“I lied.”

She sighed, then surprisingly relaxes. Her hand found yours openly this time. No sneaking. No pulling away.

The world didn’t end.

Kate clapped once, “Okay but just to be clear, this means I get to tease you forever.”

“Touch her and I’ll end you,” Natasha said calmly.

Kate beamed, “She’s protective. I love it.”

Later, when the room emptied and the noise faded, Natasha leaned her forehead against yours.

“Are you okay?” she asked quietly.

You nodded, “Are you?”

She considered it. Then nodded too.

“I don’t hate it,” she admitted, “Being seen.”

You smiled, “Good. Because I don’t plan on disappearing.”

Her lips curved, just a little.

“Good,” she said, “Neither do I.”

And for once, she didn’t look like she’s waiting for the floor to fall out from under her.

You noticed winter break had started by the sound of suitcases. 

Wheels rattled down the hallway outside your apartment door, voices echoing briefly before disappearing. Doors shut. Laughter faded. The building exhaled until it felt hollow, like everyone had taken their noise with them. 

You sat on the couch with your phone in your hand, scrolling through messages from your family. Questions about when you were coming home, reminders about dinner plans, your mom sending photos of decorations already half up. 

Your suitcase stood open in your room. 

Bucky hadn’t packed anything. 

He stood in the kitchen, sleeves pushed up, washing a single mug like he always did, movements slow and careful. He didn’t hum, didn’t play music. He just existed quietly, like he wasn’t sure the space was really his. 

“You heading out tonight?” you asked, keeping your voice casual. 

He shook his head, “Nah.” 

“Tomorrow?” 

Another shake, “Probably not.” 

You waited for more. It didn’t come. 

He dried the mug and set it on the counter, eyes fixed on his hands like the answer was written there, “Campus’ll be empty,” he added, like that explained everything. 

You nodded, even though something in your chest tightened. 

Later that night, you unpacked your suitcase. 

You didn’t tell him you’d changed your mind. Not yet. You just stayed. 

~ 

Christmas showed up slowly. 

Not in anything loud or overwhelming, just in small things you noticed when the days stretched quiet and unclaimed. Someone had left a tiny artificial tree in the hallway, leaning against the wall with a note taped to it that said free. You carried it inside like it might vanish if you waited too long. 

Bucky watched from the doorway. 

“You didn’t have to,” he said, immediately. 

“I know,” you replied, plugging in a string of warm fairy lights you’d had stuffed in a drawer since last year, “I wanted to.” 

The lights blinked on, soft and uneven, casting little shadows across the room. The apartment looked different instantly warmer, less temporary. 

Bucky stared at them longer than necessary. 

“Looks… nice,” he said finally. 

You smiled, pretending your heart wasn’t doing something stupid 

~ 

The days settled into something gentle. 

You slept in. You wore hoodies and socks and shared the couch without really acknowledging it. Music played quietly from your phone while snow dusted the windows outside. 

You went grocery shopping together once, wandering aisles half-empty, arguing quietly about cereal brands. He carried the bags without being asked. You noticed the way he always walked slightly to the outside of the sidewalk, like he was protecting you from traffic even when there was none. 

At night, you sat on the floor near the little tree, backs against the couch, knees almost touching. 

Almost. 

Every time your fingers brushed, it felt like a question neither of you answered. 

Bucky was careful around you in a way that hurt sometimes. Like he was afraid of assuming too much. Like if he stayed polite enough, quiet enough, you wouldn’t regret being there. 

Once, you caught him fixing a loose cabinet hinge that barely needed it. 

“You don’t have to do that,” you said. 

He shrugged, “Keeps my hands busy.” 

You wondered if that was all it was. 

~ 

On Christmas Eve, the power flickered during a snowstorm. 

The lights cut out with a soft click, plunging the apartment into darkness, except for the tiny Christmas tree, still glowing stubbornly in the corner. 

You laughed quietly, “Of course.” 

Bucky huffed a breath that might’ve been a laugh too, “Guess Christmas didn’t give up.” 

You sat closer than you had before, drawn together by the small island of light. Your shoulder brushed his. This time, he didn’t move away. 

He looked at the tree, then at you, “You ever wish you’d gone home?” 

The question was careful. Like he was bracing for the answer. 

You swallowed, “No.” 

He nodded, like that was reasonable. Like it didn’t mean everything. 

~ 

Christmas night was quiet. 

No calls. No plans. Just the two of you, sitting on the floor again, sharing a blanket you hadn’t meant to share. The lights cast soft gold over his face, catching in the lines he didn’t talk about. 

You stared at the tree, then at your hands, then finally at him. 

“I stayed,” you said, voice steady even though your chest was anything but, “because of you.” 

Bucky froze. 

You turned toward him fully, “I wanted to be here. With you.” 

Silence stretched between you, thick and fragile. 

“You didn’t have to do that,” he said softly. 

“I know.” 

He looked at you like he was trying to understand something new. Something dangerous. 

“I didn’t think anyone would choose me on purpose,” he admitted. 

Your heart cracked open at the honesty of it. 

You reached out, slow enough to give him time to pull away. He didn’t. Your fingers curled around his, warm and sure. 

“I did,” you said. 

This time, when he leaned in, it wasn’t hesitant. The kiss was gentle, careful, like neither of you wanted to rush something that had taken months to say. 

Outside, snow kept falling. 

Inside, nothing felt empty anymore. 

Snow was falling softly outside the compound, painting the world in white. Inside, it was a chaos. Tony has insisted for a proper Christmas decoration this year, so everyone had to take part in it.  

You were on decoration duty with Natasha. Now that you were complaining. 

She had her hear up in a ponytail, a few loose strands framing her face as she carefully strung light across the common room. Natasha moved like she was defusing a bomb. She was focused, efficient and way to serious for something involving tinsel. 

“You now,” you said, balancing on the couch to hang a snowflake ornament, "you're allowed to smile during Christmas activities. It’s not a mission.” 

She glanced over her shoulder, “It is if I have to work with glitter.” 

“You say that like you weren’t the one who started a snowball fight with Barton last year,” you laughed, shaking your head. 

“That was tactical.” 

“Right. Tactical snowballs.” 

She smirked in the way that always made your stomach flip. 

You'd been dancing around each other for months, both on you perfectly capable of facing down enemies, yet apparently perfectly incapable of saying what you actually felt. The others had noticed, of course. Especially Wanda. 

You didn’t know it yet, but she had been watching you for the past few minutes from the kitchen doorway. Two idiots in love. Time for a little push. 

~ 

You were trying to untangle a string of lights when Natasha came up beside you, close enough that her shoulder brushed yours. 

“You missed a spot,” she murmured, reaching above you to fix it. 

Her breath ghosted against your ear and suddenly the world felt much warmer than it should have in December. 

“I think it’s fine,” you said quietly, refusing to move back. 

She gave a tiny shrug, clearly aware of how close you were, “Perfectionist tendencies. Occupational hazard.” 

You turned slightly, catching her gaze, “You know, for someone who claims not to like holidays, you’re really putting in effort.” 

She didn’t answer right away. Her lips curved into something softer, “Maybe I just like the company.” 

You froze. And that’s when you both noticed the faint red glow above your heads. 

Natasha’s eyes narrowed, “Please tell me that’s not...” 

“Mistletoe,” you sighed, “Oh my god.” 

Across the room, Wanda waved sweetly, feigning innocence, “Don’t mind me! Just spreading cheer.” 

You shot her a glare, “Wanda.” 

She grinned wider, “Tradition,” she said simply, before turning back to her cocoa like she hadn’t just staged a romantic ambush. 

Natasha groaned, rubbing a hand over her face, “She’s relentless.” 

“Yep. She’s also not gonna let this go until we...” 

“...until we follow tradition,” Natasha finished, her tone unreadable. 

There was a long silence. The twinkle lights reflected in her eyes, red and gold. 

You tried to laugh it off, but your voice came out smaller than intended, “We could… just fake it? Pretend?” 

Her gaze didn’t waver, “Do you want to?” 

You swallowed, “No.” 

Her lips twitched, the ghost of a smirk, nervous this time, “Good.” 

She stepped closer, one hand brushing against your jaw. Her fingers were warm. 

“This doesn’t mean anything,” she teased lightly, “Just, you know. Tradition.” 

You smiled, barely breathing, “Right. Purely tactical.” 

Her laugh was soft and then her lips met yours. 

It wasn’t a dramatic kiss. It was gentle, hesitant, as if neither of you wanted to scare the other away. But when you finally pulled back, the mistletoe glowed a brilliant crimson before floating off, satisfied. 

From the kitchen, Wanda cheered, “Finally!” 

You both turned to glare at her, but it was ruined by your shared smiles. 

Natasha shook her head, muttering, “I’m going to kill her.” 

“Uh-huh. After you thank her?” 

She looked at you and her smirk softened into something that felt dangerously close to tender. 

“Maybe,” she said, “Eventually.” 

You grinned, “Merry Christmas, Romanoff.” 

Natasha leaned in again, her lips brushing yours once more, “Best one I’ve had yet.” 

Bucky hadn’t planned on this.  

He's been halfway out the door already. Jacket on, keys in hand. When you friend had grabbed his sleeve and pointed vaguely in your direction. 

“Can you take her home?” she had asked, “She’s very drunk.” 

Now you were in the passenger seat of his car, seatbelt on crooked, clutching a half-empty water bottle like it was a prized possession.  

He cleared his throat and pulled away from the curb, knuckles tight on the wheel. 

“So,” he said, trying for casual, “You, uh... you like the car?” 

You turned your head slowly, eyes landing on him with surprising focus. You blinked once, then smiled softly, a little crooked. 

“I do like your car,” you said sincerely, before lifting the bottle and taking a long drink. 

Bucky smiled despite himself, “Oh, really?” 

You nodded, then shrugged, “I didn’t pay a single bit of attention to the outside of it.” 

He opened his mouth, then paused. 

“I just paid attention to you.” 

The words hit him a second too late. 

He was still processing when you added, cheerfully, “So of course I like it.”  

Bucky swallowed, eyes flicking briefly to the windshield. 

“…You paid attention to me?” he asked. 

“Yeah,” you said easily, turning your body toward him, “I did.” 

His heart kicked hard against his ribs. 

“Like,” he started, voice suddenly unsure, “in a friend...” 

You didn’t let him finish. 

Your hand reached up, fingers brushing the back of his head, warm and deliberate against the short hair at his neck. 

“Oh,” he said softly, “Not in a friend way.” 

Bucky made a noise that wasn’t a word. 

“Oh my...” he shifted in his seat, shoulders tensing, laughter bubbling out of him from pure nerves, “Oh my God.” 

Your fingers moved slowly, playing with the hair at his nape, tracing lazy patterns that made his skin light up like static. 

“Shut up,” you told him fondly, “You lil dorky freak.” 

He tried to respond. He really did. 

“I...” 

Your fingers brushed his ear. 

Bucky's voice cracked immediately, “I’m... I’m trying to drive.” 

“Drive straight,” you instructed, entirely too calm. 

“I’m trying,” he said, laughing now, completely flustered, grip tightening on the wheel, “I’m trying!” 

Your hand stayed where it was, thumb brushing just beneath his ear and Bucky exhaled shakily. 

“You are making me nervous,” he admitted, a breathless smile tugging at his mouth. 

You leaned back in your seat, satisfied, sipping your water like you hadn’t just dismantled him in under five minutes. 

~ 

The rest of the drive is quieter.

Streetlights pass in slow rhythm, casting gold and shadow across Bucky’s hands on the wheel. He keeps his eyes forward now, jaw tight, like he’s afraid that if he looks at you again he’ll lose whatever fragile control he’s managed to claw back. 

You hum softly to yourself, something tuneless, water bottle resting against your knee. Every so often you shift, the movement small but enough for him to notice anyway. He notices everything now. Your breathing. The way your knee angles toward him. The faint scent of alcohol and perfume and something warm he can’t place. 

“You’re very quiet,” you say after a moment. 

“I’m concentrating,” he answers immediately. 

“On the road?” 

“…Yes.” 

You tilt your head, studying him. He feels it like a weigh, “You’re cute when you’re nervous.” 

Bucky exhales a laugh through his nose, “I’m not nervous.” 

You raise a brow. Slowly, you reach out again, but this time you stop just short of touching him, fingers hovering near his arm. 

He clears his throat, “Please don’t.” 

You blink, pulling your hand back. 

“Oh,” you say, softer now, “Okay.” 

Guilt hits him instantly. 

“I...” he sighs, stealing a quick glance at you. You’re not upset. Watching him, “It’s not that I don’t want... I mean. I just met you. And you’re drunk. And I’m trying to be a decent person.” 

Your lips curve, “That’s very honourable of you.” 

“That’s the goal,” he mutters. 

Silence settles again, gentler this time. 

A few minutes later, he slows the car and pulls up in front of an apartment building. He checks the address on his phone, then nods, “This is you, right?” 

You look out the window, then back at him, “Yeah. That’s home.” 

He puts the car in park but doesn’t move right away, “You good to walk? Or do you need help?” 

You consider this very seriously. Then: “I think I might sway a little.” 

“Okay,” he says, already unbuckling his seatbelt, “Then I’ll walk you.” 

Outside, the night air is cool. You wobble exactly once before Bucky’s hand finds your elbow, steady and careful. He keeps his touch light, like he’s afraid of doing the wrong thing. 

At the door, you fumble with your keys. Bucky gently takes them from your hand. 

“Here,” he says, “I’ve got it.” 

You watch him unlock the door like it’s the most fascinating thing you’ve ever seen. 

When he hands the keys back, you don’t take them right away. 

He steps back, giving you space, “Get some more water. Sleep it off. Tomorrow might be… fuzzy.” 

You laugh, “I hope I remember you.” 

Bucky smiles, small and private, “Me too.” 

He turns to leave, then pauses when you call his name. 

“Next time,” you say, leaning against the doorframe, “I won’t be drunk.” 

His breath catches. 

“I’ll hold you to that,” he says, and walks away before either of you can say something that would change everything. 

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The mission had been rougher than usual. 

Nothing Natasha couldn’t handle, but enough to leave her exhausted. Too many hours without sleep. Too many close calls.  

By the time the quinjet landed, every muscle in her body ached. She wanted a shower, a little quiet, maybe something warm to drink. Nothing more.  

The compound halls were mostly dark, everyone either asleep or in their rooms. Natasha moved silently, her hair still damp from the rain she’d flown through. 

She stopped by the kitchen to get something to drink. The kitchen at night was always her favourite place. It was quiet, dim and soft. Her little slice of peace before collapsing into bed.  

She expected silence.  

But instead, she walked in and froze at the sight of you.  

You were perched on the counter, legs swinging, the fridge light glowing behind you like a cheap halo. You looked comfortable. At ease. Like this was your safe place too.  

You glanced up when you heard her footsteps and your entire face lit up. 

“Oh, I didn’t think anyone was still awake,” you said, voice warm, “I was just getting a snack and then I remembered something and I figured I’d wait a bit in case you came back tonight.” 

Natasha blinked slowly, exhausting pulling at her expression as she shrugged off her jacket. You didn’t notice how drained she looked. You only noticed that she was here. 

“And uh... how was the mission? I mean, obviously you’re back, so you survived, which is great, but I bet it was stressful and you’re probably hungry. Did you know elephants actually...” 

You were already rambling before she reached the kettle. Your hands moved animatedly, your voice spinning from elephants to cream sauces. Every thought tumbling out of you with that bright, breathless energy Natasha usually found comforting.  

Usually. But she had been awake for nearly 36 hours. Her head throbbed. Her nerves were raw. And you continued without noticing. 

“...and I tried that pasta recipe you taught me, but I think I whisked the sauce wrong. Do you whisk sauces? I'm not sure, I probably whisked the wrong thing honestly, but anyways...” 

Natasha sat heavily on the stool at the counter, rubbing her eyes. Your voice kept going. Soft, cheerful and relentless.  

“And I was thinking that tomorrow, if you’re not too busy, we could try making it again, because even though it tasted kind of okay I think I messed up the...” 

“Please, stop!” 

The words landed sharp enough to slice through your sentence.  

You blinked, “Oh. Sorry, was I...” 

Natasha pressed the heel of her hand to her forehead, “Can you just... stop talking for one minute?” she snapped, “You talk too much sometimes. You don’t have to fill every second with noise. I just... please. Shut up for a second.” 

The kitchen felt instantly colder. You didn’t speak. Didn't try to explain. Didn't even breathe for a moment. 

Natasha didn’t look back at you. She just pushed away from the counter, mumbling something about sleep and disappearing down the hallway. 

You stayed frozen on the countertop, fingers curled tightly against your palms, the familiar warmth in your chest extinguished in one clean blow.  

You had thought she liked listening. 

You had thought she liked you. 

~ 

The next day silence replaced everything. 

When Natasha entered a room, you left. Not dramatically, just quietly, quickly, like a shadow slipping away from the light. 

You barely said a word. Not to Natasha, not to the others. But it hit Natasha harder that anyone. 

The first morning, she assumed you were still waking up.  

The second, she frowned when you answered her “good morning” with a quiet nod and escaped immediately. 

By the third, she stood outside the gym for a full minute, watching you wipe down equipment, headphones on, pretending not to notice her. 

“Hey,” she tried. 

You only murmured, “Don’t worry. I'm almost done,” and left the room before she could say another word. 

On the fourth day, Natasha walked into the living room only to watch you stand up mid-conversation with Wanda and disappear without a glance.  

Wanda frowned after you. 

Natasha felt something twist painfully inside her. 

On the fifth day, the silence felt like punishment. 

But the worst part was the part that made Natasha’s stomach drop. It was the way you refused to even look at her, as if eye contact alone was too much to risk. 

Natasha couldn’t take it anymore. 

She went straight to your room. No knocking. No waiting. 

She opened the door to find you sitting on the bed, knees pulled to your chest, hoodie sleeves covering half your hands as you stared at the wall like it was safer than anything else. 

“Okay,” Natasha said, closing the door behind her, “That’s enough. You’re going to talk to me.” 

You didn’t move. She came closer but kept a careful distance. 

“Detka.” 

Nothing. Her voice softened in a way only you ever heard. 

“Please.” 

You swallowed, looking down, “I thought that’s what you didn’t want. Me talking.” 

Natasha looked like you’d stabbed her, “What do you mean?” 

Your fingers tightened in the fabric of your sleeves, “You said I talk too much,” you whispered, voice thin, “That I should shut up. So I did.” 

Natasha took a slow step closer, shaking her head immediately, “Y/N… I was exhausted. I shouldn’t have said that. I didn’t mean...” 

“But you did,” you said quietly, finally lifting your eyes to meet hers. The hurt there made Natasha’s breath catch, “And you were right.” 

Natasha froze, “Right?” 

You nodded, a broken little movement, “I do talk too much. I don’t know how to shut up. I don’t know how to be… quiet like the others. I ramble. I overshare. I get excited and I don’t stop to think and I annoy people.” 

Natasha’s chest tightened painfully. She shook her head again, more desperate this time. 

“You don’t annoy me.” 

Your laugh cracked halfway through, “Nat, you literally told me to shut up.” 

Natasha flinched like you’d struck her. 

“That wasn’t about you,” she said softly, “It was me. I was tired. I took it out on you. And it was wrong.” 

You shook your head, eyes dropping again, voice trembling. 

“It’s pathetic, you know,” you whispered, “How much I talk. How much I rely on you. How you’re the only person I feel comfortable rambling to. The only person I talk to at all.” 

Natasha slowly sat down beside the bed, close enough to reach you if you let her. 

You didn’t look up. 

“I don’t have family. I don’t have friends. I don’t have anyone,” you said, voice almost too quiet to hear, “Just you. And I ruined even that.” 

Natasha exhaled sharply, emotion tightening her throat. 

“Stop,” she whispered, leaning forward slightly, “Don’t say that.” 

“It’s true.” 

“No,” Natasha said, more firmly, “It’s not.” 

You blinked, startled by the sudden strength in her tone. 

“You didn’t ruin anything,” Natasha continued, her voice gentling again, “I did that. With one careless sentence. And I’ve regretted it every second since.” 

You swallowed hard, looking at your hands. 

Natasha hesitated, then reached out slowly and gently touched your wrist. 

“Hey,” she murmured, waiting until you looked at her, “You’re not too much. You’re not annoying. And you’re definitely not pathetic.” 

Your eyes glossed with tears you tried to blink away. Natasha leaned a little closer. 

“I miss your voice,” she whispered. 

You froze. 

“I miss the way you talk about things that excite you. I miss listening to you. I miss how… alive you sound when you ramble,” she swallowed, voice almost breaking, “I’ve missed you every single day you’ve been quiet.” 

Your breath hitched. 

“You really… want me to talk again?” 

Natasha nodded immediately, almost desperately. 

“I want you,” she said softly, “just as you are. All of you. Every word.” 

You breathed out shakily, and for the first time in days, your voice didn’t sound hollow. 

“…Okay.” 

Natasha’s shoulders dropped in relief. She exhaled like she’d been holding her breath for five days. 

“Good,” she whispered, eyes softening, “Now come here.” 

This time, when she opened her arms, you didn’t hesitate. 

You sank into her and Natasha held you like she’d been waiting forever for you to let her.